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Dis memorial website was created n memory of our Amazing Mother, Margurite Johnson, born on November 17,1962 an passed away on June 25, 2014. She will never be forgotten but always remembered

By her loved ones... 

May 28, 2022
May 28, 2022
Hey mom sry I haven't been on here more often I been busy n trying to deal wit everything n mi life i do miss n love u very much I talked bout u to mi niece Nina I tried to give da best answers to her questions I hope I did OK cos I really don't have mi own answers to everything am still trying to deal wit ur death sum days I just want to lay n bed n cry never get up but ik u didn't raise me like dat to be weak u raised a strong black puerto rican woman to stand tall n issues like dis an believe me am trying to be strong for u .... Lov u
May 10, 2021
May 10, 2021
Happy Mother's Day Mom
I miss u ik u heard me yesterday wen I cried out to u idk wat do anymore I hurt all da time mom u was da only one i trust to talk to and now ur gone u left a hole n mi heart dat I don't know how to fill I feel empty n alone i just want to know y u left me here by mi self to deal wit dis hurt dat doesnt go away.... I love u mom so much n miss u more then u know....
May 6, 2021
May 6, 2021
Hey mom am so sry I haven't written u n awhile just been so busy but I just wanted u to know dat I lov n miss very much am I really wish u was here right now am trying mi hardest to stay focused n have faith n strength i still don't understand y God took u from me maybe it was to teach me a lesson an I don't know wat dat is yet ik ur mad at me for wat am doing but its wat am gud act n am sry am disappointing u I don't mean to ik u hate wen I hurt mi self but its da only thing ik how to relief stress da kids are fine they miss u alot mom i miss u so much it hurts to write u sum times mi dreams never go away its like a reminder of all da things I did wit u an da night wen u was at da hospital ik I should of been there wit u but I was there I saw u I tried to reach u an I tried to help u
plz don't blame me for not being there . D been here off n on he really don't stay long but I have 1 BFF an her name is Hada u would like her n 2 bodyguards Emanuel n Slim they gud ppl mom ik n mi heart u would like em.
PS plz let mi lil brother know I didn't forget bout him 

February 22, 2021
February 22, 2021
Hey mom I know its been awhile since I wrote u an am sry I just been busy working but am pretty sure u know dat already am so sry I have disappointed u but it seems like dis is wat am gud at RN would it be wrong to say I kinda lov it I remember wen u started doing it u would say dis is only temp. I miss ur smile n u laughing us having movie nights I miss laying n bed wit u while we talked I miss everything bout u mom...
             Love Always ur daughter Renee
January 28, 2021
January 28, 2021
Hey mom sup hru doing I miss u so much right now mi heart is hurting so bad I don't know wat to do I feel so alone n unloved and now KP is mad at me for sum thing I have no control over mi moods are bad right now I feel like giving up on everything u worked so hard to teach me to deal with everything one step at times I can't do it anymore I nd u here right now ur da only one dat can help me n show me wat am doing wrong dat nobody wan to be around me I try to do everything da right way and still get fucked n da process.... I just miss god would have took me da same day he took u from cos I don't want to be here anymore I don't understand y am still here I hate it here I just want to be wit u mom dat away ik u will love me for me n who am right now like u always did... Mom u ever feel so alone dat u have no feelings anymore dat u miss u was never brought n dis world cos I do God has taken everything from me and idk y can u find out if he's punishing me for sum thing I did cos first he took JoJo, Demetra , Aunti Jean, Uncle Wayne, Chris, Nana, Kendall, Uncle Bill, Lance, Big Mama, Cabeza, Maurice, Aunti Faye, Aunti Nadine, Shelly who's next n mi life to leave me n never come back cos I don't know if I can take another death n mi family again... Am so tired of being here I just want dis pain to go away n not come back if I wouldn't had made dat promise to KP a long time ago I would have been took mi life cos right now I don't even know y am still here and yes mom I still remember u telling me dat God keeps ppl on dis earth for a reason well plz tell me y am here cos so far I have done nothing but fuck up shit to da point I feel like taking mi life most of da time and it crosses mi mind damn near every day mom it really do and I have never broken a promise before but mi thoughts are getting to me bad... Hey mom do u think KP would ever forgive me if I broke mi promise to him i know he would be mad at me but dats not da first time anyways so I really don't think it would matter anyways if i did or not i barely see ppl anyways....
