July 26, 2017
July 26, 2017
Hey mom today was like all the other days that I wish I could share with you in person. Found out that Auntie Bunny has stage 4 cancer and the she said that the doctors are giving her 6 months to a year to live. Yeah this is a pretty hard one to deal with. I know what I was taught and what I believe in is true but it still hurts. I wish I had words of encouragement and comfort to tell her but honestly this is harder than I thought. I keep flashing back to the road you traveled and it was rough. Tonight before I go to bed I will pray to God and ask him for strength and understanding not only for me but for her kids and their children and the rest of the family, cause only God can do the impossible and I know I can't go wrong with him nor his word. My heart is heavy and my spirit is sadden but I will continue to grow and be strong for all those around me. Today I found out that another friend of mine's wife passed away on her birthday and I can't even imagine the pain that he is feeling right now. I'm scared mom of going through that if something like that happened to me. I don't never want to feel that pain, but I know I love Keisha with all my heart and some and if it happens that way then I can say thank you for allowing me the opportunity to love her whole heartily even if it's only for a short time. I've asked her to marry me and she said yes. I wish you could see her face when she talks about it and see how she glows when she gets excited thinking about it. She truly does make me happy and the girls are my pride and joy. I am going to be the most proudest man ever to have her as my wife. I've seen my girls in my dreams again and this time they have gotten so much older and it seems like they know that they are with me in my dreams. I wish I could have a real relationship with them. I miss them so much. Well I also wanted to tell you that Clint passed away earlier this year too. Yeah another hard one to get through but I didn't have to do it all by myself thanks to all those around me. The 4 of us are doing a pretty good with each other. We keep in touch with each other and we stay on each others heart. Well I can go on and on talking with you but as you know I got a few things to take care of before I go to bed so good night mom. I love you.