Oh Mother so much has happened. I miss you! I have had surgery after surgery you are a great grandmother... GREAT NAN you have 2 great grandsons! 
I am sure you are beyond proud of Erynn! She named him Charlee Wayne! Mother he is perfect and she is doing a great job being a mom.! I wanna cry every time I see him. Georgia names her little boy George Stanley he is so tiny. Georgia is doing great as well. Wyatt moved away that still hurts, I wish you were here to tell me what to do. I have failed so many times as a mom. Wish I could take away all the pain I have caused my kids. I still have a hard time believing you are gone! Please keep a watch over my kids! 

Your angel I getting married. As I sat watching her trybon dresses I thought back to when she was small. And playing wedding in your livingroom. Mother as much as I am so happy for her this is the first thing to happen since you left! I love you so much mother and miss you I don't know how I will get through such a important day without you. My heart just breaks and I try to maintain a smile when she is talking about her wedding. Mother I don't know how to do this I thought I had been doing so good. But I just want to hear your voice and you hold me!