Mom plz don't get mad at me dis is just how I feel right now an u said to write mi thoughts / feelings down instead of keeping em n side of me an dats wat am doing right now ik its been awhile since I wrote anything down on paper ur death hurt me so bad to da point i was so angry at God for taking u from me I really didn't care if i died right then n there i just know i wan u back an dis pain to go away an I really don't think its ever going to leave mi side....I have failed u as a mother mi own kids don't want to be bothered with me anymore and I understand y and a fuck up wit a lot of problems I can't even lov mi self let alone love mi kids da way they nd to be God hurry up n take me away.... I love u mom 
January 25, 2021
January 25, 2021
Hey Mom hru doing up there I hope everything is gud I really miss u a lot an am in lov wit Divine mom u n unc was right bout him he's a keeper Lord knows I lov dis man i would do anything for him I wrote about him mom I just don't want to scare him away cos da way I feel bout him....
                Divine
I remember wen I first saw u I was like damn mmmm there was sum thing about u dat I liked from jump start. da way u talked to me, ur smile was sexii asf an, da way u looked at like ur eyes was undressing cos i know I was an, ur lips mmmm I knew u could kiss real gud and, ur personality I lov, da way u make me feel wen am around u its like a high / cloud 9 being wit u , I can feel da n me wanting u so bad and Lord da way u touch mi body it makes me want to climax just talking about it mmmm an yes I do love u very much I care a lot about u wen am around u I don't have to worry about u cos I know ur safe wen am around cos I will always have ur back no matter wat we go thru an its da same way wit me I feel safe wen am around u I know u got mi back an dats wat makes us one... I'm like ur protector / guardian angel I will take a bullet / a life for u dats how strong mi feels are for u an it ain't gonna change cos I know u care bout me an I know u lov me as well or u wouldn't be able to trust me like I trust u am so loyalty to u its not even funny. soy tu reina an ur tu eres mi rey dats all da matter to me.... Te AMO MI AMOR
                  From ur wifey Bleu
Its funny cos mi mom/ uncle said it was like i was born to da streets from wen i first showed em wat i can do at 14 mi uncle told me i was more loyal to him then anyone he ever knew or had on his crew cos of da power / gift i have wit ppl it was like a fear they had wen came around... Dats one reason y I acted da way I do cos I was taught to deal wit things and handle things da right way an how I was showed too...
Do u think by reading it dat I scared him or no I just nd to know mom let me know plz I lov n miss u very much Te AMO Mom
November 30, 2020
November 30, 2020
Hey momma how are you doing up there somethings I think I can't do anything with out u here n I know that's not true but it just feels like it . Everything's changed thana isn't talking to me because I wouldn't stay there to help her I mean momma I came down there to help her while I was there n so your grand daughter Nic can see her titi thana n her cuzs n her grandmother beth but I wasn't trying to stay mama I couldn't even deal with the heat n staying in the house all the time I can't do n everything is so far away to walk to n to be honest mama just be there n seeing Asia face she looks just like you mama I just can't be there I'm sorry mama I miss you so much. 
November 26, 2020
November 26, 2020
Happy Thanksgiving mom I know u an Lance eating real good up there i really wish u was here wit me right now I know I wouldn't be feeling so alone RN like nobody cares about me I wish god would have taking me instead of u I feel like I have failed u as a mother wit mi kids mom they act like they don't even want to be around me idk y am still on dis earth... I lov u n miss u mom enjoy ur day
November 25, 2020
November 25, 2020
Happy birthday Grandma I’m sorry I forgot I have some much on my mind I forgot an important day I love you and miss you so much All my love is sent up to you Everyone misses you dearly You will never be forgotten

November 25, 2020
November 25, 2020
Happy Birthday Mom
Am so sry i didnt write to u til now i hope u can forgive mom. I want to take da time out to wish mi gorgeous mom a Happy Birthday I love u n miss u so so much I wish u was here wit me rn I nd u more then anything. So am sitting here on da bus listening to mi mom music for her birthday an idk y but I just started crying like I miss her so so much I feel so alone rn.
