I have never felt like life could be so hard, until I lost more than I ever truly never had a right to call my own.

Nothing in this life is something we can take with us. We have options though in this life. The option to choose happiness in Christ and live our lives with Christ in mind in our journey.

What becomes so important is truly not whats important at all. We value the things we have more, than the people that mean more in family, your relationships, your spouse, and firends.

Yet the value of the dollar, the best autos, a house, and in a moment it can all be taken away, leaving you wondering why?

See your OPTIONS and make the choices in your life that will take you to a happiness intended by christ. Dont put yourself in a place where you can have regrets. Love harder than you can ever imagine and give that person love that couldnt never have asked for. Respect them, and show them that they matter in evrything you do.

I have loved someome so much more than I ever could realize, that I stopped showing what was needed, and counted on what was only said, not shown from the start. I can only go forward in knowing I have wished and hoped the person I promised more now in my past the best she deserves.

I am thankful for getting to know a love I should have cherished more, and been someone she once thought so highly of.

May your past, your angers, your resentment, your fears, all die and live in  your past, and not your future for better in Christ you have waiting.

Thank you for being the first woman in my life that I truly wanted to marry, to be your everything.

Forever was the plan, even though you wanted and felt differntly after time. You came to me broken and hurt and I did not make that easier with my own broken insides, trying to heal myself with your love you gave so readily in the beggining, making me believe it could never go away or feel less. However, it was weakend too many times to believe differently than the pain and hurt felt in our hearts.

Thank you is what I owe you. You taught me lessons in losing  you, losing my wife that I thought would never be without to love forever.

You watched me fall from my own grace, and it was not your postion to save me from my own fears, it was mine. Because of you I finally saw my past for what it was, the loss of good relationships before you.

I will do better in the understanding of these mistakes I made in losing a woman I finally gave unconditional love to. You deserved my best always, and now there are no excuses I can say to realize what I did to break  your heart also. For that I am only truly able to aplogize, and hope you heal yourself from  your past, and  your pains.

God bless you for being something I feared to lose, but lessons I needed never to hurt like this again losing love.