Well she has excelled herself this time x what an absolute bitch x how could she do this to her own son x well Taylor said I used to hate her now I just wish her dead x and as usual what she didn't know she made up x my god I'm disgusted with Charlie she will be pregnant before long having seen the pictures she poses for these men and that bitch knows about them x I know I keep saying I wish you were still here but I'm pleased that she can't harm you like she has Taylor x Brandon is over tomorrow x wait till I tell him Charlie has also accused him of rapping kylah x kylah did call her a liar and said she said no such thing x but Charlie is just like her mother x drinking taking coke smoking weed x well what did I expect with them having that has a mother x I know you got into some scrapes but they were nothing to the grief that bitches has caused x all for the pleasure of her own entertainment sick bastard x she must have a very sad life to inflict so much shit on others x she is the worst form of a narcissistic person ive read about x apart from all this were ok x but I do miss you so very much my darling son x love mom xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi sweetheart well such a lot gone on after 7 yrs of not seeing the girls Charlie came down and refused to go home then the police turned up a couple of months later with kylah x what the hell x well Charlie didn't like kylah being here so went back to her moms my god Matthew shes turned out just like her mother she's feral x and then she was filmed kicking the hell out of kylah the police have seen it and were showing there Sargent x poor kylah dosnt know if she's coming or going x one minute her mom is all over her wanting to see her and then let's her down poor kid talk about not being wanted, Charlie controls her mother and what happens at home x my god I dread to think what you would say if you were here x Brandon said she's a nutter and always has been x we always said that those girls would never be right because they were not given the love and attention and affection when they were little she has screwed them up what was it you always said there just cash machines to her x got some days out planned when little man comes over witch won't be long its been a week since was last here lol x love and miss you so very much x love always and forever mom xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi darling x thought you should know how much of a help Brandon is to me x just like you he cares about his nan and dose so much to help me especially heavy garden stuff x nothing is to much for him if it helps me x wish you were here to see the caring x thoughtful x loving x funny young man he is x just like you x you would be so proud of him x love and miss you so much my darling son x love you for ever and always mother xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi my darling son x sorry I didn't wish you happy birthday yesterday x to upset x so belatedly birthday wishes x oh god I do miss you and wish you were here with us x Brandon been over last 2 weeks we talk about you so much x its amazing what he remembers x Charlie is doing good x we are all meeting at cemetery next Monday to scatter aunt Pat's ashes now we can get in x poor bugger has been at your uncle Peter's since her funeral x love and miss you so much it hurts even after all these years x love you darling love mother

Hi darling x well Charlie's adamant she won't go back up home x social worker's have listened to her and I don't know what will happen poor kids x well little man should be coming over soon can't wait to see him x he's still got Christmas presents to open x he's been messaging to see how we are bless him x well apart from all this with Charlie nothing much else going on here x wish you were here with us son x miss you so much x love forever and always mom xxxxxxxxx

Hi sweetheart x well what can I say Charlie came down in a right state x she sent me a message saying she didn't want to be on this earth anymore x frightened me x phoned her social worker but she wasn't there so phoned police and asked there advice x they said to keep her here x her social worker was more worried about kylah being taken to her grandads with the covid rules x the police came and spoke to her x oh my god I couldn't believe what I was hearing x and they said again to keep her here x and just waiting on social services to see what is being done and if she will go home x at the minute she won't x God son I could do with you here x love and miss you so much xxxxxxxxxxx