May 13, 2020
May 13, 2020
Happy mother's day mom
I wish u was here wit me i really nd u right now i met sum one really nice his name is Divine an u would approve of him he treats me right not like da rest of da assholes u have met i lov him so much it hurts me everyday dat i cant talk to u about things going on n mi life i could use sum us time like we used to have i lov u n miss u so much mom
February 19, 2019
February 19, 2019
Mom i nd u right now i dont understand y God keeps taking lov ones away from me like dis he took Jo Jo he was da lov of mi life right there n Blk Chris he was a gud man just trying to take care of his familia n Nana mi favorite grandma who lov me n Aunt Jean another one i cared so much bout she lov me n Uncle Wayne i lov him very much he was one of ur men God he put ur name out there n da world for everyone to know u still liv on an Mi mother i truly lov nothing n da world can replace her she was one n a million now Lance mi bb friend i lov so much i would do anything for him mom is God punishing me for sum thing i did an dont realize it plz tell me i cant deal wit no one else beening taking from me....
                  Love U very much
February 18, 2019
February 18, 2019
Gud afternoon mom so Henry youngest brother Lance died n a car accident Friday 15th only 32 yrs old mi heart is hurting like it did wen i find out u passed i hope ur doing ok an enjoy ur self plz look after Lance Henry brother dats his name mom ok lov n miss u
December 22, 2018
December 22, 2018
Hey Mom sry for not being on here I just been going through sum things an it sucks not being able to talk to u or see u I made u a cake for ur birthday an said happy birthday to u I hope u liked it I hate dat ur not here anymore I miss talking to u an hearing ur voice all da time Thana is doing ok she misses u alot an yes she still wit jackass they got another baby on da way. Da kids are doing gud Tyrone on da other hand is doing ok I guess he won't talk to me I don't know y maybe it's sum thing I did but he calls joanee almost every day...
January 4, 2018
January 4, 2018
Hey Mom how u doing
Well am hanging n da best way I can right now it gets hard sum times wit out u here but I find a way to get through am on mi way to Detroit right now to visit mi friend Jr. I been talking to an to see uncle nate its funny how things change a person wen sum one u lov so much leaves u an da only thing closes to u is a familia member u have met maybe 3 or 4 times n ur life an u feel more closely to them then u have ever beside ur sisters... I love going to see how Uncle Nate an mi cuzz are doing an chilling wit mi friend Jr. its very relaxing an I Love to travel if I had da money I would travel more often an go see mi sisters an their kids an mi son. I lov u Mom very much... I will write u later k 1.4.18 / 7:33am
January 1, 2018
January 1, 2018
Happy New Year's Grandma I Miss You So Much
January 1, 2018
January 1, 2018
Happy New Year's Mom I wish u was here wit me to bring n da New Year's but I know ur looking down on us wishing u was here so I know dat I don't have to worry cos I know u already shelding tears wishing but soon I will be there wit u mom ok I lov u
November 17, 2017
November 17, 2017
Happy Birthday Mom I know u watching us from heavens above an wishing u was here with us but unfortunately ur in a better place an we miss n love u so much it hurts me even more wen holidays an ur birthday comes around i can't hold it in  anymore n be strong like am supposed to do like everything ok wen it's not mi heart hurts so bad an mi tears fall for u I only have one wish an dats for u to come spend ur birthday wit ur daughters who miss n love u so much Mom
Thana
Well it's here I was hoping it didn't come as fast as it did but right now i want to take this time out to make this shout out from Florida to HEAVEN TO SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY MA I LOVE YOU MISS YOU VERY MUCH AND I WISH YOU WAS HERE IN PERSON I JUST WISH I COULD TALK TO YOU BUT YOUR IN A BETTER PLACE IVE BEEN TRYING TO SSTOP CRYING BUT THE TEARS SEEM TO NOT GO AWAY BUT TURN UP IN HEAVEN UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN
R. I. H. BABY GIRL
November 17, 2017
November 17, 2017
Hey sugar foot you know what today is chick I just want to say I love you I miss you very much I wish you was here but I know that you are in a better place and your looking down on us probably shaking your head like wtf I didn't raise these bitchies like that but Im trying my best mommy I promise and I know it's a lot of things you see me doing and your not proud of I'm sorry and I'm trying to change mii lady you are wonderful and still beautiful I don't know how I'm making it but making it day by day with God I sit and try to be okay but it's hard not hearing your voice or seeing your face but it's cool I guess.. Your always in mii heart mind and spirit so baby girl HAPPY BIRTHDAY TURN UP I HOPE YOU ENJOYING IT YOU ARE NEVER FORGOTTEN I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU VERY VERY MUCH HAVE FUN.
