Aunt Lori, I wish you were still here. Since you went home our family has turned into almost no one and nothing. Those who are still here( me, my cousins, siblings and so on) don’t even talk to each other or spend holidays together like we use to when we were smaller. I sometimes miss hearing you call me Anna Banana. I miss you auntie!!

Mom,

It’s been 12 years (tomorrow) since you have passed and I really miss you. I’m going through so much that I wish I had you to hug me and tell me it’ll all be ok. Noah and Elly are getting big and Noah wishes he could’ve met you too. I tell him about you and show him the pictures I have. When he’s older I’ll tell him the whole story.

I love you and miss you so much! ♥️❤️♥️❤️

Love,
Nina

I miss you SO much gram , it hits me hard. But the most on my birthday the 18th. I lost you the next day, I was 12 and never really knew how to cope, I watched as you took your final breath and I’ll never forget that feeling. I LOVE you, I wish so much to have you back, but I know your with me because of the butterflies. I wouldn’t want you to have to deal with anymore pain on this earth anyway. I just hope you keep watching over me and my mom, and all my family. We all love you

I recently had my daughter, ELLYANA MAE SCHMID, on July 22, 2021 and she was given your middle name :). I miss you so much and wish you were still around to see all your grandkids and meet the new ones that weren’t around yet when u were alive! You would’ve loved them all ❤️

Each year is hard for me around your birthday and DOD and I’m not sure if it hits others the same way but I just feel like I lost so much time with you because of us having to go into the system and not see you for 5-6years. That was the time I feel like I needed you the most and you could’ve answered so many questions that others ended up answering but who knows what was true and made up? I miss you so much and I see your pictures in my house everyday and just know you would’ve been proud of all your children at this point in their lives!

Rest In Peace mom I love you more than words can express!!!

Auntie I miss you alot. I think about all the talks we had and how you helped me to understand certain things. You are my favorite auntie and miss you alot.. You would love my three kids. They are teenagers so you know how that goes. Lol. But they are so precious and gave me a purpose and reason in life. I remember wanting to take my life and you told me I dont know right now but when I'm older I will know what the reason and purpose is. And I see it. I have great kids and have changed my life around and cherish every day and every minute. Wishing you were here with us to enjoy it. But I know you are our guardian angel to keep us with the courage and strength you have. I love you and miss you but I know you are here in spirit. I love you auntie.. Love Anna Banana

Happy Thanksgiving Mother.
I miss you.
I wish you were here.
I admire so many things about you. I have so many memories.
Today,I thought about your courage.
I don't remember you ever telling me you were scared. I don't remember you complaining and I don't remember you being sick because you never acted that way.
I see your courage now!
I am going through something similar and I'll tell you the truth I am scared. I never thought my life would turn out this way. I feel like I have so much to do and so little time but I'm not God( only He Knows). I never thought about consequences.
That was a mistake.
Everyday,I think about you.
Today,I am thinking
That I can only hope to be as courageous as you.
You were a great mother and my best friend. You are loved and missed more than you could ever know.
I love you! Aahme

Mother,
I think about you often.
At times I have so much guilt,that it eats me up inside. I cry for you and wish you were here. You were my best friend. I wish I would have been a better daughter. I wish I wouldn't have been so angry and mean growing up. You would be so proud of the woman I have become. I have healed from my past,but you are the chapter I always have trouble with.
I am writing a book called "The Letters". I've dedicated it to you. Writing the book has been a real challenge because it has stirred up so many memories about you. I can always hear Jesus saying". I forgive you daughter. But the problem is I don't forgive myself for the things I did or didn't do for you. I was so lost in my addiction, pain and trauma that I just couldn't love you or anybody the right way. I'm sorry. I was in denial when you got sick,it's as if I couldn't see you or I was looking through a different set of eyes. I never saw what everyone else saw. So when I look at your pictures now. It makes me break down because I didn't see that. How could I not?Mabe God was shielding me. But it makes me so sad and heartbroken. If I would have known you were so sick I would have went to the ends of the Earth to find a cure or help you get better. You know I would have. I just miss my best friend! I can't wait until you meet me in the clouds what a wonderful day that will be. I know you're waiting for me. Once I get done with my work here,I'll be there with you Grandma and Cedric. I love you always. Kiss Jesus for me. By the way I was always proud of you for overcoming all of your obstacles in life. Love always, Aahme

MOM,
I heard a song that you used to sing all the time for karaoke and it made me tear up and think of you. I miss you so much!!! Noah is 4 now and he reminds me of you with some of his mannerisms and he knows who you are because i show him your picture. I have a cute little urn with some of your ashes in it in my curio cabinet. I still have a locket with your ashes as well that i wear so that you're always with me. I love and miss you so much!!!! XOXOXOXOXO

I miss you sooooo much mom! I think about you always. There are many things that I wish you would've gotten to see/ experience and you went before your time. And although I cant bring you back I can say that I am proud and happy to be able to call you my mom. Thank you for allowing me to be able to know you, love you, miss you, and thank you for bringing me into this world. I cant wait to see you again in Heaven. I love you soooo much!!

With Love,
Jaidyn (Christina- Nina) XOXO <3

Such a young soul and loving person. It is sad to think how evil people made your life hell. I miss you mom and I am happy that you are in a better place. I promise I wont be selfish and want you back to this hell on Earth. I love you so much and I have my regrets about how our relationship has been throughout the 28 years I had with you. But, YOU are loved more that you know. You will never be forgotten. You will always be in your childrens hearts. We didnt always show it, but we love you unconditionally.

Mother,
i had a dream about you lastnight......
how terrible it was to re-live loosing you all over again!
you are loved and missed.
Aahme

I miss you mommy!!! In a week from today it will be 2 years since your passing. I need you now more than ever. I miss you SOOO much.

Mom, sometimes I cant stop thinking about how much I absolutely miss you. I have the most amazing boyfriend named Reed. I wish you would have been able to meet him :( But he is everything I have ever wanted in a man. I know that you are in heaven looking down and seeing how good we are together but I REALLY miss you a LOT.

Mom why did you have to leave our lives so soon? I miss you so much and we are in the times of our lives that we need you. I know you are in heaven and always with us no matter what, and that you are in our prayers, but i miss hugging you and being able to tell you how much I love you. RIP and I think about you always. Love your little Nina girl.

I love and miss you so much mommy. I know that you are in heaven and are proud of me and our family. I just wish that you could be here to see me now but GOD had a reason to take you away from us. I miss you. RIP