Bro, I am truly sorry. Ur unexpected death has me beside myself. The loss of you, is not settling well. It wasn't a illness or a disease that took ur life from me. Nor do I believe this was a traffic accident by ur own hand. Trust and believe I will not fold, until the question are answered in ur behalf. My heart is broken and my mind is lost . By the family who accepted ur loss. I can not accept it, for what it appears. Only because I know you better, even though distance. My faith in you has never surrendered. My love for you will always be forever. Your life will never fade as the days past over. Give my love to our mother and our brother. And let them know, I need them more than ever. To guide me in the right direction with the strength that I need as I face this battle alone. I am the only one standing fighting to understand and accept a loss my mind is tells me ,  just isn't right.. My heart will never be at Peace until the answers come to light. Trust and believe this battle I face holds no lost in ur behalf. Because I refuse to settle for what it seems or what it appears to be. Only because I know you. As our family try's to convince me . Lil do they realize, my hands are not dirty and I have no guilt upon me. I just hope, they have the skills to keep the soap from slipping from their dirty hands as they wash their soulless bodies.