                                SIGN YOUR DAUGHTER:
                            MARCIA A. K. A THANA
June 7, 2017
June 7, 2017
Hi grandma is shauntelle and I miss you so much, I am very sad that you are gone. My mom misses you too and so does Titi I don't know how they do it. This hurts to say goodbye. I hope your watching over us each and everyday
May 24, 2017
May 24, 2017
Hey mom I know I been distant from writing u n am sry it just hurts so much to even think about u I been trying to hold on n be strong for u an da rest of da familia but its getting harder everyday to keep everything looking fine n ok I wan to Wish U A Very Happy Mother's Day I know it's late an am really sry mom I hope u can forgive me for dat I never meant for dat to happen ok mom I hate having to write u on here but things happen an like u said dats life wen it's ur time to go be ready for it unfortunately I wasn't ready for u to leave me alone an behind mom we have so much more to work on wit me I have a hard time letting ppl in mi life I been trying to work on mi anger an everything else its just hard wit out u being here to talk wit an give me da comfort I nd an showing me da ropes on how things work an getting me prepare for ur death wen time came dat away I knew how to deal wit it da right way an I could of had a better way of showing mi sisters how to deal wit it now I have lost mi way of showing how to lov again Idk wat to do but drink mi feelings way an its getting harder to do dat sum times I feel like it would be better just to disappear an never look back an maybe I won't have to hurt anymore or feel da way I do I just wish I could have done sum thing to change things around for us an been a better daughter for u an not a handful or troubled child an listened to everything u had to say to me but instead I would just walk away from u . I DON'T HATE U FOR LEAVING ME I KNOW U WAN TO GO ANYWAY I JUST WISH U WOULD HAVE WAITED FOR ME AWHILE BEFORE U LEFT ME ALONE BUT I DO HAVE SUM HATE TO GOD FOR TAKING U FROM ME DA WAY HE DID I KNOW I SHOULD NOT COS HE'S OUR GOD BUT I DO AN MAYBE ONE DAY I'LL GROW TO LOV HIM AGAIN BUT RIGHT NOW I CAN'T I HAVE GOT TO FIND MI OWN WAY ON DIS ONE BUT I WILL ALWAYS LOVE U MOM NO MATTER HOW BAD I FEEL ABOUT THINGS U WILL ALWAYS BE N MI THOUGHTS N HEART AN I LOVE U MOM N I HOPE U LIKE IT .
December 31, 2016
December 31, 2016
Am so sry mom I for got to tell u merry Christmas on here but am today merry Christmas an happy new year's mom I miss u so much an wish I was here wit me lov u
November 24, 2016
November 24, 2016
Happy thanksgiving momma i hope you're enjoying your day so far i know your cooking up there for everyone i know there happy they don't have to cook . i know i miss your cooking always this time of year and i know renee and thana miss it too . i hate this year because your not here to enjoy it with us this is your month. I don't even want to enjoy it with you if your not here with me . Today is really shity it not even thanksgiving for me i feel lose momma and i remember you saying to me that every year we bring together new ppl to are life . god i miss you momma and love u too . hey momma can u tell nana and my uncle wayne i said happy thanksgiving to them too i miss them too i didn't forget about them at all .
