MAMI I MISS YOU
IT'S ONE YEAR TODAY THAT YOU LEFT ME YOU LEFT US,I CAN'T BEGIN TO TELL YOU HOW MUCH PAIN I HAVE BEEN GOING THROUGH
I SWEAR I NEVER FELT PAIN LIKE THIS EVER,MOMMY I REMEMBER WHEN THEY CALLED ME 3:28am AND TOLD ME I NEEDED TO
GO TO THE HOSPITAL BECAUSE THEY WERE INTUBATING YOU YOU WERE HAVING TROUBLE BREATHING ON YOUR OWN
AND THEN I WENT CRAZY GETTING DRESSED TO GO TO YOU I TOOK A CAB WITH MIGUEL
AND WHEN I GOT THERE I SAW YOU BREATHING THROUGH A TUBE ALMOST LIFELESS BUT YOU
KNEW IT WAS ME AND MIGUEL MICKEY AND RATON GOT THERE ASWELL BUT BEFORE THAT ME AND YOU HAD SPOKE THAT PART WONT BE HERE
IM GLAD ME AND YOU GOT THAT I ASKED YOU A FEW QUESTIONS AND WITH YOUR
EYES YOU ANSWERED ME THEN ALL THE NURSES STARTED TO RUN I GOT SO SCARED YOU HAD GOTTEN WORSE AND NEEDED
TO BE TRANSFERRED TO INTESIVE CARE UNIT I SAT AT THE HALLWAY TILL 6 AM AND THE DOCTOR'S ASKED FOR ME TO LEAVE THERE WAS NOTHING I COULD DO
THEY LET ME SEE YOU AND I BROKE DOWN YOU TOLD ME U LOVE ME AND WE MARCHED OUT YOUR ROOM
FOLLOWING DAY VISIT YOU WITH HOPE TO WALKING IN SEEING YOU WIDE AWAKE BECAUSE YOU WERE STRONG AND THEN WHEN WE DID YOU WHERE WORSE THAN BEFORE AND THAT BROKE MY HEART MOMMY.FOR THE NEXT 2 DAYS WE ALL VISIT BUT YOU WASN'T GETTING ANY BETTER AND I WAS HOPING THAT YOU DID MAMI
THEN AT THE 3RD DAY THE DOCTOR SAID SHE NEEDED TO SPEAK TO ME SO WE DID AND THAT IS WHEN I KNEW THAT MY MOMMY WOULD SOON BE GONE
FAMILY CAME IN AND OUT TO VISIT BUT FRANKIE HAD THEM AT TOTAL CONTROL MARY AND ME WITH UNLIMITED TIME WITH YOU ALSO KNOWING WHAT THE NURSE HAD SAID WE NEEDED TO SPEAK TO THE FAMILY SO ON WE WENT TO LET THEM KNOW EVERYONE CRYED EVERYONE WAS SO SAD TO KNOW THAT YOUR TIME WAS COUNTED AND WE ALL GOT OUTTA CONTROL AFTER ALL THE COMMOTION EVERYONE WENT HOME I CAN SAY THAT YOUR DEATH TOOK EVERYONE AND PUT THEM IN A SHOCK THE VISIT THAT WOULD BE THE LAST WAS THE WORSE THE DAY YOU DEPARTED MAMI THE DAY YOU LEFT WAS THE DAY I LOST IT ALL
MAMI WE WENT IN TO VISIT AND THE DOCTOR TOLD US THAT AFTER TODAY THEY COULDN'T DO MUCH MORE WOW DID I GET DEPPRESED AND THEN I REALIZED IM LOSING MY BEST EVERYTHING WOW WE ALL SPOKE AS TIME WENT BYE I REMEMBER EVERYONE TELLING ME SO MUCH BUT FRANKIES VOICE SAID YOUR MOM WOULDNT WANT YOU LIKE THAT SO I WENT WITH HIM TO EAT I DIDNT WANT TO BUT WE DID AFTER WE ORDERED FOOD I ALMOST SAT DOWN BUT MY PHONE RANG AND I HEARD THE NURSE SAY MILAGROS SHE IS ALMOST GONE OMG I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO DIE MAMI I WENT INSANE I LEFT THE MCDONALDS RAN ACROSS THE STREET WITHOUT MY SHOES AND THEN I MADE IT TO YOU AND EVERYTHING WAS NORMAL I WHISPERED I LOVE YOU AND SAID MAMI WHENEVER YOU READY YOU GO I FELT YOU TAKE A DEEP BREATH AND THEN YOU WAS GONE I LOST CONTROL WHEN IT WAS TIME TO BEREMOVED OFF YOU MAMI AND FROM THERE ON I DONT KNOW WHAT BEING HAPPY IS BECAUSE WITH OUT YOU I THOUGHT THERE WAS NO REASON TO LIVE I SWEAR I THOUGHT I WAS DEAD WITH YOU ALL I CAN SAY IS THAT THIS YEAR HAS NOT HELPED ME COPE WITH YOU BEING GONE FROM YOUR DEATH ON I SWEAR I WENT THROUGH HELL AND IMSCARED TO I WANNA BE WITH YOU BUT I KNOW YOU WANT ME TO RAISE MY KIDS BUT MAMI SOMETIMES I FEEL I WILL BE WITH YOU SOON BATTLING THIS CANCER HAS ME GOING CRAZY WHEN U LEFT ME IT WAS THE WORS SO I ASK FOR YOU TO GUIDE ME I DONT WANT TO LEAVE MY KIDS MAMI THAT PAIN IS ON BEARABLE RIP MAMI I MISS YOU