Hello sweetheart x well things are going ok here x the operation hasn't gone as bad as i was thinking the joint is starting to fuse x i will be glad when things start settling down and we can we can get back to some sort of normality x and Brandon can come over x and start doing my tree in again as he dose x but he wouldn't be Brandon if he was any different x love and miss you as always x love mom xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi son x well sorting things out in house x just getting quotes for walk in shower x bedroom carpet shopping tomorrow x got the other bedroom looking like a bedroom again not a junk yard x new bed x bedding x lights ect x looks lovely x can't wait to to get my room finished now x and bathroom x how Taylor sleeps through the work men outside is unreal x hopefully we will see little man soon x at least he keeps in touch x such a caring lad x well lots of other things been going on but don't want to say on here in case some evil bastard looks x well as always miss you x love you and wish it hadn't been you x love you son god bless love mother xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hello son x well operation didn't go as well as the surgeon hoped x so done 1 finger and if that dose ok will do the rest x Brandon has been in touch miss the little bugger x loads to tell you but won't mention it on here x we are all doing ok in the circumstances x stitches out wed x looking at getting another car x but I may wait get next mot on this one and then get another one looking at range rover not over 8 maybe 10 years old x can't wait for weather to get better want to get in garden x millie struggling with climbing the step now x it's so sad that it was you that was taken from us x things would be so much better with you here x love and miss you so much x mother xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Well son another Christmas has gone x spent a lot of it crying as usual x and you now have auntie pat with you she died Christmas eve x it has been quite Brandon has been messaging me to make sure I'm ok x haven't seen him for ages with the drs saying to self isolate with this bloody covid I haven't told him about my urgent appointment to see what's going on with my bloods x it's a bit scary x and I'm worried to be honest x spending a lot of time thinking the worst and worrying about Taylor if things aren't good x not heard from the girls as her has most probably put the fear of god up them x poor Charlie said she would rather be in care than live there x sounds just like Taylor x such a shame they don't feel loved or cared about especially kylah x but as you know it's all about her and fuck everyone else x zuse is waiting for it to snow lol x millie is doing ok still bless her x love and miss you so much son x love mother xxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi son x I think it must be the time of year and this bloody virus but ive been thinking about Charlotte and lionie and how evil she was to them x its upset Taylor him not being in touch with the girls again x when we are talking for example he will say I remember KELLY being like that or saying things like that x he doesn't call her mom not that he mentioned her that much but he has started calling her by her name x I knew he missed them but as you know he isn't one for showing his feelings x but he was so so pleased to see and talk to them and now he's back were he started because of that selfish narcissist bitch x that's it wining over x put the lights up outside ready so I'm not rushing about later just have to plug them in x I still do your tree wouldn't be the same without it x got all Brandon's xmas prezzys x just got to finish Taylor's and all done x got pixies just got to get her some clothes tomorrow after injections have been delivered x miss you as always mother xxxxxxxx

Hi darling x well were on lockdown again x poor brandon is desperate to come over but at the minute he can't x started to get xmas stuff down even though its early just thought with all that's going on we need a bit of cheering up x well had a nice little win on the lottery last week thank God I int in contact with her or she would of had spent it before it had even gone in the bank x selfish cunt x aunt pat still doing ok x can't believe that they have put her bloody rent up again it's now over £1000 a week now x Taylor still working x he's so funny x I really do wish you were here son love and miss you sweetheart xxxxxxxx

Hello darling x still having my crying meltdowns x but that's what losing you son does to you x I've had a few lovely surprises over the last few weeks I wish you were here to enjoy them with us x Taylor still working x Brandon still courting x well on and off x lol he's a character x you would of enjoyed Taylor's sence of humor x comes out with things and I say that's something Matthew would of said x I miss you so very much son x love mother xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hello sweetheart x we are still plodding on x Brandon reminds me so much of you bless him x bloody zuse has had a bad leg but its getting better x you would hope so so far his vet bill is almost £500 and were not done yet x Taylor loves him so much x millie bless her is struggling with her legs but still going x thank god x garden has been looking lovely x I know I keep saying it but I do wish you were here with us x I have hospital next week to see hand surgeon to see if its possible to have my hands operated on x I hope we don't have a lockdown again this is my 3 appointment the other's were cancelled because of this virus x god bless you son x love and miss you so much x love always and forever mom xxxxxxxx

Hello my darling x well it is 11yrs of your funeral x people say that everything is usually a blur but I remember the day so well just like when the police phoned to tell me you had died x they were moving Brandon this day aswell from Gloucester to Birmingham x bless him x even then she couldn't resist having a go at me and speaking to me like I was a piece of shit x Charlotte was disgusted so were a lot of people x she couldn't even keep her nasty mouth shut x but then it was about us and not her x love you son x love mother xxxxxxxx

