Our song Mom
Hi Mom,
I came across a song from many years past by an artist known as Helen Reddy. I can remember you and I playing her records over and over again and two particular songs always made me feel closer to you. The first one was called You and Me against the world....https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gJAKmWAIKcY
As a little girl at the time, I never really took heart to the words of the songs but then you left and went to heaven and I finally listened to the words of the song and all the good memories came flooding back. The way you used to make me lunch before afternoon kindergarten....one of my favorites always being mac and cheese from the box. Then after lunch I got to watch an episode of the Brady Bunch before you dressed me and fixed my hair in cute little hair styles.
I remember the way you decorated mine and Katrina's room using Raggedy Ann and Andy. The whole nine yards too....Raggedy Ann and Andy curtains to Raggedy Ann an Andy bed spreads. I remember the time and money you spent so that I could be a Brownie and a cheerleader. I remember our trips to Bingo. I remember shocking you the first time I ever ice skated because I was not only skating, I was skating backwards, doing jumps and spinning as if my life depended on it. I'll never forget the look of proudness on your face....which made me want to impress you even more.
Our fights were many but my love for you never died. I miss you mom and if you're reading this up in heaven, just know that I loved you more than words could ever say....and as I look through pictures of you, I finally realized how truly beautiful you really were. You fought so many demons in your life mom and when they got the better of you, I made you ashamed for failing. But please know now that I no longer feel any shame towards you, any anger and any resentment. All I feel now is love and the good memories that are helping me get through your death.
Anyway, please know I am doing ok and my love for you will never waiver. I love you Mom!