Hi sweetheart, I love and miss you so much. Well I got a call from Dr. office this morning. They had to cancel my appointment because Lab Tech wasn't able to make it in. So now I don't go in until next Mon. Which is good because of all the snow. Chrissie came over and shoveled the snow. I was able to help a little. I got car and truck cleaned off. And did a little bit of snow. The truck was stuck on some ice but Chrissie got it out. I was finally to get car undone and moved. She called this evening to tell me she got a nine point buck. I was happy for her. She really wanted another one this year. When I was talking to Sis yesterday, she told me Mom didn't want that alert necklace anymore and sent it back. Also she took the lock box off. They tried to change her mind about doing it and I guess she said, NO, NO, NO I don't want it. So now she has no means of getting help. I'm worried about her Michael. I think she's giving up.Will you watch over her and keep her safe?? I think I pulled my groin on my left side from shoveling. Tired as usual. Just wait for me Michael. Til we meet again.

Hi Hon, I love and miss you so much. Well it was 3yrs. ago today that God took you . I'm still not understanding why. I just don't know what to do without you here.I would never say this to anyone but I wish I was there with you. But my girls still need me. So I just have to have faith that you'll wait for me. Will you wait? I have to get up early and do a path to get car out. Mike did his but not ours. If that was even Mike doing theirs. It was a truck with a plow on it. I couldn't tell if it was him or not. But Chrissie said if I couldn't get car or truck out she'd take me. But I'll try to get it out. Court called today to see how I was. I thought that was nice of her. Then Sis called to check on me. Her and Terry was afraid I'd try to come up there, which I would have but the roads are pretty bad. I'm tired and don't feel well. Please wait for me. Til we meet again.

Hi sweetheart, I love and miss you so much. Well I did a little bit today. I got last load of clothes done. Washed last night dishes. Picked up more of dining room. Changed sheets and did litter boxes. Clean off truck, car and started them both up. Was going to put car in garage but the ice wouldn't let me move it. So I put that one blue thing under all the wheels and still couldn't it moved. I put salt down but that was probably a mistake. Going to try and shovel before next snow comes in. I'll try cat litter if the car is still stuck. I'll have to see if truck will move in case I need it to go to Dr. for scan Tues. I can't believe how chilly it is in here this year. I should have put the plastic on windows but I didn't. I'll do my best this spring to get the outside of windows sealed. Maybe Chrissie and Levi will help. Stomach still getting nausea . Calling Dr. and Vet in morning. Please wait for me. Til we meet again.

Hi Hon, I love and miss you so much. Well the packers lost against the 49'ers . 13-10. Would have been a tie but the 49'ers kept pissing around til it was down to seconds and kicked a field goal. It was a good game. The only thing I done today was a load of clothes. I fixed sausage gravy and biscuits for me and Thor for supper. Now I'm paying for it. Levi called tonight I guess he ordered a new pulley for truck. I didn't know he was going to do it. He said when it comes in he'll fix it. I told him to wait until it got warmer, he said no .He just wanted to give piece of mind so I won't worry about it going out on me. So I'll put car in garage and start driving it. I guess we have a winter advisory out. Suppose to start snowing around 4:00 a.m. til 4:00 p.m. tomorrow. And more on Mon. I hope not much cause I want to see you Mon. and I have to go for ultra sound Tues. Oh well. Please wait for me Michael. Til we meet again.

Hi sweetheart, I love and miss you so much. I'm on here early cause I'm not feeling well. Just a bad headache and stomach upset. Ever since I started taking this new pill I've had the stomach problem after I eat. I take Tums and it helps. I have to call in Mon. to get one of my other pills renewed so I'll have them say something to the Dr. Maybe she'll have me take something else. Really didn't do anything today. Thor and I just laid around. But as usual when I get up to do anything he's right there behind me. I miss you so much Michael, I wish you were here with me and well. Please wait for me. Til we meet again.

Hi sweetheart, I love and miss you so much. I called and talked to Mom today. She said she was about the same, of course she always says that. Tina's out of hospital. but still feeling tired. Mist is home also. I guess their ins, would only pay out so much for her rehab. I guess a home nurse comes in I think Mom said every two to three days. When they get her up she has to wear a belt around her so when they walk her it helps to prevent her from falling. She still has a feeding tube in cause she can't swallow her food. I bet that's because of that thing was left in all these years. Just my thought. Didn't do alot today. Cleaned furnace filter, litter boxes and did up dishes. I need to quit planning on what I want to do everyday and just do it.LOL. Still go from room to room and never getting one whole room done. I know, you always said to stay in one and finish it. But you know me. One day it'll happen, maybe. I'm tired Hon so just wait for me. Love you so. Til we meet again. 

