Hello darling x been decorating again even my cleaner has been helping x trying to get in the garden but the rain keeps getting in the way nothing much else happening x miss you so much son when I'm doing something I think if Matthew was here he would of done by now x love you always and forever son xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Forgot, I am now the owner of our house, who would of thought it, but there you go things do happen if you try xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hey up son all doing ok here, uncle Peter getting a bit worse, been helping auntie june, because she is struggling since having blood clot on her lung, well she's helped me all my life so I'm happy to be able to help her, lads out again this weekend go karting, they did laser thingy the other week, and paintballing, see what damage they can do this time, lol, It really gets to me because they would of loved doing all these things with you, love you son miss you so much xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hello darling well another good start to a new year x they were spoiled as usual x aunt June has been in hospital but ok now x talking about going on holiday not sure were yet x love and miss you so much son x I wish all that crap hadn't happened and you were here with us love you darling xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Well its another new year Brandon now 22, it's difficult to write anything at the minute just miss you so much son xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hey up son, well another Christmas come and gone without you x i know I say it all the time but it's so lonely without you here x just been looking at photos of you when you were at school and before I knew it you became an adult with a son time flew passed so quick and then you were gone but not from my mind and especially my heart x I miss you so much son xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Well its almost Christmas again son another one without you x it's our Anne's funeral today can't believe she's gone poor kids x well as usual the boys have been spoiled again, but hey ho why not, got operation next week, going shopping with kev this week just to get last bits of presents, I would give anything to have you back with us, love and miss you so much son xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi sweetheart things are good here Brandon's shed is done kev put carpet down yesterday, his mates are coming over again this Weekend so that will be fun, they are so funny, the new company have control now those other idiots have now gone so things are going great just waiting for pool table to be delivered for them for up shed, its horrible not having you here to see how well the lads are doing. Love and miss you so much son xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi son well Brandon's shed is finished, nothing new here just same old, uncle peter even more frail, auntie June still auntie June, just heard a lovely song about loosening someone and had me having a cry, I miss you so much son xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Sorry son I couldn't write on here yesterday to upsetting, 15years and I can remember were I was what I was doing and every word the police said when they phoned to tell me the tragic news, poor uncle Patrick getting out of bed to comfort me it must of been painful for him, I still see you walking down the back garden with Brandon when you got back from picking him up to come and stay, he still has his moments head wise and I have to explain things to him but its lovely having him living here, I love and miss you so much son but I will love you forever and one day I'll see you again xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Remembering you Today Matt.. 15 Years.. Where does the time go. RIP

Hello darling x we are doing good x the lads are doing good x me I'm just me plodding along as usual x have my moments x I do wish you were here for us x love and miss you son always in my thoughts and my heart x love you son love mom xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Well darling thank you for listening last week x you don't know how much it ment to me x god bless son love you so very much xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hello darling weather beautiful at min , arthritis getting worse , but hey ho nothing can be done, Brandon still Brandon and Taylor still Taylor, playing me up the buggers, uncle Peter getting more fragile bless him, june peter and I went for a lovely meal the other day, nice to sit and chat, well not much else to say at the minute but I love and miss you so very much god bless you darling love always mom xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi son well things are just the same here think about you every day x wish you were with us lovey x love mother xxxxxxxx

Hi sweetheart well Brandon had a bit of an accident Sunday while go karting had to have stitches inside and outside of lip got some good bruises his support workers took him hospital but he is ok , Taylor hurt his back but he also is ok, so lonely without you lovey I do miss you so much son, love you to the moon and back xxxxxx

Happy 48th Birthday Matt. Hard to believe we left Torc 32 Years ago next month.
Sleep well, Danny x.

Happy birthday in heaven my darling son x another birthday without you it just isn't fair that you're not here x love and miss you so much son xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Morning son xxxxxxxx

Hi son x well its nearly your birthday x I wish I could turn back time and have things has they were before this nightmare happened x miss you so very much son love you forever and always mom xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I went to both Stonydelph and Glascote/Torc High with Matthew. I remember him for his hay fever (terrible from memory) and also when he was 'drunk' at Torc once and collapsed (?) from memory. I had only recently moved up to Lancashire several weeks before reading about the sad news in the Tamworth Herald back in 2008. He was living in Eringden as a kid and I vaguely remember his Mum and/or Dad being associated with the local youth club. I'll always remember his big smile and red hair, those freckles of course. RIP Matt, often think of you. Regards, Danny.

