It’s been 17 years or 17 years of tears, heartache, and pain, but God held me in His arms and all is explained. I kiss you day by day, but I no longer think something was taken away. His just simply wanted His son back. I thank Him everyday for the love, memories, and time shared on this earth with you, but in the end there’s no getting over you. I look in your baby brother’s face and I still see Nod G in every way. Your leaving left us so much pain, sorrow, but beautiful memories of your love. I tell myself all the time. When I lost Notty,
I lost my shine, but my light turn brighter with my Kevin on my mind. I will never forget when Kev walked in my bedroom wearing your jacket and hat. I was waking from a sleep and I said, Nod’s back! I released the stronghold and grief that I carried for years, but I still cry random tears. I am crying as I write this for you, but mommy have God and He’ll always see me through. I still have your friends here with
me everyday because they know they love their boi, their other brother, and their ride or die mate. I bet Jarmon still ride alone because it’s been that way since Nod G is gone. Soon it will be twenty years and I will still be mommy with Kev crying tears. I couldn’t be the Debbie I am today hadn’t
I lost you, God knew I had to find Him to make it through. I guess nephew Dee will have his drank today. Cry, and tell me how they took his brother/ cousin away. Know that we all miss you being with us, but we all can make it through God’s trust. It’s your 17 year anniversary in Heaven and I just had ti hollar at you and let you know how we live you. Rest In Paradise.