October 4, 2013
One night we fit like 8 people in this car and went to Guntersville to jump off the cliffs.....car broke down :/....also remember him hooking up home stereo speakers in this thang for more bass LOL
October 4, 2013
One night we fit like 8 people in this car and went to Guntersville to jump off the cliffs.....car broke down :/....also remember him hooking up home stereo speakers in this thang for more bass LOL
Katanyas Story
November 17, 2011
My sons one time girlfriend KaTanya Self called me one day right after Christmas, she is also Skylees mother. Skylee is Matthews daughter. This is the Christmas we lost Matthew. SHe had been having a really hard time with Matthews passing. She said that while she was outside smoking Christmas day she saw a white Dove sitting on the eaves of the mobile home. She said in all the years that she and her family had lived on that property she has never seen one. Her mother told her that it was Matthew letting her know that he was with her and Skylee. The Dove stayed there all day taht Christmas Day and the next morning it was gone. It has never returned.
Here with Us
November 17, 2011
Today is going to be so hard. Im going to take the time to write some things that happened after we lost Matthew, things that I think occurred with Gods help to help those he loved get through. Matthew was an organ donor thats something I didnt know. They asked us if we wanted to honor his wishes and of course we did. After telling me to go home cause I would not leave, I finally left. Several day...s later after I got home and we were waiting for the funeral home to call,my dad called. He received a call from my cousin Sherry. She is a school teacher out of Mobile, Alabama. One of her students had brought a note in saying that his father was receiving a heart, that he desperatly needed from a boy out of Huntsville, AL, Of course the organ donor place would not verify that fact but my family and I believe that it was Matthew, I mean what are the chances. I find solace in this story. I feel its Gods way of telling me Hey your son is alright and is with me.
Ninja Turtles
October 28, 2010
You couldnt have been more than 5 years old and we lived on American Freshwater Farms. We had gone out by the ponds, you, your brother, your sister, Daryl and I and were just goofing off. Jenn grabbed one of your Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles which you loved, and she threw it into a pond. You took off running at full speed. Daryl and I did not even see you til you hit the water. Daryl jumped in after you and I did not think he was going to be able to keep ahold of you. I was unable to help since i had Jennifer beside me and Adam in my arms. Daryl finally was able to drag you up by the leg. You were fine, grinning from ear to ear. I think that was when i realized you would be Hell on Wheels, please pardon my french. You were always on the go. More so as you got older. I love you and miss you.
when we found out i was pregnant with our son:)
October 17, 2010
well it was new years i think but we all went bowling that night with me u cassie an dustin i it was a blast though but yall got to drink but me cause i jus had that feeling an wen we got home u come in the bathroom where a was i took the test i can still remember the look in ur eyes wen it read pregnant u literally pick me off of my feet an u said omg baby ur pregnant this night couldn get any better i love u so much baby an i wann do this the right way lets get married" i said yess of course an my whole family was there to matthew ran out sayin maygan is pregnant he ran an told everyone but the most funniest thing was my dad was stoned drunk an matthew told him if u ever wanna have something to do with ur grand kid then u gotta stop drinking! if u dnt u want see him but i miss u with all my heart an soul its been almost a year an it seems like forever i still miss u i wish i could see ur face an feel ur love an the touch of ur hands there are so many things i wanna say an do but i cant i love u matthew stephen martin an WOW!!! gage looks just like u it s kills me but then again it make sthings better cause i have a part of u i think god planned all this cause he new i could handle it but at times i cant i jus wish u was here to see ur son grow up an help me b a role model i knw he would b cryin over you instead of me haha but im gonna go but remember you r always in my heart an i love u till the day i die then i will b the happiest person cause illl b with u again i guesss im gonna go but not forever!!!! I LOVE YOU MATTHEW STEPHEN MARTIN!!!
its me baby
July 26, 2010
well its me its been a hard life now that u are gone i miss u baby and i will always ;/ love u forever love ur wife maygan gage looks jus like you i can remember wen u asked me to marry u ugh it was the most happiest day of my life wen u passed away i was like my heart completly shut dwn like i couln breathe u was my everything an i didn wnna loose u so i didnt believe the docs cause ithought u would come out but i was wrng i need u evey day of my life an wen i slept at night i tend to wake up cryin waitin for u to hold me but all there was was an empty side were u slept so cold idk wat im gonna do without u i miss u an love u always
Auto Zone
May 26, 2010
One day Jennifer Brian and Matthew were driving through Cullman, AL and Matthew pulled into Auto Zone. He parked and popped the hood of his car. Then he gave his sister some money and told her to get blinker fluid. She went in the store and told the guy what she needed. He told her to wait a minute and called his manager to the front. He requested that she tell him what she needed and she did so. The guys looked at each other and started laughing. He then told her, "Man he got you good".
