I just spent time with my cousin Stephenie Johnson. I remember when we were 13 or 14 we took our little money, put it together and did a BBQ for  you and her mom. We didn't know what we were doing. The potatoes salad was like mashed potatoes, and all the  meat we cooked was raw. You ate it anyway and whispered and said: " they tried" I just learned how to grill. Now my meat is overcooked. All I wanted to say mama is never stopped trying. I'm going to continue to be better daily to break the curse that haunts our family. I've asked for prayers in your honor to break the chains right now.