Hi cant believe its been 3 years. Thought id ler u no me and matthew didnt get married in September but we are planning it for next year :) reason is because we are expecting our 3rd baby and its a girl :) we wish u could be here to meet her wen she arrives.. Matthew misses u alot and thinks about u everyday. Hes coping ok atm i think but it has been hard and im trying my best to make him happy. Hes got a job now which is great and hes playing snooker as a hobbie and hes loving it.. Ethan has grown up loads hes in full time school and luke is in nursery i wish u could be here to see them grow up but i no ur looking down on us all and especially matthew.. We will always love u and never ever forget u xxxx

I hope Wales will win today

Its been a year today only if u would have stayed in and not went out for your bday you would still be here watch your 2 grandsons grow up fuck i miss you dad i really cant cope its getting beyond a point where there is nothing left for me the only thing that is keeping me here is your grandsons, i never really told you how much i love you, i love you more than anything. Nans not coping shes gone to put a piece in the paper for you love u loads dads missing you love from matthew katie and ethan and luke and the rest of the family. P.S i have quit smoking for you like you always wanted me to love you bye :(

hiya its me again I thought id write and let u no me and matthew are expecting another baby :) don't no what we are having yet we find out next week. ethans growing up fast hes walking and into everything now. ud be so proud. miss u xx

is wish you were here everything is falling apart without you. i need you to kick matthew into touch cause i no you can see what he is doin and i no that u wouldnt want him to be like this. hes drifting away from us and im really scared. i need him to realise you would of wanted him to be happy and to remember you in a good way not drag himself down and fall apart. meet agin one day xxxx

You never said I'm leavingYou never said goodbyeYou were gone before I knew it,And only God knew whyA million times I needed you,A million times I criedIf love alone could have saved you,You never would have diedIn life I loved you dearlyIn death I love you stillIn my heart you hold a place,That no one could ever fillIt broke my heart to lose you,But you didn't go aloneFor part of me went with you

I wrote that poem for you mark you were the dad the best son and a great grandpa i will miss you dearly love you loads DAD from katie. Xxx <3

To dad, its been a whole day and i still think your at home. we are gonna miss you so much. i wish you were here to watch your grandson grow up but we will never go a day without telling him about you and all the good times we had together all the laughs and what a great person you were. One day we will meet again dad, happy birthday love you and miss you loads. matthew katie and ethan xxx