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Do not stand at my grave and weep. I am not there. I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow. I am the diamond glints on snow. I am the sunlight on ripened grain. I am the gentle autumn rain. When you awaken in the mornings hush. I am the swift uplifting rush of quiet birds in circling flight. I am the soft star ...that shines at night. Do not stand at my grave and cry. I am not there. I did not die.   Anonymous

 I love you baby and I know the above is so true. You have been sending me snow for weeks now. When it falls so softly landing on my cheek I know its your loving touch giving me what i seek. Love you always Mom.

 

Matthew was the love of my life and my best friend. He was a loving and devoted father and a compassionate and loving friend to everyone who knew him. Throughout his life he was bouncing off the walls. He was the most energetic person I have ever known. He was fearless and just learning how to be a man. He was patient and funny. He had a great sense of humor and loved to make everyone laugh. He was involved in a one vehicle car accident on November 17th, 2009. He was on life support for four days. They asked me to take him off the ventilator and I could not make that decision. I prayed to God that if it was his will for Matthew to stay here with us to please spare him. I also asked that if God was going to take him from us, then to please take him now. God answered my prayer Saturday Novemeber 21st, 2009 at  1:50 pm. I am devastated. A parent should never have to lose a child. Its not natural. I am broken inside and will never understand. The only thing I have now is the hope that I will someday see my child again and be able to take him in my arms. He is with God in heaven now and I know all his troubles and worries are over.

Matthew was an organ donor, I was unaware of this until they asked me if i wanted to honor his wishes. He saved four people that weekend. He donated his heart, both kidneys, and his liver. The recipients are doing well. This page will be continuously updated as i work on the story of his life. This page may never end. He lives on and we as his family experience his presence everyday. The song thats playing was on his cell phone and I chose to place it here. There is a message in it from him to everyone that loved him. Thank you for visiting and please feel free to leave your stories and memories of him. I want to hear them all.

December 3, 2021
December 3, 2021
Happy Birthday, we love you so very much and are thinking of you always. On this day, know that you are on my mind and I will be baking a cake in honor of you. The holidays are so very hard on your family but we are getting through them by staying busy. Please know that you are loved and I am proud of the man you were becoming. I know you had your issues, but you were learning and growing. I miss you always and will see you again. Love Mom
December 3, 2020
December 3, 2020
Happy Birthday, I miss you so very much and I think about you everyday. A lot has changed in the time you have been gone. This little man that I am raising, that carries your name, reminds me so much of you. Except the fact that he is scared of everything, fear is something that was not a part of you. You were so fearless and I think that played a huge part in our losing you. I pray one day I see you again. I love you so very much and know that you are worry free in heaven. Love you so very much and miss you, Mom
December 4, 2019
December 4, 2019
Happy Birthday baby boy, life hasn't been the same without you. I try to stay busy so that I have less time to grieve. Your namesake keeps me busy as well. It has not gotten easier since we lost you. It is actually harder with every passing day. But we will keep on keeping on while holding you in our hearts. I love you, I miss you and one day I will see you again. That is what I hold onto. Love Mom
November 21, 2017
November 21, 2017
It has been 8 years today since you left us. We miss you so much and there is not a day that goes by that we do not think of you. I try to stay busy raising this little one that carries your name but sometimes even that is rough. Know that you are with us no matter where we go. I love you so much, Love Mom
March 24, 2017
March 24, 2017
Hey its been awhile since I wrote..
Guess what your sons 7 years old gahh were has the time gone
I miss you so much...
It still hurts today then it did 7 years ago!
I love you so much
Gage watch's your memorial CD
An he just Cry's says he just misses you so much an wants to see you!
What do I say I always get lost forwwords!r
December 3, 2015
December 3, 2015
Happy Birthday baby boy. It hurts my heart to know that you will always be Forever 22. You are my love, and i miss you with every beat of my heart. Please know that you are in my heart and on my mind, not just this special day but every day. I love you and pray that we will be together again someday. Until then I love you my sweet angel baby. Love Mom
November 21, 2015
November 21, 2015
Dear Matt, it has been six years today since you left us. I miss you, i miss you with every beat of my heart. They said it would get easier with time. It doesn't. It's is still as fresh today as it was then. I stay busy, I don't think as much when i am busy. I sometimes feel like a chicken with my head cut off. That is how i cope. This little one I am raising, your namesake, keeps me going, busy, and that makes it easier to deal. I find some comfort in the thought that you donated your heart to someone and it still beats with every breathe he takes. You were one of a kind and so good. Awww you weren't perfect at all in making decisions, but who on this planet is? You were perfect in loving people more than you loved yourself. I am proud of whom you were becoming. You still had your whole life ahead of you. No one will ever know what you would have accomplished. I used to regret the way i raised you because well I was young and stupid and should have made better decisions. I to wasn't perfect. But I loved you and I would have fought to the death to protect you. I do have one regret, and that is "I wish I had held on to you so tight that even God couldn't have pulled you away".
April 4, 2014
April 4, 2014
I love you. I miss you. A mother should not have to go through this.
July 13, 2012
July 13, 2012
Ur sons birthday is comin soon he will be three n it still breaks my heart that ur not here to see ur grow up to be an intelagent y boy i will never truely understand y god took my true love from me n gage he knws who u r and hes growin up to look jus like you!ily matthew martin
March 16, 2012
March 16, 2012
well its 3 am an i wide awake thinking bout u!! i miss u so much that it hurts still people dont realixe what i go through but i hold everything in i wish u was here so u could hold me an i cry an you tell me everything is gonna be okay:'( its really hard doin this with out you!I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AN I STILL DO!! gage is growin so fast reminds me of u everyday! ily bby
January 13, 2012
January 13, 2012
Hey i havent been on in awhile an i jus wanted u to knw that i still think about u an love yu till this day!! u really mean the world to me ann i jus cant believe your gone:( gage is growin up so much an he looks like u everyday. it bring a blessing to my heart that i have apart of u in my life.gage means the world to me an i knw u watch over i us everdaY.I knw u loved me an gage.well ily:
November 11, 2011
November 11, 2011
The holidays are coming you are on our minds everyday in every way. Got your babies stuff out of layaway. Shipping the 2nd week of December. They are doing well. Hate the thought of them growing up without you.ill talk to you soon and will be back on November 17th. Love you, Mom
April 3, 2011
April 3, 2011
Its Sunday and someone posted on your site,thats what brought me here.Crying like crazy right now. Missing you like crazy. I guess your looking fown from Heaven and thinking mom has lost her mind and i would say thats true. Love you
April 3, 2011
April 3, 2011
Hey matt,
it's been awhile, a long while lol. i don't know if you want to hear from me or not but i just wanted to tell you that i missed you ... you were a great friend and i am sorry for everything that happened throughout the years.....
December 3, 2010
December 3, 2010
Happy Birthday baby, I love you and miss you, I am thinking of you on this day and wish you were here with us all. Love mom
October 28, 2010
October 28, 2010
Having a hard time here, missing you like crazy. Seeing a counselor and I guess its helping, idk. Sitting at the library on your page of course. Love you so much.
September 15, 2010
September 15, 2010
I dont come here often, I can not stand to think of you as gone. The anniversary is coming up and I get worse everyday. I miss you soooo much and life is not the same without you. Your sister misses you to, everyone does. I am working with the AHA this year. Your mom is shining in her work, just like you are shining down upon us. I have never loved anyone as much as you and Jenn, Love Mom
May 31, 2010
May 31, 2010
Sleep tight sweetheart, look down on your special family keep there hearts safe god bless xxxxx
April 10, 2010
April 10, 2010
hey matthew i jus want you to knw i miss you so much and i love you!! i knw you will always be with us love your wife maygan
March 13, 2010
March 13, 2010
RIP Mat I bet your tearing up heaven from what your mom has written.
hugs!
January 24, 2010
January 24, 2010
Hey Matthina~! J/K! I love you and miss you alot even though it still after two months doesn't seem like your gone. I guess you really aren't. You are still with us and I know you are. We love you!
January 23, 2010
January 23, 2010
Hey baby boy, I love you and miss you terribly. I know that your at peace in heaven. Your troubles and trials are over. I can not wait to see you again and hold you in my arms.