November 17, 2016
November 17, 2016
Happy 54th Birthday Mom ur looking more n more beauitful everyday so lets make it ur Amazing Beauitful birthday today put sum thing pretty on an lets go out an have fun drink eat dance talk laugh listen to music wat ever u wan to do today n watch da smiles on our face. Cos its ur day i wan u happy mi birthday mother da most amazing women n da world we lov so much an miss everyday so as i sit here an think of wat to get u for ur birthday i just wan u to sit there n smile for me while me an ur girls get ur party ready for u ok mom its ur day so u rest an let ur girls get dis one . Since u been taking care of us an ur grandkids for along time i just wan to say am so proud of u mom for rasing us girls to be so much like u i lov it an i can speak for mi sisters as well we lov our Amazing Mother who would have our backs no matter if we was n da wrong u was always there for us an we lov u for dat. So i hope u enjoy ur Amazing Birthday Party Mom cos were going to try an since ur not here wit us n person but i can say ur always wit us n spirit so dat counts more then anything n mi eyes so if u feel alone dont be cos am right here next to u mom ok so dont get upset an start crying like u always do on ur birthday cos ur going to make me cry an i am trying mi hardest not to cos its ur day but if i do cry its tears of joy for u mom am sry cos its just not da same wit out u here next to me . Lov u mom n miss u
November 17, 2016
November 17, 2016
Hi momma i just wanted to say I'm so sorry for how i acted to you has we was growing up and i wish i could change it but i can't and i live with that everyday how i treated u especially on that day i fought with you and yelling at you when i should have just listened to you and instead of fighting with you and making you go to the hospital then fighting with you there and telling you to just sit there and be quite and i don't want to hear it and saying it over and over again. When i should have just listened to what u was trying to tell me i wouldn't feel so bad and watching you being tubed up like that and watching you crying and can't move because the doctors tied u down so u wouldn't pull the tube out and looking at your face and knowing your scared and watching you cry because u see me and thana crying and knowing that this is the only day that you are going to see your girls . Afraid that if u leave from the hospital that this will be the only last time u see us because u might die and i know that before we got there to u momma . the doctors told us that they told you what was going on with u and that they had to send you to another hospital because they don't have the things here to help you . I'm so sorry that we didn't get to you in time and that you had to die alone without us but i wanted to tell you that we tried so hard to get there before you left us here alone . that we sit there in your hospital room laying next to holding you and crying for you to come back so we can say we are so sorry and we love you and that im so sorry that i had to leave you alone there and that i know dad never came and that what hurts me the most because you had to die alone and scared . i love you momma and miss you so much and i wish i could just have one day with you to tell you that im sorry for how i was with u and could u forgive me and that will always stay with me so make sure you leave me a spot next to you and momma when i leave here and come see you i want you to be the face i see going up there to heaven ok momma . don't worry the kids are going to be fine they have us in them very strong and smart. Happy birthday momma i love you .
November 17, 2016
November 17, 2016
hi momma happy birthday momma god knows how much I miss you so much I love you and just because I can't see you doesn't mean you not with me . I try not to get so upset today because right about now I feel like hell and I should be with you so I don't have to feel like this anymore momma its like this everyday I feel like this crying everyday does make it feel better it just make it worse for me just makes me miss you more and more and I just wish I was there with you . I love you momma and miss you so much. Happy birthday momma miss you and love you so much . Your oldest daughter joanee
November 16, 2016
November 16, 2016
Hi momma i can't believe that tomorrow will be your 53 years old and everyday i miss you more it feels like i just seen you at the house before i we home . momma how could this happen so quick to you it was like i saw you that day on the 24 of june and was talking to you and trying to take you to the doctor when should have just let u stay home since u didn't want to go anyway but i didn't i made you go there or the hospital to see how u was doing and look what happened you end up dieing on me and i had to go see you again at the hospital in gainesville Fl where it was the last time i saw you and must have been scared momma and im so sorry i didn't get there in time to see u and tell u its ok momma don't worry I'm here i try to get there before you left momma I'm so sorry and i know how there did you when i saw you at the creamation site for the last time it hurt me more to see you just laying there cold and no clothed on you . I'm sorry i couldn't be the daughter u wanted me to be when I'm the oldest out of me and renee and thana . i miss you so much and i love you and i will always love u no matter .
