I'm so sorry I wasn't there when you died. I had to realize that you weren't going to be around too long after you died at home and they brought you back 12/24 /2017.  After that. It was just your time and I couldn't stop that. I don't think I could have lived through it if I had been there. I'm forever going to miss you and always love you. We had 15 years and all well worth the time.   I will be there to spend more time with you someday so wait for me. Tell Dutch together again is me and you