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This memorial website was created in memory of our loved one, Matthew Krehbiel, 32 years old, born on November 5, 1990, and passed away on November 21, 2022. We will remember him forever.
November 23, 2022
November 23, 2022
We are deeply saddened to announce the sudden passing of our beloved son Matthew who passed of what is, at this time, an uncertain cause. Matthew wasn't just an adult son you would be extremely proud to have, but he was a loving and supportive brother, a generous loving uncle, and a devoted friend. In his time on Earth, he also had some of the very brightest and loyal friends, both locally and afar. From an early age, Matthew was not only extremely intelligent, but really adept at making a computer do whatever he needed. This translated to an eventual degree in computer science, a degree pending in cybersecurity engineering, and jobs in computer labs, and as a cybersecurity engineer. In the last few years he went to work for our family owned company and learned to be a fire alarm design engineer, which he also did with much speed and skill. Matthew was also an avid computer gamer and gaming tournament organizer. I am also told that he was a game graphic design and coding modifier, or modder of the first order. He also enjoyed board games, and played a good game of chess.  Although his life was, for the most part, full and happy, Matthew and the rest of his family endured the sudden and unexpected loss of his younger brother Daniel, age 12, fourteen years ago, almost to the day of Matthew's own passing. Daniel's death was surmised to have been due to sudden arrhythmic death syndrome, which may run in families. Despite the fact that all of our children were checked for this after Daniel died, there are still no effective tests for exactly who may succumb. So, it could be that this is also the cause of Matthew's unexpected passing. Matthew also received a flu shot 38-39 hours before his passing. Although the family is more distraught than you can imagine, we are consoled by a number of things. Matthew apparently passed without discomfort or pain. Matthew, Daniel and my father, are together now. Matthew also joins his father's parents who also loved him very much. Matthew, who had a strong faith in our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, is with Him now. To friends and family who read this now, and in the days to come, Matt would want you to remember these things said here, and to remember the happy times you all have shared. Yes, and he loved you too.
March 10
Matthew,   
     I have not called your phone before. Today, I had the urge to call and check on all my adult kids, and so I called hoping just to leave a message saying how much I love and miss you. Your message still says, "This is Matthew. I can't take your call for whatever reason, so leave a message." The mailbox is full so I could not leave the message I wanted. I am not sure how to listen to the messages. I know even more than a year later, I am reluctant to disconnect your phone, on the off cosmic chance you need to use it. I love and miss you very, very much, as do we all.
March 3
March 3
i'm into cyber security myself, and he's an inspiration
March 2
This is Edward Snowden's comment at the end of this post, to a post about Matthew that told about his internet obsession as a child, and broad interests in gaming and in cybersecurity.
Edward Snowden
@Snowden
·

Nothing has ever unnerved me like witnessing my child's first time totally ensorcelled by a glowing screen.

I spent my entire life stapled to a computer and yet still struggle to manage my own vulnerability to that trance. What if we can't? If we simply haven't evolved for this?
                              _____

Jane-Alexandra Krehbiel
@KrehbielAuthor
·
Please regulate your children's screen time. Your mind developed as it did as a result of all the activities you enjoyed and apparently perfected.

                             ______
Edward Snowden
@Snowden
·

My mind developed as it did because I was so addicted to the internet as a teen that when my carpal tunnel became so extreme that it was too painful to type, I would lay the keyboard on the floor to hunt and peck with my toes rather than log off.
I am not an example to emulate.
                              _______

Jane-Alexandra Krehbiel
@KrehbielAuthor
·
2h
I have always been fond of you because I have a son who was very similar to you in some ways. He did the same. Matthew was a cybersecurity engineer.
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Matthew D. Krehbiel, (1990 - 2022) - ForeverMissed.com Online Memorials
This online memorial is dedicated to Matthew D. Krehbiel. It is a place to celebrate his life by sharing fond memories, photos, music and more.

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Edward Snowden
@Snowden
He seems to have belonged very much to the same cohort! May his memory be a blessing.

                               ___________
November 20, 2023
November 20, 2023
Today marks the last full day that you spent on Earth, a year ago. It was an ordinary and busy day for you. I hope it was a good one. Please know that you are deeply loved, deeply remembered and that your time with family, friends and relatives was very meaningful.
September 19, 2023
September 19, 2023
I know you're in heaven. And you're a special man.
September 3, 2023
September 3, 2023
I found your favorite quotes, and thought I might leave them here.