November 10, 2016
November 10, 2016
Well mom i went to my appt and nobody was there so when i called the women told me that she had called renee and told her that she wasn't going to make it . that pissed me off so bad that i came all the way there and i really didn't have to. So shauntelle wanted me to pick her up so i did and then i picked ethan too and we just watching tv . i miss so much momma i don't think i can do this without you here with me helping me out . i try to make everything prefect but it doesn't seem like it wants to go that way it just feels like everytime i feel like I'm doing good something goes wrong and it feels like I'm getting kicked three steps back . it seems like nothing wants to go my way. I love u momma and miss you so much
November 10, 2016
November 10, 2016
Hi grandma I love you and my mom miss you and she loves you and I know that you believe in all of us we believe in you to.my mom crys because she miss you a lot a and my titi miss you to she crys all the time and she loves you same with my mom loves you to.my telle miss you to and nick miss you to we all miss you.and I know that I barely know you but I still love you and same with max she barely know you but she still love you.by your grandson Ethan.
November 9, 2016
November 9, 2016
Hi mom how was your day today well my was ok i went to school but i didn't even stay because my teacher wasn't there and the women who was there didn't know what to do so i just left . has i was walking to the bus stop i was listening to music and started to
November 8, 2016
November 8, 2016
Well mom I just wanted to say that everyday I cry for u and now I know what u meet when u said that you was tired because I'm tired and everyday I wish I leave a find ways to do it. The only thing that keeps me here is my kids Ethan Shauntelle nick max and my sister renee and I know I made a promise to you to watch over them . but something's I think I'm not doing a good job and wish u was here to help me because something's I feel like I'm alone and doing everything by myself and everyone doesn't ever care how I feel . it makes me feel like why the hell I'm I here then why don't I just leave this earth my kids will be better off with out me . I was hard when I lost my son but now it feels like nick doesn't ever care if I leave her the only ones who ever care is the other ones I have in my life not counting bobby and Rico and jerrel and rehsawn . I'm trying to do my best and take care of everyone the best way I know how to and I miss you and love you more everyday your not here with me and I know renee and thana are having a hard time with it everyday just like me and im so thankful for Chris he just don't know how much im for him .  love your oldest joanee'
November 8, 2016
November 8, 2016
I wen an dropped shauntelle off at Joanee place an drank sum liq.she got a bottle for u but i got so wasted an wan to head home so i wen to da bus stop an waited for da bus then missed mi stop to get off so i just took da train home an stopped by da liq store an got a small bottle was drinking it before i even got home Chris met me half way just to make sure i got home safe he said i was so wasted i was dancing wit a pole an started lauging but it was funny then got to talking bout u an how u made us so happy an dat i miss talking to u dat i being to cry Chris came over an gave me a hug an said its going to be ok am here wit u Renee just let it out an remember moms right here wit u just cos u cant see her dont mean shes not looking at u an crying herself cos she is an shes always wit u. Mom u would be so proud of Chris since ur passing hes been here trying to do his best wit us an i give him 100% just for trying but u an i know dat hes only doing it cos of u. An am greatful for him but i do know mi self an dat mi thoughts an nightmares are getting stronger sum times i pray dat god takes me before i do sumthing to mi self or to sum one else dat i cant take back or forgive mi self i know i have done sum things dat am not proud of but i have asked for god to plz forgive me for mi sins an to plz help me out wit everything cos am losing it an i dont know how much longer i can deal wit it an how much i wan to be wit u mom it hurts so much i dont know wat to do wit da pain but to cut an pray dat u can forgive me for cutting but its da only way i know how to stop da pain i just wan da pain,hurt an da heartaces to go away so bad so i cant feel it anymore. I lov u so much mom an i hope u see where am coming from wen u are reading mi words dat am leaving for u .