Your Letter
May 26, 2010
I found your poem. Baby you were more than a credit to your family, You were someone really special. You taught us how to live life to its fullest. You taught us how to love, live and laugh. Also how to take risks. We didnt love you for your mistakes, we love you for being you and your papa and I were the proudest of you. We saw in you the abilility to have anything you wanted. Your sister loves you and is proud of you as well. My regret is that I didnt share with you that you made me proud more often. I have found your other poems as well. I will share them with the world at a later date. Please rest in peace my beautiful baby boy. We all love you and can not wait to see you again some day. The 4 people you saved that devastating November day are doing well. Love you and always will, Mom
Just dropping by.
May 21, 2010
Hey, it's me. I just wanted to let you know I was thinking about you last night and this morning. It's very strange. When I sleep without help from medication my mind is strong enough to not dream about you. When I take those damn pills, you come into my mind and dreams. Not that I don't like to dream about you, it just hurts too damn much. I have been doing good hiding all the crap I feel. If I let it out I don't know what will happen. I feel like I lost the other part of me. I am ashamed of the person I have become inside. I am not well at all. I still have your old number, but I know there is no point in calling. It's been disconnected....everything has. I met someone the other day. I think you would like him. I really liked him alot, but then he had to go and ask about you, and now I don't know. I felt like I had to come to your defense when he said he was sorry to hear about it all. When people talk about you like your gone, it makes me mad. Sometimes, when I think about it, I want to fight. I really don't care about anything anymore except Matthew and Momma. I wish you would just call me and tell me your drunk and we can laugh about all the old times. Andrew is not around anymore. I just gave up on him. He just wasn't good enough anymore. I am having a problem. When I meet people, I have to compare them to you and then I ALWAYS think, why couldn't it have been this person instead. WHATEVER! Anyways, sorry for rambling on. Just wanted to say hey and I love you and I miss you. ~ Jenn
Just For Today Written by Matthew
May 18, 2010
Just for today lets pretend my life is normal and my mom and dad are proud of me because I am a credit to my family instead of an embarresment or a burden.
Just for today let me have faith that I am meant for something greater than the road that I have set down before me that the experiences and disappointments I have suffered may guide me to a better life for me and my loved ones.
Just for today give me courage to let go of my pride and trust in someone besides me, give into the insanity and let go.
Just for today I want to breathe.
Matt Martin
I found this and I am dedicating it to you.
April 15, 2010
%uFEFFWhite walls surround us
No light will touch your face again
Rain taps the window
As we sleep among the dead
Days go on forever
But i have not left your side
We can chase the dark together
If you go then so will i
There is nothing left of you
I can see it in your eyes
Sing the anthem of the angels
And say the last goodbye
Cold light above us
Hope fills the heart
And fades away
Skin white as winter
As the sky returns to grey
Days go on forever
But i have not left your side
We can chase the dark together
If you go then so will i
There is nothing left of you
I can see it in your eyes
Sing the anthem of the angels
And say the last goodbye
I keep holding onto you
But i can't bring you back to life
Sing the anthem of the angels
Then say the last goodbye
Your're dead alive
There is nothing left of you
I can see it in your eyes
Sing the anthem of the angels
And say the last goodbye
I keep holding onto you
But i can't bring you back to life
Sing the anthem of the angels
And say the last goodbye
My Dr. Phil
February 23, 2010
My name is Jennifer. I am Matthews sister. I have been with my fiance for almost three years. Andrew and I have had our arguments. One night, Andrew and I were at it again. I called my brother. I always confided in him. He wanted to know what was going on and I told him. He then wanted to be put on speaker phone so he could "counsel" us. We talked for about an hour. In the end, everyone was getting along. Matthew was our Dr. Phil for the day. It saved us a $300.00 counselor fee. LOL