Hello my darling x can't believe it is 12yrs today that you went x miss you so so much x no mother should have to bury there child x I love you so much and miss you more than I can say x god bless you son x love as always mother xxxxxxxx

Almost forgot the forevermissed team have now sent me instructions so I can delete the bitchs photo from off here x she has no place or right to be associated with us xxxxxxxx

Hello darling x things are getting a bit better here x doing a fairy garden with little pixie up top x garden is almost done looks so different since I got the convertible moved and got it tidied up x just waiting for part to come from Germany for car for mot x lost without it x Taylor's still working through all this crap x Brandon came over for a while x thank god we have a bloody American fridge freezer and the chest one as Brandon can eat us out of house and home x lol x x I really wish you were here son miss you so much x love mother xxxxxxxx

Hello my darling x well still in the house x garden looking good though x poor lily Taylor's cat is dying she was fine yesterday but got up and found her just lying in backplace x she couldn't stand so shes on sofa at minute x Taylor dosnt know has he went straight to bed when he came in from work x so hope she's gone before he gets up x I don't want him to see her this way x vets are not working because of this virus x can get an emergency but it would cost him a fortune x and she's almost gone anyway x just keeping her comfy x not seen our Brandon for weeks x he messages to see if I'm ok bless him x I know I keep saying this but I miss you so much son x god how wish you were still here with us x god bless you x love as always mother xxxxxxxx ❤❤❤❤❤

Hello son x I dont know what's wrong with me today just things keep coming into my head and I'm just start crying for god knows what for x I'm worried about leaving here x leaving Taylor to fend for himself x never seeing the girls again x brandon xleaving the animals x just everything x I think about my childhood and my sister x even me friends from school the funny things we did and places we went x I start crying x is this what happens when the say they saw there lives pass before them x my life and all the bastards that have fucked it up x especially that thing with her selfish lying ways and what shes done x I'm sorry I shouldn't be moaning like this just feel so alone at the minute x so so sorry babe I wish I had you here xxxxxx

Happy birthday son x hope your going to be celebrating up there with all the people we have loved and lost x miss you so so much x I'm not going to write a lot as it's all about your day x wish you were here love and miss you son x love mother xxxxxxxx

Hi son x still not much happening at the moment x fed up of not being able to go garden centre lol x still finding things to do x I wish you were here matthew so horrible without you x love and miss you so much x mother xxxxxxxx

Hi son x not much to tell we are still in self isolation x its doing my head in not being able to go out especially garden centre x Taylor is still working x so that's about it for now x love and miss you so much x love mother xxxxxxxx

Hi babe x well what a game with this bloody virus x shopping is a nightmare x Taylor still having to go to work x its maceys birthday today x kylahs tomorrow x I bet there growing up fast x poor kids I do feel for them having that hateful x uncaring x selfish bitch for a mother x I think about when she was born and a toddler god she was beautiful loved her so much x how could she turn out to be the evil thing that she is x well the hall stairs and landing has been done x it all looks nice and fresh x little man not coming over for a while with this virus x I sat thinking about all I've been able to afford since she's not taking my money from me and paid cash for it all x I'll be glad when the country gets back on its feet and we can get back to normal again x all for now son x love you x missing you x love mother xxxxxxxx

Hi son x things still the same x poor millie is struggling with her legs worse than usual x I'm dreading the time I have to let her go x zuse is just zuse lol x everything sorted now for April we have her with us permanently now it's all official x yaaaa x so lonely without you son x brandon still cracking me and Taylor up x he's on a new medication so hopefully this will help him x speak to you soon x love and miss you so you xxxxxxxxx

Hi son x well that's the lads getting older time flying by so fast x nothing much going on here apart from the usual x aunt pat still cussing everyone lol x poor josie is ok bless her x me and your uncle peter have grown closer since aunt pat went in the nursing home x we have a great laugh and cuss x glad her int around or she would be accusing us of being an item like she did with our Patrick the sick bitch x I know I keep saying it but I hate her so much x those poor kids x let's hope they get away from her as soon as they can for there own sanity x they will have a lot of problems to deal with just like Taylor has x I've said it before but she was the one that should of gone not you x miss you son so much it's not fair x all for now mother xxxxxxxx

