Hey Mark it's me again, your Nana turned 90 yesterday, unbelievable!! I am sending her love to you, she can't do internet. We have a giant gap in the family sent you left,  we all miss and love you so much XXOO, Patsy

Mark,

Sending you a picture of your new niece "Alice Nora".  Karen had my 5th granddaughter Friday Sept 7th, it brought back memories of your girls birth. Some day all my granddaughters will be together and know their cousins and celebrate the importance of family.

As always love and we all miss you,

Mom

Mark,

September 25th was the "National Day of Remembrance". Memorial events were held nationwide to honor all those whose life ended by homicide.  Danielle, Karen, Nana, Patsy, and LaRee along with others who lost a child or sibling attended the San Diego Candlelight Tribute. Danielle was a speaker, she did a great job.

During the Candlelight Video the song "One More Day" by Diamond Rio played while your picture was up. Perfect ♥

I have met two couples who also lost their sons and you probably knew them. You went to school with Taylor and were in some of the same classes at Alcott & Marston and both of you went to Charter. The other is Chris, cousin of your very good friend in high school.

Missing you so much, not a moment goes by that you are not here in my heart.    I sure hope Evelyn, Mae and Celesta are doing ok.

Can’t believe next month will be 6 years.  Time passes but not a day goes by that you are not here in my heart. ♥♥♥
 

Happy day in October 2005, didn't know it would be the last time I danced with you Mark. ♥♥♥

Three years ago tonight the unimaginable happened.  With that came heartache, sorrow, loneliness, anger....  So many emotions, so much loss.

You were on my mind all day but today was no exception for you are always on my mind and in my heart.  We all miss you so much and wonder how Evelyn and Mae are doing.  I pray they are well and that they know how much their Daddy loved them.

Lauren mentions you quite often, says she misses you and her cousins.  She wonders if she will ever see them again.  She wants them to know that they are going to have another cousin soon.

I received several messages from your friends today acknowledging the date.  Although it's a sad date it makes me feel good that they are thinking about us.

Even though the emotions that come with grief will continue to be with me I will always be grateful for the time we had and the memories we shared.  I am thankful that I was your mom.

Loving You Always

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Mark, seeing today is Evelyn's Birthday I thought I'd share this picture from the hospital. I remember when she was being born I couldn't help but constantly look at you. Your facial & body language showed love, enthusiasm, excitement, concern, and sometimes wooziness. It was so cool to see you cut the umbilical cord, any squeamishness you might have had seemed to disappear. You were so proud and I was so proud of you.

Evelyn, I hope you have a great 7th birthday.  We all miss and love you so much.♥♥♥

May 29, 2014

My Dear Mark,

I have been thinking of you all morning so I thought I would write a letter to you for your birthday. I have so many memories of you that I keep thinking about, so I thought I would mention one this day.  Remember when you use to bring new friends over to my house so that I could meet them? You would always ask me to say that saying that I use to say “I had to lahff (laugh) to see the cahff (calf) go down the pahth (path), a mile and a hahff (half), just to take a bahth (bath)” with my Boston accent. You really got a kick out of it!  I never knew when you were going to show up at my door with a new friend as ask me to say it again; in fact you were still doing that when you were much older. That is a good memory!

I always had to get you with a kiss even when you thought you were too old for them but I have a snapshot of you giving me a kiss on my check which  I love and cherish, have to smile every time I look at.

When my time comes I will get you again with a kiss.

Love you so much! ♥X♥O♥X

NANA

Lauren's been talking about You, Evelyn & Mae today.  She's missing everyone and asks "why can't I see my cousins? I use to see them all the time".

That got me thinking about how you use to call her "Deuce" and she would say "Uncle Mark don't call me that, my name is Lauren".  But 2 weeks before your death she said to you "Uncle Mark, it's OK to call me Deuce, she said it twice to make sure you heard her.  She had decided it was OK because Tommy had told her that a "Deuce" was one of the most beautiful cars made (not that it was the first car with a flathead & she had to wear a flathead helmet as a baby). Oh, and I did see you sneak her extra treats all the time. That's just one of the million good memories we have.

Love You, Mom

I would be remiss to not post my feelings about the news of Marina getting married. How can it be that she is ready to marry another man so soon? While the rest of us have a deep hurt and loss that has not begun to recover she has moved on without remorse. If she was filled with remorse she would be incapable of thinking of marriage right now. There is no way that she has been honest with her intended husband to be. Who would want a woman who deliberately pointed a gun at someone she supposedly loved and killed them? Has she convinced herself that it was a accident and in so doing convinced him too? We all know better. We know the unrelenting jealousy she harbored and the inexorable deliberate action she took. Be certain of that Mark, the ones who love you know the truth. I am very afraid for this man and I don't even know him. The sad thing is by the time he realizes who Marina is, it will be too late. She has already snared him in her lair and obviously filled his head with lies. I am afraid of the possible danger your girls may be subject to. Marina has nothing but a long history of turbulent relationships, the only common denominator being Marina. I think she is in a rush to marry again because she can only put on her charade for so long.

Hey buddy, went to court today to support you, and you had alot of support. Court was total ''BULLSHIT'' in fact I got kicked out for saying just that. The good part, I said what I felt, the bad, I didn't get to hear your family and friends speak for you, as they wouldn't let me back in. Cesar got kicked out next, and he told me the speeches were right on the money. Next some people came out crying, and saying the BITCH GOT AWAY WITH MURDERING YOU......COURT WAS PURE BULLSHIT....We already knew that, just wish we were wrong. I'm really disgusted, I hope your girls get through life without you, your family and friends. We love them so much, but I'm pretty sure after today, marina is going to make it impossible to see them any more.    MUCH LUV & MISSES   FROM THE CRUNCH BUNCH

I rember the nite i heard what happen i was with my friend fuji and we were talking and yoour name cameup we were watching the new andthere u were i was in shock it took me week to try and understand why someone wood do that and fuji told my that god called his angelhome that his workwas done here 

Mark,

  A year has passed since you were taken from me.  A year of sadness and pain.  There are no words to describe the ache so deep inside my heart, it will always be there but time will make it easier to bear.  I know you can feel my tears and you don't want me to cry, but my heart is broken.  You should have had so many more years to have your life unfold and to watch your children grow.  I would have willingly taken your place so that you would not have been the one to go.

