Happy Birthday Mom. After almost a year I still catch myself wanting to call you and tell you my latest woe or my latest news. We all have made it through this past year but we're barely holding on. We need you here to hold us together. 

We celebrated Easter with Auntie Gail and her kids at Diana's yesterday.  Diana has a beautiful home and it was a wonderful day. We missed you. Stan and Jennifer were unable to be there too.

I  have decided to sell my house and naturally there has been problem after problem so needless to say I'm still working on it. Rod did some work on it and it is beautiful. Nick also refinished the floors and they look great too. Now I wish I could stay. 

Everyone is doing great and Ashely's wedding was beautiful.  You would of loved it.

I think of you every day and miss you more than ever. Nadine and I still walk 5 days a week and we both  share our favorite mima's stories all the time.  

Today is beautiful out I'm sure you would of wanted to go up to Viejas to celebrate your birthday.  Carla's birthday was Thursday and she won $900.00 on a scratcher. Can you believe that!

 I love you and I will talk to you later. ❤❤❤❤❤

How do you say goodbye to the person that brought you into this world? You don't. I can't. I love her dearly. She was hard headed, opinionated and stubborn. But I loved her.
I always thought she was crazy for having six kids and to this day don't know how she did it it, but she did. She was always there for each of us and our kids too. I was the first born and felt she should of stopped with me, or had only one or two more.  But five more kids REALLY! I'm glad she had each and every one of my siblings though because I cannot imagine my life without them.  
 Mom was there for all the milestones in my life, the birth of each of my girls, a divorce, the death of my children's father, the loss of my husband and the death of my father. And with her the the loss of Dean a wonderful stepfather  And till the end she would tell me "you can get through this". I asked her how? She told me "I will always be here for you to come to and cry to. I will always listen to you." And boy did I give her an earful.
She was always the first person I went to when I was excited. I still catch myself wanting to call her and tell her how funny Kennedy is. I won't be able to tell her about Dina's next kid moving on to highschool. Or able to share with her the latest wedding decoration I just finished for Ashely's wedding. Let alone tell her how thrilled I am about Andi's newest tattoo or piercing. 
I never took for granted how important she was to me or how much I loved her.

She never hung up a call without saying "I love you Terry" and I never failed to say "I love you Mom".   

My life is changed as life will do, however this time I have no one to tell me "you can get through this". But if I listen carefully I know she is whispering in my ear, I love you Terry