Favorite quotes
"We read that monks should not drink wine at all, but since the monks of our day cannot be convinced of this, let us at least agree to drink moderately, and not to the point of excess." - St. Benedict


"Government, even in its best state, is but a necessary evil; in its worst state, an intolerable one." - Thomas Paine


"Learning without thinking is useless. Thinking without learning is dangerous." - Confucius


"Remember:

Matter. How tiny your share of it.

Time. How brief your allotment of it.

Fate. How small a role you play in it." - Marcus Aurelius

May 18, 2023
Matthew,
   My mind still talks to you and my heart still looks for you, even though I know you are at peace.   I still try to do the things I think you would want here.   With much love,
May 16, 2023
I found this on the internet yesterday: It's a tribute to you, Matthew.
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Beyond the many forum superstars and prolific mappers we all know and love, the Doom community is also home to many unsung heroes, whose work goes on quietly for years behind the scenes and remains useful and appreciated by most of those in-the-know, even if these people's names may not often be heard in the community's outer reaches or seen in the author field of big name releases. This year we were unfortunate enough to lose one such unsung hero, Ghastly Dragon. Whether it was crafting new sprite edits, colorful monster ideas, documenting all that could be documented within and outside of Doom, Ghastly had you covered. The fact his name appears in the credits for such high profile projects as ZDCMP2 or Lunatic ought to give you an idea of how versatile his work could be. I still remember many years ago, when over on IRC I asked him a long series of questions regarding how to get some complex DECORATE code to behave as I wanted. He patiently, thoroughly and exhaustively explained everything he could and set me on the right path of understanding how to write code myself. In evident embarrassment, I apologized for having taken much more of his free time than the circumstances required, but his sagacious response was, "give a man a fish and he'll have one meal, teach a man how to fish and he'll be set for a lifetime". I've always remembered those words, just as I'll always remember you, Ghastly. Che la terra ti sia lieve.
 
- @Dynamo

Matthew Krehbiel
November 5, 1990 - November 21, 2022
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     Thank you, @Dynamo.
February 8, 2023
February 8, 2023
Dear Matthew,  Today, another package arrived for you. It seems you supported others on Kickstart who were making game pieces and figures for the computer games you supported, and it takes a considerable period of time for their projects to reach fruition. Some of these products I will pass along to your friends and the groups that play these games, and others we may keep for family members who are avid gamers as well. Please know you are missed by us all. Our hearts remain heavy even as we accept that you are Home safely, while we are here, missing you.
January 21, 2023
January 21, 2023
Matthew,
     Today the condominium you always wanted in Charlottesville went up for sale.It had everything I know you cared about in terms of features and location. I know I encouraged you save your money and ultimately buy a home that would be more useful for a young family. I simply didn't want you to get stuck in a home that wouldn't meet your needs in the longer term. Of course, in retrospect, I didn't know you would be departing, and now I wish I had kept my mouth shut and encouraged you to live your life exactly as you had been inclined.  
      With five children originally, our house was always busy and probably always noisy. I hope I told you often enough how very much I love you, and how incredibly proud I am of all the things you achieved academically and otherwise. You achieved things in so many areas in which I have a limited understanding, like computers, chemistry, and higher mathematics. Just because I did not always understand what you were talking about, and I couldn't meaningfully contribute does not mean I wasn't incredibly proud of you and of everything you achieved. I love you Matthew, and I always will.
January 17, 2023
January 17, 2023
Matthew,   As I vacuum and clean your rooms, I am looking through many of your things for the first time. I would never have gone through your things when you were here, although perhaps I should have. Although doing it now is necessary, I still feel as if I am violating your privacy. I am concluding that you were a person who didn't like to speak of your achievements. There are lots of awards and commendations of one kind or another that you have never mentioned having received. Although I knew you had received a scholarship or two at your first college, I had not known that you had received a merit scholarship at the university. You never mentioned it. I was also amused by the certificate that is framed in the same expensive frame as your degree diplomas, which is a "Certificate of Extra Nerdiness" signed and given to you by one of your professors, with whom you worked closely.  I had known that you were well read. There are lots of the classics, lots of Bibles, books on chess, lots of classical and contemporary science fiction, history, and humor. In some ways, I am reminded of a younger version of my father, only I don't think I realized this while you were here.
January 9, 2023
January 9, 2023
Matthew, I have kept your phone with me every day since your departure, and I have charged it every other day. I suppose I thought you might find a way to send me a message, but I haven't received one on it. If you see my friend Elisabeth, she has recently passed and would likely be as supportive to you, as you would be to her. I love you wider than the oceans and deeper than the seas. Love to Papa Lawrence and to Daniel also.
January 7, 2023
January 7, 2023
Thank you to all that came to Matthew's "Celebration of Life" or who have called, written, or otherwise spoken to us. Thank you for your kind words and for helping us to remember all the wonderful moments of his life, those spent with us, and those he spent with his many dear friends, in his work, and also in his gaming hobbies. Love and best wishes to you all.
January 2, 2023
January 2, 2023
Yesterday Matthew, I took your brother Joseph to "End Games" for something he wished to pick up. Intellectually, I know you are not on this plane, but my heart apparently does not yet. Somehow, my heart thought that if you were relieved of the responsibilities of breathing, eating and working, that especially on a holiday, you would be there. When you weren't there, I had to return to the car. Please know I am doing my best.
December 31, 2022
December 31, 2022
Dearest Matthew, It is hard to leave 2022, and move forward to 2023, when you will not be coming with us. Part of me wants to cling to 2022 and never leave it, while part of me wishes to run from this awful year as fast as I can. Yet, I also fear what this new year brings. I know you are safe and with others you love in Heaven.  I will work to find peace here on Earth, but, of course, it hasn't happened yet.
December 13, 2022
December 13, 2022
We had a "Celebration of Life" for Matthew in a lovely rural place, which included lots of his friends, his siblings, and relatives and friends of the family. We had the kind of gathering that he would have liked, including a short memorial service, country music, conversation, food and drinks, with dogs, cats and horses just outside the building. The service was digitally recorded, so that friends who were out of state, or country, or who were having surgery that day, would receive access to a copy of the event itself. To those who have just heard and wished to send flowers, Matthew would have preferred, in lieu of flowers, for you to donate whatever you can to your local pound or animal shelter, as many such facilities have had a difficult couple of years. Thank you on his behalf.
December 11, 2022
December 11, 2022
You will always be my son, even if your shining soul resides in Heaven with God, your brother Daniel, my Dad, and the ancestors. I will never forget you, and I will love you and think of you every day until we see each other again. Thank you for being such a wonderful son. Just as I do with Daniel and Dad, I love you wider than the oceans, and deeper than the seas.
December 4, 2022
December 4, 2022
Though I did not know you Matthew, I know your mother. As fine a lady as she is, so you must be a gentleman of the first order and the world is lessened by your passing from it.
May you have fair winds and a following sea on your journey.
December 3, 2022
December 3, 2022