  I will forever cherish our memories and be grateful for the time we had.  I Love You, more than words can ever express.

  Mom

ps: watch over your beautiful girls and sisters, they love you so much.

I first met Mark back when he was I think 15 years old and the thing I remember the most besides him being cute was that he had an amazing smile.  The way his face would light up when he walked into the pharmacy is something I will never forget and I remember it as if it was yesterday! Had i have been 5-6 years younger, I would have snatched Mark up in a heartbeat!   

Reading stories about him and looking at pictures has brought me great comfort and it saddens me that I moved away and never got to see him first hand grow up to be the wonderful man that he was.  I always knew in my heart that he would grow up to do great things with his life and he didn't disappoint me.  What I didnt know was that handsome teenager would grow up to be smokin hot!!!  


I will remember Mark always and he will always have a special place in my heart......I know our paths will cross again and until then everytime I look at the sky and see a bright star, I will know it is Mark smiling down on all of us!

I remember taking you and Kimlo to Rosarito Beach on the weekends to go horseback riding, buying fireworks, and eating fish tacos.  There was one weekend that we went and they were having a festival going on and you and Kimlo put on velcro suites, so you could run and jump and stick to the velcro wall.  Then you both put on sumo suites and got in the ring and started to wrestle.  You guys had so much fun. Driving back home the two of you were out cold, snoring in the back seat.

I know your family is hurting right now.  I'm just around the block should they need anything.  I can share with them my fond memories of you and show them pictures I took of you in Rosarito Beach.

God Bless

Love,
Kimm  (Kimlo’s Momm)

I have fond memories of Mark as he grew up. I could relate to many of his growing pains as I had similar experiences when I was young. Every time I saw Mark, I felt my heartstrings tugged. He made a special place in my heart and will forever be there.

When Mark was a young teen he would often come into the pharmacy where Marcia and I worked to take her out for lunch, or to bring her some food. At one point I think he was around 15 years old, he had "a thing" for a cute young blonde girl that worked with us named Kelly. Mark was much too young for Kelly, but that didn't stop him from putting on the charm. Mark could light up the whole state of California with his magnificent smile! The way he worked those handsome good looks and magical smile was something to behold. Such a charmer!

 Another occasion I will never forget is when he came into the pharmacy talking about a tattoo. He flashed that award winning smile and promptly turned around and dropped his drawers to us. I was amazed! I wasn't amazed that he was in front of me flashing his naked butt at me, I was amazed that I was looking at the most perfect hind-end I'd ever seen in my entire life! How is it possible that a man with such an incredible smile could be so fine from the front and the rear too? That was Mark. Beautiful and charming.

Please don't tell me you know how I feel,
Please don't tell me my broken heart will heal,
Because that is just not true,
Please don't tell me my son is in a better place,
Though it is true, I want him here with me,
Don't tell me someday I'll hear his voice, see his face,
Beyond today I cannot see,
Don't tell me to be thankful for the time I had,
Because I wanted more,
What you can tell me is you will be here for me,
That you will listen when I talk of my child,
You can share with me my precious memories,
You can even cry with me for a while,
And please don't hesitate to say his name,
Because it is something I long to hear every day,
Please realize that I can never be the same.

Marcia

I first remember Mark as a wild little youngster running around Clairemont, much like the rest of us did. But what was remarkable about him was that once he started a family, he was really all about it. He loved having his kids around him and he was a real good provider and father. Although he did a total 180 in life for the better, he never lost his youthful positive energy that made an impact on everyone. I will miss his unique fun loving wiseass charm…really a good person! It’s such a tragic shame what happened and I can barely believe it’s real… My heart goes out to his family. May they keep his charming bright spirit in their minds during this trying time and may he rest in peace.
 

I remember falling for you (in a way that a 15-16 year olds fall for each other) the first time we met.  Our year of dating as youths was full of laughter, excitement, and some annoyances here and there.  Mark always kept me on my toes.  I remember when I had to give up calling him Runner because my parents forbade me from using a "tagger" name as they called it.  I remember preferring that Mark (who was only 15 at the time) to drive my car because he was way better at it than I was (I broke my rear view mirror trying to park at Marcia's old apartments).  I remember us always eating ice cream.  I remember that Mark would always drop whatever he was doing to come chill with me.  I remember writing Mark daily when he was unfortunately in Campo.  Actually I think I still have all those letters.  I remember spending every day together with Mark and Brett (my two crazy boys) for some time back in the day. Although we were only in each other's lives for a few years those years will never be forgotten and still make me laugh everytime I think of them.  I have tons of memories from those few years.  I know Mark and I went our separate ways in life but wishing now that life would have brought us back together as friends further down the road.  I am convinced we will meet again someday.  Until then I hope Mark remains a guardian angel to his children and family.

A precious life from us has gone.
His voice is stilled in his home.
A empty place that cannot be filled,
But deep in our hearts your with us still.

His smiling face, 
His plesant way,
Kind words he had for all.

Oh Mark, How we miss you;
Since God called you away,
But you are not forgotten, nor will you ever be.
As long as life goes on we will remember thee. 

I rember when we all use to pile in the car and mob around Clairemnont bumpin the westside connection cd. any time i hear that cd, i'll think of you.