Hi sweetheart well Christmas and new year has been and gone for another year x Taylor brought me and Brandon some lovely things x had some lovely stuff off Brandon as well x Brandon is now on stronger medication to help him x and it won't be much longer and he will get his compensation for accident bless him at least he will be sorted for life x he wants to start having driving lessons x Taylor starting soon x I can't believe there 18 and 20 now x it's a shame that she is such a cunt as she has missed out on him going from a teenager to a young man with a job and isn't afraid of hard work x but everyone says that if he was still with her he wouldn't be the lad with a job like he is now x well I'm off to hospital for check up on arthritis and next week check up on the holes they put in my eyes x bloody hospital appointments coming in again now year out the way x love and miss you so much son x love mother xxxxxxxx

Well here we are again another Christmas without you x and the girls x putting on a happy face for the lads and the rest of the world x I won't write to much as i only end up snotting as usual x but I wish you a lovely Christmas up there with all our family and friends that are with you x god bless you son x love and miss you so much x love you always and forever mother xxxxxxxxx❤❤❤

Hi babe x well getting ready for Christmas x so so sad you are not here x we miss you so much x missing the girls as usual x but more so as its Christmas time x Brandon is a great help to me with Taylor working x god I want to say so much to you x but I don't think there would be enough room lol love you son xxxxxxxx

Hi babe x well had a good cry yesterday they have started playing xmas songs on the radio x was thinking about you not being here x not seeing the girls x mom x Patrick x and the rest of the family that are no longer here x what a life x finding it difficult to think what to buy the lads this year x Brandon had me in bits as usual talking about college x he misses you so much x love and miss you so much love mother xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hello my darling x

Hi babe x well it's been another emotional few days x poor Derek passed over the rainbow bridge yesterday x I haven't been able to stop crying x god death is a shit x no matter who or what x I've looked after him since he was a puppy x poor Emma is distraught x its horrible not having someone to hug at times like this x Brandon will be back tomorrow lol x miss you so much xxxxxxx

Hello my darling x I find it so hard to come on here as I just want to sit and talk to you like we used to x well millie was 15 yesterday I though I was losing her on the Tue x aunt pat is still aunt pat x Brandon will be over again later as usual bless him x he's got a wicked sence of humor has me and Taylor in bits x he misses you so much x we talk so much about you x Christmas will be here before we know it x its difficult to buy for Taylor now hes working as he buys all that he wants now he doesn't have to wait for Christmas x Brandon is doing well at college still keeps threatening to come and live here lol x that's all for now me darling love you x mother xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi darling x millie has got more lumps come up I'm so worried that I will have to have her put to sleep x poor Derek is poorly and getting worse x Brandon coming over today bless him he's here every minute he can x oh son I miss you so much x love you mother xxxxxx

Hi babe x been having a sort out and found a load of bots an bobs x brought a few tears on x I've uploaded a picture that you did for Brandon x it's not nice here without you x love you loads x miss you x mother xxxxxxxxxxx

Cant wait till I get a minute to get that bitches photo off here xxxxxx

Hi son x just having a minute x the lads are up the fair x how I used to love going up there with you and the grandkids x the excitement they couldn't control x god bless them I miss them so so much xxxxxxxx

Hi babe x here for a moan x so fed up x sad and feeling sorry for myself x wish you were here to talk to x and take my mind off things x had to book appointment to have some different blood tests done x he's looking for diabetes and cancer x not good when your on your own and not having someone to talk to about it x let's hope it's not anything x can you imagine she will be jumping for joy if it was cancer x just the thought that I could have it would make her day x well she's most probably wished it on me x but she's not the perfect person she makes out to people x I wonder if her precious dad knows that the school didn't know if the boy would be starting school as they had been told that social services were thinking of taking him off them x well at least she can't blame me x you x or the lads x I do so hope she rots in hell but i will come back and haunt her x miss you son x love me so much xxxxx mother xxxxx