To be absent from the body is to be present with the Lord.
2 Corinthians 5:8 (NKJV)
I believe this Matthew, and I know that you did also.
Right now, in a sea of salty tears and pain, it's hard to understand, and yet I will continue to try, because I know this is what you would want.
December 2, 2022
December 2, 2022
Rest in Paradise, brother.
I still sit in disbelief, but then I find some various sayings, secular quotes and scripture that help intermittently, even for a second and the latest aided to quell the chaos:

“Verily we belong to God, and verily to Him do we return.”

Death is not the end, it’s the shift to the ultimate phase, the life of this world is a period of test for the individual’s adherence to God’s commandments within this worldly life.

But it’s still hard missing another part of my heart. I love you, Matthew and Daniel now with you.
November 29, 2022
November 29, 2022
  I noticed today that some of the gaming community is memorializing Matthew. Along with a number of other games, he played Doom as Ghastly Dragon. He also is credited in a number of projects for making functional and graphic design changes to a variety of online games. This is known as being a game modifier or "modder". Matthew has been credited with a lot of innovations in modding.

https://doomwiki.org
/wiki/Matthew_Krehbiel_(Ghastly)


and

https://forum.zdoom.org/viewtopic.php?t=76838

https://www.doomworld.com/vb/thread/132606

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March 10
Matthew,   
     I have not called your phone before. Today, I had the urge to call and check on all my adult kids, and so I called hoping just to leave a message saying how much I love and miss you. Your message still says, "This is Matthew. I can't take your call for whatever reason, so leave a message." The mailbox is full so I could not leave the message I wanted. I am not sure how to listen to the messages. I know even more than a year later, I am reluctant to disconnect your phone, on the off cosmic chance you need to use it. I love and miss you very, very much, as do we all.
March 3
March 3
i'm into cyber security myself, and he's an inspiration
March 2
This is Edward Snowden's comment at the end of this post, to a post about Matthew that told about his internet obsession as a child, and broad interests in gaming and in cybersecurity.
Edward Snowden
@Snowden
·

Nothing has ever unnerved me like witnessing my child's first time totally ensorcelled by a glowing screen.