Hi darling o love and miss you so much xxxxxx

Well son your little man is 21 today so pleased he made it through all that happened to him x I wish you had x love and miss you so very much son xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
GOD BLESS YOU X

Hi son well another Christmas been and gone without you x the lads were spoilt as grandkids are x not much to say as usual it's to upsetting x I miss you so much my darling son more than I can say x love you son xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hello son well what a few emotional weeks all the Christmas lights and songs remind me of all the Christmases we had together and I miss them so much x I know I keep saying it but Brandon reminds me of you so much he has us in stitches x love you son xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Went out for lunch with auntie june and uncle Peter yesterday x uncle peter is looking very frail x auntie June got to have another opp on her leg tomorrow x I dread to think how many appointments we have coming up between us lol x lads are ok Taylor started new job has the old place closing down x speak soon darling love and miss you mom xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hey up darling x its been a week full of hospital appointments thank God none tomorrow x all ok here lads are well Brandon still keeping us in stitches x things going well with change over x nothing much else but that I miss you and love you so much and I don't have to tell you how much I wish you were here x love always and forever son xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hello darling x time is going by so quick the weeks don't last long x can't believe Brandon has been living with us over 12 months x the lads make me laugh when playing on line x loads of new words being shouted out lol x not much else to put apart from the usual and that is I love and miss you so much x love always mom xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hello my darling son x things are ok here x so many songs on radio this morning that remind me of when you were here with us x just having one of my sad days without you x I love you so much son xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

14 years you were taken from me still dosnt seem that long still hurts so very much x I'll write on here later to upset at the minute x love you son xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi ya son x things going well here x won't be long before Jo takes over Brandon's finances he will be a lot happier when he's got rid of all these idiots that take him for a fool as he is far from it x him and Taylor and the support workers are arranging a paintballing day for them all, there looking forward to it x me I'm just pottering around the house and garden as usual I think the garden looks the best it's ever been x hopefully won't be long before the house is brought x Brandon has his eye on another one on this row to rent out just hope he can get it x you would be so proud of him, he's a lovely chap son x uncle peter is not looking to good he laughs every time when he talks about the time he and Patrick tought you to play crib and you kept beating them x I do miss you so much son, I ask myself why you and not the bastard after birth, I have so much hate inside me towards her,so do the lads, it's hurtful to hear Brandon say he knew she didn't like him, and Taylor don't even go there x well that's my moan over x I love and miss you darling love always mom xxxxxxxx

Hello my darling x well the jubilee is at an end today x you were 2 when she had her jubilee in 1977 x we haven't done anything x decorating as usual just doing Taylor's room now x then all upstairs done again x not much else going on x I miss you with all my heart x love mom xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Well it's your birthday today again another one without you x I'm feeling sorry for myself today, I miss you so much x if I could talk to you and hold you would be amazing x got Sue's funeral next week so sad x why did he have to take you I will never know x I love you son x miss you more than I can say x love you always and forever xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hello my darling x were all ok x Brandon doing well with his new personal trainers x Taylor still working hard can't believe he's been there over 4yrs and still only 1 night off x if the neurologist gives the ok Brandon maybe able to work with him x it's Sue's funeral on the 26th April x me and uncle Peter are taking aunty june out for a break next week she has been rushed off her feet sorting it all out and her phones never stop x so sad x only the good ones go to soon x hopefully it won't be much longer before the new deputy takes over for Brandon and he should be £50,000 a month better off x love and miss you so very much son x God bless xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hello my darling x well another good one joing you son x sue was taken from us early sunday morning x keep her safe with the rest of the family there with you x love you son xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi son x sorry it's been so long writing to you x been decorating Brandon's room and parts of the house x his gym has come for up top of garden can't wait for it to be put up he will love it x he's got all his weights and bench and that ready to put in there x got a few interviews today to do with him for a new pa has Daniel has had to stop work which is a shame has they got on so well x Taylor still working hard x that bitch just needs to leave him alone but has she is a narcissistic that will never happen shame she dosnt overdose do the world a massive favour x miss you so much my darling son x love you forever and always x mom xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi son x well things are going well x Brandon a bit frustrated with the treasure who looks after his money x he's a bit slow doing things for Brandon x god I hate losing the people I love fed up of crying x that's enough of that or I will start again x well just doing finishing touches to hall stairs and landing carpet has been fitted its looking good x off to tip in a bit get rid of some rubbish then pop garden centre x Brandon's got a new chap that takes him golf and gym or just out for the day doing stuff worth every penny he was a nurse dealing with people with head injuries so he is well suited for him x he worrys about kylah and how she is doing x he's such a caring person just like you x I wish you were here with us I miss you so much love always and forever son x love mother xxxxxxxx

Hi son x well Brandon is now a man x I can't believe he's 20 x seems like only yesterday that the little bugger was in nappys x he misses you so much x its amazing how much he can remember x love and miss you so very much son x you would be so proud of him xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi son x Brandon doing great looking after me x he now is living here x been doing some more wrapping x going to redecorate all through after Christmas give it a nice freshen up everywhere new hall stairs and landing carpet x new carpet for Brandon's room and new bed x Taylor's bed coming next week xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi son x well mandy came over this week x haven't seen her for a while x she has been really Ill x she hasn't changed still funny x zuise liked her lol x still putting decorations up outside I'll get them finished this weekend x Brandon helped with your tree x and put you Christmas picture on the tree x I don't think he will be going home anytime soon lol x but with all the people that deal with him coming here I can understand better what he goes through now x I love you son and miss you so much xxxxxxxx