Hi sweetheart x for some reason I couldn't stop thinking about you x mom or Patrick yesterday x maybe it was because I was thinking about your funeral x God I wish the hurt would stop x but I suppose that's how you feel when you have lost someone you really love xxxxxx

Hi son well weather is changing x garden has looked brill this yr x the boys are doing ok x aunt pat still moaning lol x aunty June had a bad fall down stairs x uncle Peter is as funny as ever x Millie is getting grumpy with her aches and pains x found quite a few lumps on her now x I'm dreading the day she gose x but nothing else has changed x miss you son wish you were here with us x love you babe xxxxx

Hi babe x couldn't visit on the 20th to upsetting x can't beleave it's been 11yrs x still keep expecting you to walking down the path x to me your still here x i wish you were x love and miss you so much x love always and forever mother xxxxxxxx

Hello baby x April's shoes came today x it's been lovely buying all her wedding clothes x the dress is being delivered this week x she is going to look stunning x it's been a distraction wedding shopping x you would of got on with her x she is a lovely person x she is a daughter I would of loved to have had x but she calls me mom x and says she is my daughter and that's great Brandon is still here bless him x he's such a love and helps me so much x i wish you were here babe and living life with us xxxxxxxx

Hi son x I've just been sorting out all the papers from the courts for the girls to read as and if they want to when there older x and I can't beleave some of the sick things she lied about x how can she say how much she loved you and then say you constantly asked her for sex x and me and you and the lads and me making her have sex with boyfriends xfor god sake some sick head x i have never hated anyone so much x needed that moan x those poor kids will be so screwed up in the head x with her and him as so called parents lol there a joke x and as sick as each other x miss you so much our chatting and laughing x that's something I couldn't do with her xxxxxx

Hi babe x things still going good here x Brandon still here x building a wooden gazibo just been and got the wood x I can't be doing with having to keep putting the other sort up and down over the hot tub x wish you were here to enjoy all I've done with the garden it has never looked so good x all new garden furniture at the top and bottom x Brandon loves the double bed sun lounges x but I'm sure you are looking down on it all x miss you so much son x it's horrible not having my only child no more x god bless you babe x xxxxxx

Oh babe x I've had the biggest surprise today x I'm on cloud nine xxxxx Brandon still here lol x I've not felt like this for a long long time x I wish you were here to enjoy what's happened x love and miss you so much xxxxxx

Hi son x well the sun is out x Brandon is back lol xx he only went home for 2 days x he's been a great help with Taylor working nights x we have put the hot tub up ready for today x he loves it x comes out looking like a shriveled up prune bless him x he loves being here x he would move in if he could x well that's about all x I'm still getting on with life as you have to x miss the girls so very much and so do the boys x and we miss you something horrible x love you Matthew x love mother xxxxxx

Hi my darling x I think brandons moved in x he's not been home for weeks lol x x it's good for Taylor has he has no friends thanks to her x I learn a lot about things that bother him as he talks to Brandon x well things are plodding along as usual x love and miss you x love mother xxxxx

Hello son well things are plodding along x Brandon here a lot of the time x Taylor's doing well at work x Brandon doing well at collage x me I'm just me x keep having my moments were you and the girls are concerned x the lads love me talking about you and the antics you got up to x they talk about the girls a lot x I miss you so bloody much x love you son x mother xxxxxxx

I would love to post about the little one I've been fostering for the last 1yr and people would know what lies those 2 told x because if they thought the crap they told was true I wouldn't be doing this x they went through all the paperwork for court they have spoken to her lot that were standing for her and they have had a copy of all the court hearing and here we are xxxxxx

Hello son x getting things sorted for your birthday tomorrow x bbq and hot tub x food and drink x Taylor needs a good chill out bless him x he's still getting shit from what that bitch said about him x u wish they would drop dead x lots of good trusting friends coming round x so watch for the glasses to be raised x i know I've got on with my life and it's fucking great with her not in it x no walking on egg shell x frighten to speak in case it's taken the wrong way x but it would be so much better if you were here x love you son xxxxxx