I spent my entire life stapled to a computer and yet still struggle to manage my own vulnerability to that trance. What if we can't? If we simply haven't evolved for this?
                              _____

Jane-Alexandra Krehbiel
@KrehbielAuthor
·
Please regulate your children's screen time. Your mind developed as it did as a result of all the activities you enjoyed and apparently perfected.

                             ______
Edward Snowden
@Snowden
·

My mind developed as it did because I was so addicted to the internet as a teen that when my carpal tunnel became so extreme that it was too painful to type, I would lay the keyboard on the floor to hunt and peck with my toes rather than log off.
I am not an example to emulate.
                              _______

Jane-Alexandra Krehbiel
@KrehbielAuthor
·
2h
I have always been fond of you because I have a son who was very similar to you in some ways. He did the same. Matthew was a cybersecurity engineer.
forevermissed.com
Matthew D. Krehbiel, (1990 - 2022) - ForeverMissed.com Online Memorials
This online memorial is dedicated to Matthew D. Krehbiel. It is a place to celebrate his life by sharing fond memories, photos, music and more.

                             _________
Edward Snowden
@Snowden
He seems to have belonged very much to the same cohort! May his memory be a blessing.

                               ___________
Recent stories

How Do I Do Christmas ?

December 24, 2023
        Matthew, the first Christmas without you occurred just after your passing, and I frankly have no memory of it. It neatly fir into those days I endured, where I appeared and functioned but don't really remember..  This Christmas, is more difficult. I truly missed figuring out what to get you for Christmas.  Yes, I know that I didn't understand enough about your computer, your gaming, and things that were truly important to you, enough to get really great gifts for you, but please know I tried. I appreciated finding all the gifts I think I ever gave you all neatly stacked in the shelves in your California closet, most of them never used.  Thank you for not taking them back.  This year, I not only have to go through the motions of Christmas without your brother Daniel, but now without you also.
         I know that somehow I have to suck it up, and function, and still try to craft a good holiday for your remaining brothers, your sister, and the niece and nephews, but it's hard. So far, the closest I have come is putting up your Christmas stocking over the fireplace and blowing a kiss into it.   I don't have a clue as to how to cook those specialties you liked, the squash with the hot tomatoes over it, etc.  I am making the cheese ball and the chocolate dessert I think you liked.  I love you Matthew, and I would welcome you at the table beside me, with or without Daniel, or my Dad. I understand that you might have some pretty fabulous invitations for some events in Heaven by now.  I hope the animals with you are all well too.  I love you, Matt.

Back to Late November

November 18, 2023
  Today is about the day in which you, one year ago, happily got an influenza vaccine so that your nephew would be protected from anyone who might become ill.  Since you saw him so much, we thought it made sense, and if I never told you, I appreciate how much you loved and looked out for your niece and nephews. I had no way of knowing when I asked this of you, that this would be the causation or the catalyst to your passing just a number of hours later.  Yet still, I feel awful.  My doctor says we "Did the right thing", but nothing that has taken you from the world could possibly have been the right thing.  Please know you are missed beyond measure, deeply loved and deeply missed.  I know that your strong faith allowed you to go straight to where you were to be, before we found you. Your spirit was so missing from your room.  We love you Matthew, very, very much.

A Conversation

November 11, 2023
   The first year since your passing is almost gone, and somehow we made it through your birthday at the beginning of the month. So much of your life was bittersweet. For some reason, particularly at this time of year, I replay in my head a particular conversation. We had this conversation in 2008, just after your grandfather, my dad, and just after your brother Daniel died.  I remember that in your grief,  you verbalized being frightened that some type of sudden death might happen to you someday.  Of course, after Daniel died, the entire family had a full cardiological work up to help ensure that none of us had signs of any type of arrhythmic disorder. We had hunted down whatever humanly could have been done, and this motivated my response to you that day. I remember telling you that God doesn't promise tomorrow to any of us, and that we have to plan as if we are going to be here on Earth a long time, and yet live as if nothing is left undone. I also told you that you'd had a clean work up and that there was no reason not to expect that you would live a normal if not long lifespan.  You seemed to accept this, though it was definitely a year before you or I looked anything but grief stricken after Daniel's passing. Still, inch by inch, we accepted that God had deliberately left us on Earth, and just as deliberately called Daniel home to Him.  I often think of our conversation that day, and wonder if I gave you good counsel. I absolutely thought that you had almost no genuine chance of dying suddenly, following an influenza vaccine or otherwise.  Now, in my grief I am occasionally tortured by wondering if I should have explored a bit better why you expressed this fear. Please know that you are loved and remembered, as is Daniel, and my Dad.  Not an hour goes by without my wondering what Heaven is like for you. You are truly loved, even now.

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