October 19, 2020
October 19, 2020
It has taken me a long time to process many losses , one of the greatest, my mother. She was one of the strongest and most loyal human beings in my life. No distance or circumstance can, could or will remove her. Her determination and resolve against insurmountable life circumstances allowed her the grace to overshadow any darkness. She was the light of my family, a beacon of hope , and a lighthouse amidst the storms my family faced that now has left us amidst oceans of divide and rocky shores to land upon when before there was a safe harbor. Her shelter was a sanctuary that unconditionally loved even those that had not returned her undying affection, forgiveness, and stern command to do the same, and at times singlehandedly carry all the requests and needs of our family. But above all her devotion to the proposition that family was hallowed ground , and perhaps only she could walk upon it without treading or leaving anything but remnants that you were loved, passionately , wholeheartedly and without any reserve. She saved nothing for herself and sacrificed everything for those she loved. I will remember you put everyone of us before you. I will not forget there was no denying you that you loved us. You proved we were never alone. You were my evidence of God on earth when I deserved no compassion or understanding , even tolerance. Know that your fire burns bright in me regardless of how dim it's perceived , and the little we gave back to you will never amount to what you have given to all of us. You alone are responsible for not only our strength and fierce fighting which life requires but for our ability not to turn our backs on recognizing the examples you showed us , we can hope to remotely and weakly emulate. Sacrifices you made for us, we learned how to perform for our families and ourselves , and could never have accomplished without your commitments , dedication and devotion to us, you performed as proof we could. " Tu heres mi hijo " was your response always. The example I fall short of but was shown by you. Forgive me again as you always did.