we missed Mariah Desjarlais and forever give for her hearts in the best away of being wishing memories thinking which would be entire life kind of had an energy wanted to everything else and now is sad today.

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Happy Heavenly Birthday My Baby Girl I miss you you so much babysmallz you would have been 20years old I feel very cheated out of life as though you were stolen from me I just can't wrap my mind and heart around the fact Ill never see you again I catch myself waiting for you at times like you are going to burst in the room like always happy go lucky girl you always forever will be River has gone to where you are and I hope you two parties like rockstars like you both done when you both were home with me I miss him so much my old man's always drinking tea with me at night and chatting but you know everyday that goes by is one day closer to you both my forever angles mama misses you two crazies p

Well Mariah... I went for a Drive with your Beautiful one of a kind Mother as I Always do most times I can.. An when I got home I layed in bed thinking of the trip me an my wife an daughter went on... well I'm jus gunna pour it here my one of a kind Sister Poo Bear From New Orleans.. I always think about the day I got out of jail your mother picked me up.. cause I had no ride to get home an its winter so the day I got out Our Mother told me you were in the hospital so I didn't take it too seriously she said they pump your stomach and nothing came out and maybe I'm fresh Outta jail yeah I got worried since you're from Regina to porcupine today you're in the hospital your mother came to pick me up jail December 29th was the day I got released from doing a sentence..in the waiting room outside the emergency room I sat there for an hour scared to come in and see you the position you were in... finally I got up going to the emergency room where in and your mother was standing beside you... so I sat down on the right side of your emergency room sat there and watched your mom talk to you tri comfort you I was just too scared to stand up and come stand beside you... your mom came and sat down beside me nothing said between the two of us is that they're watching your heart monitor then finally I grew guts to stand up an come stand next to you... once I got beside you and grab your hand the left side of your body ...then like I asked you what's up why yourself what's wrong? You went from laying down on that emergency bed to sitting up quickly after I said that.. know Mariah you don't know what you mean to someone until stand next to the person in the emergency bed n my voice being the one you responded too most... I love you mother Bernice a lot right now your mother is going through a lot and I don't know how to deal with the pain of her losing you Kenny and Frank like it's been a rough three years for your mother I want to help your mother I don't know how to have her Express herself to me Mother's is a good friend of mine and it does hurt me at your mother is going through so much pain and I don't know how to take care of her to help her the pain she's going through an what to do Mariah do miss a lot about you and right now I'm just at the Crossroads feeling confused and not sure how I can be a good person to help your mother and your family in time of need your mother is going through a lot right now so I want you to stop in on our mother in her Dreams and let her know she's a strong lady there's a lot of good for people she belongs to stay here on this world no matter what continue helping with ones that need help let your mom know what your strengths because only God makes the worst battles for the strongest ones Mariah hopefully you everybody else but we never expected to lose early in our lives have a place for me waiting up there alongside the brothers and sisters so I can share nothing but good vibes again....-Damage

MY BABY SMALLS I MISS YOU SO MUCH ALL YOUR KISSES AND HUGS YOU GAVE ON VALENTINES DAY WERE SO NEEDED. SO MANY DAYS ARE SPENT LOST I HAVE NO DIRECTION I SPIN IN CIRCLE WANTING TO JUST SEE YOU. I RMEMEBER WHEN YOU WERE JUST A TINY LITTLE ONE GROWNING AND MOVING AROUND IN MY TUMMY. I'D TALK TO YOU SAYS ARE YOU GOING TO BE A FAST RUNNER SHOW MOMMY IF YOUR GOING TO BE FAST, YOU WOULD MOVE BUT SLOW THAN I'D ASK YOU GOING TO BE A FIGHTER THAN IT WAS LIKE YOU WERE THROWING HITS AND FAST ONES LOL YOU WERE THE FIGHTER, YOU HAD NO FEAR MY LITTLE ONE YOU CAME INTO THIS WORLD WITH NOT EVEN A DOC IN THE ROOM SCREAMING HAVING THE ONLY NURSE IN THE ROOM PRETTY SUPRISED OF YOUR SO SUDDEN APPEARANCE ILL NEVER FORGET THAT DAY MY GIRL YOU WERE THE TOUGHEST YOU WERE MY ROCK IM MISS YOU SO MUCH LOVE YOU  

Its been a year since you had gone to be with your daddy . We had a memorial for you on Saturday, our times together were flooding my thoughts with every beat of the drum. I miss you dearly my pooh bear your presence I feel daily .I'm so broken and hurt that my life is such a mess I'm always wishing for you, I wanna hold you and kiss you my pooh Happy Heavenly New Years My Baby girl

This Month is the hardest first, your birthday which would have been blast like always but I sat only thinking of you and what would have been our plan. New Orleans is the place you wanted to visit and live eventually. I would love to make that trip just out of curiosity to see what made you want to go there. I miss you so much everyday, your cuteness and stomped out comeback you were one of a kind my baby I just wish you never had to leave