my son marty was the most sensitive, loving, caring and the most giving person in the world.  he was so loved by everyone he met.  he loved his 7 children with all his heart. being my first child he was my heart and soul.  my son and i were so close, i knew he had deep depression, i begged him to get help, but he kept saying i'm okay mom.  after 2 attempts at suicide he ended his life on oct, 2 2009.  he felt the world was better off without him.  little did he know when he made his decission he left everyone with a broken heart.  i know why he did what he did, but it does'nt make it any easier.  every day my heart is broken.  he was my heart and soul, and until we meet again my heart and soul will never be healed.