I was so happy when I found out I was pregnant,but I didn't have the surport but I made my decision that I will do what ever it takes. When I had my scan something was wrong & it just went from bad to worse,my little man had so many problems it went from a 50% chance to a 25% chance  of survival but I stayed positive. The day came & baby Lewis was born. They took him away to get his lungs working,i had to just wait to see what was happening,I then got told he won't make the night,my world ended there & then they rushed me to see him,he was perfect on the outside but poorly on the inside. I got to hold him for abit b4 he passed away in my arms. Don't think I will ever witness pain like it!! He will always be my special baby & will always be in my heart. Beautiful angel mummy loves you xxxx