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December 3, 2021
December 3, 2021
Happy Birthday, we love you so very much and are thinking of you always. On this day, know that you are on my mind and I will be baking a cake in honor of you. The holidays are so very hard on your family but we are getting through them by staying busy. Please know that you are loved and I am proud of the man you were becoming. I know you had your issues, but you were learning and growing. I miss you always and will see you again. Love Mom
December 3, 2020
December 3, 2020
Happy Birthday, I miss you so very much and I think about you everyday. A lot has changed in the time you have been gone. This little man that I am raising, that carries your name, reminds me so much of you. Except the fact that he is scared of everything, fear is something that was not a part of you. You were so fearless and I think that played a huge part in our losing you. I pray one day I see you again. I love you so very much and know that you are worry free in heaven. Love you so very much and miss you, Mom
December 4, 2019
December 4, 2019
Happy Birthday baby boy, life hasn't been the same without you. I try to stay busy so that I have less time to grieve. Your namesake keeps me busy as well. It has not gotten easier since we lost you. It is actually harder with every passing day. But we will keep on keeping on while holding you in our hearts. I love you, I miss you and one day I will see you again. That is what I hold onto. Love Mom
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One night we fit like 8 people in this car and went to Guntersville to jump off the cliffs.....car broke down :/....also remember him hooking up home stereo speakers in this thang for more bass LOL

October 4, 2013

One night we fit like 8 people in this car and went to Guntersville to jump off the cliffs.....car broke down :/....also remember him hooking up home stereo speakers in this thang for more bass LOL

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November 17, 2011

My sons one time girlfriend KaTanya Self called me one day right after Christmas, she is also Skylees mother. Skylee is Matthews daughter. This is the Christmas we lost Matthew. SHe had been having a really hard time with Matthews passing. She said that while she was outside smoking Christmas day she saw a white Dove sitting on the eaves of the mobile home. She said in all the years that she and her family had lived on that property she has never seen one. Her mother told her that it was Matthew letting her know that he was with her and Skylee. The Dove stayed there all day taht Christmas Day and the next morning it was gone. It has never returned.

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