November 4, 2016
November 4, 2016
Well mom ur birthday is coming up soon so have u decided wat u would like me to get for u. I know one thing is dat u would like all of us to be together like we was before u passed an am trying to do mi best but it's hard right now an I wen to Detroit n March last year I saw UNC Nate an some places were u grow up at I wish u were wit me it was different from wen u lived there but I had fun visiting UNC Nate an he told me wat he an his family did wen u passed it brought tears to me knowing dat he couldn't be there wit us but he still thought of u an that's wat counts n mi eyes I love u mom...From ur daughter Renee
November 4, 2016
November 4, 2016
When I first met you and James y'all welcomed me an my kids into yall life just cause you took my sisters Renee,Joanee into your life an yall made one big family. I don't think I ever told you or James that am very greatfully of you for opening your home to my family an your the best mother they could ever have that really cared for them the way you did an am so sorry I didn't say anything to you earlier I wish I would have but I can't change the pass just the future an I been keeping a eye on your girls an I most say they are trying their hardest to get through this an it may take them a few years but I can say I will do my best to help them out anyway I can mama it feels weird calling you that now when you first met me you told me it was OK to call you mom or mama it was up to you an you told my girls to call you grandma even knowing that they were a pain some times you still showed them love an I will always love you for that. I stay with Renee an she nds you more then anything right now she cries at night an she drinks to take her hurt an pain away she misses you a lot sometimes I don't know what to do an wish I knew you better so I would know what to do when things happen like this but no one wishes anything like this to happen to a love one. So did only thing I can do is help out an hope everything gets better soon an be their for your girls cos I know Renee an Thana nds you the most out of Joanee when Renee talks to Thana you can hear it in her voice that she's upset an she misses you an nds you but she lets Renee know I just hate seeing them cried an we drink on your birthday an your passing an mine birthday since it's only a week after yours . RIP Mama
June 12, 2016
June 12, 2016
Grandma i miss you so much i wish you was here with me right now we could watch movies together and i could tell you how my day has been i hate that your not here mi mom and titi's need you here so much they cry for you every other day well i know mi mom cries for you every night she thinks i dont hear her but i do an it makes me sad. So grandma hurry up back here to comfort them so they can stop crying please. I love you an miss you grandma...
June 11, 2016
June 11, 2016
A loving , caring, heart warming woman of God who would give her clothes off her back just to keep sum one warm or her last dollar to sum one mi mom was amazing lady. Who loved to help others out she always said u catch ur blessing dat way wen u see sum one n nd of help an u just do it out of da kindness of ur heart. I LOVE U MOM AN MISS U SO MUCH...
MI HEART ACHES
MI heart aches for ur attention everytime it skips a beat it cries out for u an ur nowhere to be found.... I lov u wit every beat of mi heart an may GOD watch over u wit every step u make while am here on earth waiting for u. Till then mi Angels will keep a eye on y'all for now. So just remember I will always be there for y'all an u will surly be missed i lov u very much mom .....
June 11, 2016
June 11, 2016
I wish i had another day with you momma u was every thing that made us girls who we are today and more to come Everyday i think of you. I should have listen to you when u asked me to listen to u a long time ago if I knew what i know now i wouldn't have given you a hard time i would have cherish every moment with you like it was the last day with you. I think of you every day and night even when I need you more even now when i needed talk to you. U are the one i always talk to you always knew what to say to me to make me feel good and understand what u was trying to say to me . i will see you soon momma make sure you leave me a spot for me up there . I'll be waiting for it when i get up there .  i love you momma and miss you so much love always your oldest daughter joanee.

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May 28, 2022
May 28, 2022
Hey mom sry I haven't been on here more often I been busy n trying to deal wit everything n mi life i do miss n love u very much I talked bout u to mi niece Nina I tried to give da best answers to her questions I hope I did OK cos I really don't have mi own answers to everything am still trying to deal wit ur death sum days I just want to lay n bed n cry never get up but ik u didn't raise me like dat to be weak u raised a strong black puerto rican woman to stand tall n issues like dis an believe me am trying to be strong for u .... Lov u
May 10, 2021
May 10, 2021
Happy Mother's Day Mom
I miss u ik u heard me yesterday wen I cried out to u idk wat do anymore I hurt all da time mom u was da only one i trust to talk to and now ur gone u left a hole n mi heart dat I don't know how to fill I feel empty n alone i just want to know y u left me here by mi self to deal wit dis hurt dat doesnt go away.... I love u mom so much n miss u more then u know....
May 6, 2021
May 6, 2021
Hey mom am so sry I haven't written u n awhile just been so busy but I just wanted u to know dat I lov n miss very much am I really wish u was here right now am trying mi hardest to stay focused n have faith n strength i still don't understand y God took u from me maybe it was to teach me a lesson an I don't know wat dat is yet ik ur mad at me for wat am doing but its wat am gud act n am sry am disappointing u I don't mean to ik u hate wen I hurt mi self but its da only thing ik how to relief stress da kids are fine they miss u alot mom i miss u so much it hurts to write u sum times mi dreams never go away its like a reminder of all da things I did wit u an da night wen u was at da hospital ik I should of been there wit u but I was there I saw u I tried to reach u an I tried to help u
plz don't blame me for not being there . D been here off n on he really don't stay long but I have 1 BFF an her name is Hada u would like her n 2 bodyguards Emanuel n Slim they gud ppl mom ik n mi heart u would like em.