Hi Hon, I love and miss you so much. I got my new appointment made for next Tues. for Ultra sound. Levi came over after work to look at truck. Guess what ?? It was okay. I told him about that one wheel not turning and it was now. I asked him if it could have been frozen and with today temp , which was 47 could have thawed it out. He said it could but it also has bearings inside it could be that. He drove it into Utica and back and said it drove nice. I felt like an idiot ! He's going online to check it out. I told him I just should get rid of it and he said no. Only little things are going bad. But if trans. or motor problems start then I could decide what to do. Oh well. Sammie was on a roll and jumped on the shelf and knocked over my warmer and busted it. I got car payment done today. Well I'm tired. Just wait for me Michael. Til we meet again.

Hi sweetheart, I love and miss you so much.Well my day didn't go right. I cleared a path to car. Cleaned it of and found a cake of ice all over it. I let it heat up to get it off. SO I went to the Drs. Wait for them to take me back. My appointment was for 2:00 and it was 20 after. I had to give my ins. card to copy. The one nurse asked the other one if it was authorized by the ins. company. Guess what ? No one called them !!! So they said they would call after they talked to them. Pissed me off. This appointment was made last week!! So I left and went to store. Got all of Thor's stuff but no cat food again. The shelf's were so bare. You'd have to see it to believe it. I tired starting truck again. At first it sounded normal. Then that loud noise started. I'm going to see if Levi will look at it. I'll just wait til it warms up to fix it. I don't no Hon. It's just one thing after another. Please wait for me sweetheart. Til we meet again.

Hi Hon, I love and miss you so much. Cold out today. I was going to shovel a path to car but the wind was bitter. So I'll have to get it done early before my appointment tomorrow. I've got to go the store afterwards to pick up Thor some food and treats plus a few other things. If roads aren't bad I'll be up to see you. I don't know what's going on but every time I eat supper my belly gets queasy. I've been on these meds. for a week now so you'd think I'd be use to it. If it doesn't get better I'll call the Dr. and ask her if I should stop taking them. Cats acting up. Annie hissing at everyone. She can be a little witch sometimes. I'm tired. Please wait for me Michael. Til we meet again.

Hi sweetheart, I love and miss you so much.Well the Cowboys lost today. They played 49's. It was 23-17. The Steelers are losing too. So only game we have left is Packers. Hopefully they'll win. Well it's snowing now. We got about an inch now but can get up to six inches. Winter storm warning until around 7 in the morning. I hope it melts a little by Tues. cause I have that ultra sound done. You know I don't like driving in the snow. Sorry I didn't get up there but if roads are ok Tues. I'll come by after I get done. I wish you were here with me. I'm a little worried about that test.There's no way I can go and stay overnight in hospital cause of Thor and cats. But I'll figure something out if it comes to that. Please wait for me. Til we meet again.

Hi sweetheart, I love and miss you so much. I got a little bit done today. I did up 2 loads of clothes. Got tree and big boxes out to garage. Got air hose rounded back up and almost frozen my hands off. Dumb ass me didn't put gloves or coat on. I hadn't planned on doing anything in there. I've got to get those coolers out and back in shed. Nothing like waiting , should had done it before . But yard had been so wet . Maybe I'll throw them in back of truck and see if I can do it since ground is a little frozen. I want to be able to put car in there again this winter. Stomach bothering me again tonight. It might be my ulcer acting up. Cause I'm a little stress over getting this ultra sound done Tues. Who knows. I miss you so much Michael. I just wish you were here and well. Just please, please wait for me. Til we meet again.

Hi Hon, I love and miss you so much. I went to get blood pressure done. It was high. I guess it's a possibility that my left artery may be really clogged cause right arm the pressure is fine. Who knows. I'll know more next week. I was at office for about a 1 1/2 hrs. Then went to drop clothes off. Then home. I fixed supper and ever since my stomach has felt sick. Feeling like hell. Mary called tonight. I guess Kelly's Dad pasted away this morning. He's had some kind of kidney disease.He's been sick for a long time. He'd been in hospital ever since Christmas. I guess some of the family came there a he also caught the virus from one of them and made things worse for him. I guess her Mom has it now. I'm closing for now, I feel like crap. Please wait for me. Til we meet again.

