I miss you Larayna.  I miss hearing your voice and seeing you smile. I miss hearing your thoughts and opinions. I miss your laugh.  I miss all of our time together.  My mind can't accept that you're not here with me. I surround myself with your pictures but it's not enough.  I can't live off our memories. I'm broken by your life being cut so short. 

Larayna went to weaver preschool and then pioneer elementary until 3rd grade.  Then we moved to turlock so I could complete my Bachelors degree in Sociology at csu Stanislaus. There she went to Julien elementary for 4th and 5th grade. After I graduated we came back to Merced and she went to hoover. Then she went to Merced high.  She then transferred to Yosemite High to catch up on some credits. Instead of going back to Merced high,  she wanted to stay at Yosemite High were she liked the teachers and classroom sizes were smaller.  She enjoyed her classes,  especially women's studies. She was able to finish high school a semester early.  She started at Merced College with a major in Photography. It was in her second semester signs of brain cancer appeared. We just didn't know that it was brain cancer.  

Larayna is the best part of my life.  She made my life worth living. Her happiness made me happy.  We created a life of love,  fun and great experiences. We loved going to the ocean.  We went more times than I can count. We would talk and listen to music. We would search for shells and watch the waves.  As she got older she was less interested in swimming and more interested in finding mini seashells. We always went to pizza my heart after.  She loved pesto pizza. I would get combination. I would take her shopping.  We loved costal stores.  The Ross and th Max would have better stuff than our local towns.  

Larayna I miss you so much.  It's hurts so much to be without. I can't keep living without. My heart and mind can't handle much much. Mommy loves and misses you so much. 

They're no words to express the amount of pain I have to be here without you.  We both were looking forward to celebrating your 21st birthday.  I hope you're celebrating in heaven.  Your momma misses you greatly.