PS plz let mi lil brother know I didn't forget bout him 

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A song just for u mom... Its called missing you

November 4, 2016

Missing someone 

Missing someone gets easier everyday because even though its one day further from da last time you saw each other, its one day closer to da next time you will. If i had a single flower for every time i think about you, i could walk forever n mi garden... If you wan to be wit someone you miss, arnt  you already there? One day i caught mi self smiling for no reason, then i realized i was thinking of you... I dropped a tear n da ocean... Da day you find it is da day i will stop missing you. If you think missing me is hard, then you should try missing you. Darkness isnt da absence of light...Its da absence of you. It kills inside to know dat you miss someone who seems to start living their life wit out you... somewhere there is someone dat dreams of your smile, an finds n your presence dat life is worthwhile, so wen you are lonely remember its true, someone somewhere is thinking of you. If only to be wit you even for a few seconds would be mi only chance to see you, then i would grab it an forget about da rest of mi life after dat moment...I miss you so much if you wanna know how much...Come tonight an see me how much tears will fall...To think of you is like to cut a water...I can break it for a second but it keeps coming together after...Wen i miss you i tend to forget you... Why? cos i cant get through da day wen i miss you...So much an love you alot...

November 4, 2016

Well ur birthday is coming up again an am asking wat would u like for ur birthday? Well i know we would like to see u again an give u kisses n hugs. I still check up on dad n unc nate time to time to see how their doing.

June 11, 2016
I miss u so much, lov u wit all mi heart from da day u took us n as a family u made me feel whole once again knowing wat i have been through growing up as a child. Then u brought home our lil sister thana for us to lov an play wit now dis family is complete there's 5 of us. Dat we love so much n da world. Then n 2001 i had mi first son Tyrone dat brought so much joy to our lives an n 2003 i had mi sec child mi daughter Shauntelle who smiles all da time another happy family member to add to da rest of us In 2004 i had mi 3rd child son Dakota who is very active loves sports an then i had mi 4th child in 2016 daughter Za'nyhal shes a very happy child wat was five of us is now seven is nine  an mom loves each of us n her own lil way n 2006 our older sister had her daughter Nicolette our first Ga girl Dad' s favorite he fell n lov wit dis one everywhere he went she followed but it was ok cos mom had her girls who loved her an then n 2012 our lil sister thana had her first son Ja'onnie mom was so happy she loved him so much she always had him n her arms now we have eleven members of our family dat just keeps on growing n 2012 our loving mother had gotta ill an now was in / out da hospital we feared da most now everything we worked so hard for was now falling apart it wasn't looking gud but we made da best out of it. Our mom favorite thing was movie nights wen we all got together an watched movies wit her an her grandkids would climb n bed wit her she loved it made her happy to see them smile.An then n 2014 mi lil sister was pregnant wit her sec. Baby an she was having a girl mi mom was so happy . Then da worst thing n our life was taken from us our mom had gotten ill we knew she was going to be leaving us soon we just didn't wan it to happen she's supposed to out live us not da other way around she supposed to be making funeral plans for us not her it hurt us so bad wen she passed we was lost an still is our lil sister Thana had her baby girl Is'asia we cried an wished mom was here to see da miracle baby cos mi lil sister had problems wit dis lil one all throu her pregnancy. But she came out an was health no problems at all mom made sure wen she passed she would make sure her grand baby was going to be ok an health. Now there's nine of us even though our mother has passed she will always be wit us an i know she's  proud of us an mi lil sister for being a great mother to her kids knowing dat she's da baby out of us girls an we know she's been going through it hard but we still look n on her time to time to make sure she's ok an if she nds anything. Dont worry mom we got dis u taught us very well to be independent. An we love u for it everyday.RIP mom we love you n miss you very much. Dont worry about us mom were trying our hardest to deal wit ur passing da best way we know how to an if dat means crying,drinking doing wat ever to help us get through dis year wit out you here next to us. 

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