Hi sweetheart, I love and miss you so much. Feeling some what better. I got dishes washed up and clothes put in bags. I'll take them down after I go to blood pressure check. Still not wanting to let go but I know the homeless could use them. I hope it's ok with you. I'll try to get up there to see you before coming home. I guess Sun. into Mon. morning we could get up to 5 inches of snow. We'll see. I think Thor is feeling a little off today. He's moaning off and on. I'll keep an eye on him.He probably ate something he shouldn't have. Well Hon I'm running out of time to get this posted. Please wait for me. I'll be there one day, just wait. Til we meet again.

Hi sweetheart, I love and miss you so much. Well still not feeling any better. I end up taking a pill for the diarrhea. Stomach still feels sick but can't vomit. Only thing I did get done today was clean out litter boxes and changed sheets. I've got to get this placed cleaned up. But just can't get feeling any better to do it. I don't know Hon I'm just tired of being tired all the time. I didn't even checked the mail today or put out trash. Of course there's not that much in it.Please wait for me sweetheart. Til we meet again.

Hi Hon, I love and miss you so much. Well I didn't get anything done today. These pills are causing diarrhea and making me feel sick at my stomach. I'll give it a few days to see if I can adjust to it. If not I'll call the doctors and let her know. Carla was telling me tonight that the kids have to do remote schooling for the rest of the week. Shortage of bus drivers and teachers. I'm telling you people need to get a job and get the damn shot! Pisses me off. Then you got the people in white house fighting over this virus. I think the world is getting bad! You got these radicals out there protesting for everything . Why cause it's their Right to do it !! Also they are fighting over voting rights. We always had to show our driver licenses. It's getting bad. Nothing you can do about. Some time I'm glad it's just me and the animals. Don't get me wrong I wish you were here and well. Please wait for me. Til we meet again.

Hi Hon, I love and miss you so much. I got my appointment made today. It's with Dr Reeves again. I go Sept.18th for a ultra sound.That'll mean more money owed. Hopefully I'll see if that is causing any of my problems or not.I doubt if he'll do anything since he told me I needed to quit smoking for at least 3 mos. Remember ?? I guess Kris, Emily has the covid. So does Summer and JoJo. Summer got sick a few days ago. Maybe they should have got the shots, but they don't believe in it. Carla was telling me that Kim isn't feeling well. I don't know if she's ever got the shot or not. Talked to Chrissie tonight and she sounds like hell. But she thinks it's a sinus infection. And no she's never got the shot. Neither has Levi. I just don't understand why people don't get it. We had in Ohio over 19,000 new case just from report for Sun. SMH . I'm tired again tonight, I just wish I could sleep at nights. Please wait for me sweetheart. My heart aches for you. Til we meet again.

Hi sweetheart, I love and miss you so much. Well I don't know how these pills are going to work. Got bad headaches and diarrhea. But I'll give them a few more days. Carla came out. We watched the steelers game for awhile then she left cause Camarcus had practice today. Kids didn't come out . Their friends were still there. Then I finished watching the packers. They played Detroit. They lost 30-37. Put they still go to playoff. Roger's didn't play the second half or maybe they could have. I've got to go and get a tube of sealer to see if I fix the outside where the bedroom window is. Really don't know what's going on. The roofing tile looks ok so I really don't know why it's leaking inside. I'll do my best to figure it out. Here I thought maybe this year would get better. I'll get up to see you soon. Please just wait for me. Til we meet again.

Hi Hon, I love and miss you so much. I went into town today and got my med. and picked up a few things. Then home. The cart I got was hard to push so it was killing my legs especially the right one. I had to go back out to lot to get one. They just don't have enough workers anymore. Damn people need to get their asses back to work. The wage people are offering is out of this world. They are offering more than what you were making. And the sign on bonuses are large amounts. Alot of them won't get the shots so they aren't hiring people that are vaccinated. And that's their right. I ordered me a new blood pressure machine so I can start keeping track of it. It was thur my ins. plan. Feeling a little bad. I always do after the flu shot. Hope this new med. will help me get out of this damn place I'm in. Let's hope. just wait for me Michael. Til we meet again.