Hi ya darling x soon be Christmas again x another one without you x Brandon doing outside lights x he wants to go to town lol x we will see depends how mad is mad x poor kylah such a shame that cunt doesn't want her back at all and she has the bastard nerve to call me x I bet Charlie is ecstatic because she hates poor kylah x that fucking so called friend has a lot to answer to x that poor kid in care is all her fault x it breaks my heart thinking of her in there or even anywhere that's not family x the town is talking about the bitch because they can see through all her lies and the self pity they know shes a narcissistic nutter x I hate her so much x well moan over for now x love and miss you so much son x love mother xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hello my darling son x Brandon is still here and its lovely x having cancer removed on wed x hope it hasn't spread to far x Brandon has started using some of the words you used to say x makes me piss x he's great company not just for me but also for Taylor x got millie's ashes next to yours so your both together again x can't write for a min getting upset and I won't be able to see x love you so much xxxxxx miss you so much xx mother xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi sweetheart x took millie to be cremated today x it was so hard leaving her there o just wanted to pick her back up and bring her back home x fetching her ashes tomorrow and she will be home with us again x Brandon bless him was so upset he carried her in from the vets and put her on her sofa so she had a last night on there has she hasn't been able to get up on it for a couple of yrs x and she was in to much pain to pick up x and he was up and down all night to kiss her x Taylor put her in the car this morning because she was so bloody heavy x I can't wait to get her back it's so strange without her x even zuise isn't himself x I'm glad she is with you now x love you and miss you so much son x love you always and for everyone x mother xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hello sweetheart x well it's a very sad day today x got to say goodbye to millie moo x to say she has been a comfort x loyal loving dog x and you found her for me x Brandon is coming with me x Taylor brought her some meat home x it's time to let her go I've been selfish keeping her with me x so wait for her as she passes over the rainbow bridge later I am going to miss her so much x love and miss you son so very much x love always and forever mom xxxxxxxx

Hi sweetheart x still waiting for appointment to come through from hospital to have cancer on hand to be removed and have lump in neck drained x Brandon been still here bless him x have lots of people in and out to see him x don't think millie will be here for Christmas she is getting really bad now I'm just being selfish hoping she will last forever x uncle peter is looking so frail and old now bless him x he julie and Sarah went to take flowers to sandra's grave Tues and Sarah noticed that on aunt Pat's stone date of death was wrong it said 24/ 12/ 2021 not 2020 x so there replacing it free of charge x the cemetery can't believe no one had noticed it has it has to be checked by 6 people x took the lads Christmas shopping at Bister village got there main prezzys x so just stocking fillers to buy x well that's all for now son x as always love and miss you so so much xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hello my darling x if I needed you with me more than any other time it's now x love and miss you so very much xxxxxxxx

Hi sweetheart x well things are just plodding along x heard from poor kylah she is so sad being in a child's home and I feel so sad for her and miss her so much x that fucking thing has a lot to answer for why couldn't she just let things alone but then she wouldn't of been happy not that she ever is x the bitch even said the day after she had Taylor arrested that she loves a bit of drama that's not what a normal person would call drama x hateful malicious vindictive evil yes x typical narcissistic person x Brandon still here bless him x met some of the people that work with him x there nice ladys x and are helping him along x he's still pissed off with his treasure lol x but maybe once he's met him properly he will change his mind x well not much else to tell you apart from the usual and that is how much I miss and love you son xxxxxxxx mother xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Well its 13 years ago son that you were taken from us x it dosnt seem that long as I can remember every word of what I was told that tragic day when God took you away x I miss you not being here and having a laugh x and you certainly did that x miss you so much Matthew x love you forever and always x love morher xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi ya sweetheart x sitting here thinking about when I had to come to Gloucester and identify you x that bitch said she had been moaning and carrying on saying you were at home when in fact you were gone and once again because it wasn't all about her she couldn't even come near you or look at you she couldn't even say goodbye x I do so miss you my beautiful son x love you so much xxxxxxxx

Hi son x Brandon is just so disgusted with her and Charlie x he's never liked her x and what Charlie has told him about herself he's just disgusted and her mother knows about it x I can't help but think about poor kylah but I had to make her go back that night or her life would of been made more of a misery that it already is still upsets me though x and the recording I have of her blaming Charlie for kylah being here was her fault well she had a good month to get things right with kylah while Charlie was here but no typical narcissistic blame everyone but themselves x it was her that threw her out x well weather is horrible wanted to get out in the garden but that's not going to happen now x Taylor's other cat died Tuesday night she was hit by a car x it never rains but it pours for the poor lad x Brandon was supposed to be away this week but its been cancelled x he's not that bothered x love and miss you so much son x love you always and forever x love mother xxxxxxxxxxxxx