Hi sweetheart, I love and miss you so much.I went to Dr.today. She's really nice . She's going to put me on meds. for depression. Sending me to a Vascular doctor again. She wants to see if the clogged artietrys . I cant spell it but you know what I mean. Blood pressure was sky high. So I go back in a week for nurse to take it again. Then in a month for her to see how I'm doing with new meds. I guess I need to start taking care of my self. She said I was in a major stage of depression. Why wouldn't I be , I lost you, my only love !!! Also got the flu shot. Well Hon. getting close to posting time. Please wait for me. Til we meet again.

Hi sweetheart, I love and miss you so much. Didn't do anything today. Just felt more trier then usual. We got snow today. Not much, just enough to cover deck. I didn't even get out of my PJ's. I got to go to Drs. tomorrow just hope roads are ok. You know how much I hate to drive in the snow. I hope she can figure out what's going on with my feet hurting. Well the Heel part. Between and my back I don't know what's the worse. I'm still tired. Please wait for me. Til we meet again.

Hi Hon, I love and miss you very much. Well not much done today. I've got to bag up clothes cause when I called Salvation Army that's how you have to do it. I guess I have to drop them off in outside bins. I figured you could just take them inside. Carla said she thinks the women clothes goes to the Women abuse center. Don't know. There's just as many women out there just as many men that are homeless. Who knows. I want to get steins washed up by this weekend so they will be ready for whenever they come, if they even do. Going to start getting really cold starting tomorrow. I just hope it isn't icy Fri. when I have to go to Drs. It'll be alright I guess , just will be real careful. I miss you Michael. Please wait for me. Til we meet again.

Hi Hon, I love and miss you so much. I came and seen you today. Did you see me? Did you hear me talking to you ? Had a lot to say today. Then went to bank and got things done. Went to Krogers, got gas then home. When I got here Chrissie was here she did the gutters. She wouldn't let me near her because Levi is sick. They think it's just a bad cold and not the virus. But she didn't want to take any chances. Which I understand. The score on the Packers game ended up 37-10. So they won.I guess they play again this weekend but I don't remember what team. But I'll let you know. Well Michael getting tired. I'll try and get my games done early and go to bed.lol. Just wait for me. Missing you so. Til we meet again.

Hi sweetheart, I love and miss you so much. Only did up dishes today and washed upper cabinets. Then the back and legs started hurting. I don't know Hon , do I keep pushing myself even if I'm hurting and pay for it later or do I stop when it starts ??? I go to new Dr. I think Fri. I'll talk to her about my feet problems. Getting cold out. Got to get money out of savings to put in checking. Hopefully I'll get back on track. But with everything going up it may hard to do. I'll do my best. About ready to give up. Please wait for me sweetheart. Missing you so. Til we meet again.

Hi My Michael, I love and miss you so much. Carla and kids came out for awhile today.Watched Cowboys play . They lost. Can't remember the score but it was only by 3 pts. Packers playing the Vikings right now. They are ahead in the 4th quarter. 30-10. I'll tell you tomorrow the ending score. But I'm sure they'll win.Really didn't do much. Tired as usual. Carla brought out some pork and kraut. It was pretty good. I'll try to get up there either tomorrow or Tues. Packers just scored again. Now at 37-30, 8mins. left in the game.I'm going to try and get things done to take to Salvation Army this week. Going to be getting colder. I want to change bedroom around sometime this week.I miss you so much Michael. So lost without you. Still not understanding why God took you and ask myself what did I do in my life for this to end this way. We were to grow old together! I don't know Hon I guess I'll never know the answer. Just wait for me. Til we meet again.

Hi Hon, I love and miss you so much. Well Hon we did it ! OSU won the Rose Bowl. They played Utah. It was a good game. 48-45. Stayed close until 2nd half and the Buckeyes came back. Then it stayed neck and neck. But we won in the end. Well I had a problem today. Water was leaking in the bedroom window. I had to wait until the rain slowed down and went to try and clean out the gutter. I didn't get it all done but most of it. I'll go out in morning if it isn't raining still to finish it. Basement flooded again. Not a whole lot but enough. The ground is so full of water I figured it would. I got the holes in your socks sewed. Put them and your good underwear in sacks. I need to let go especially when the homeless can use them. I'll get jeans washed when water in basement goes down. I hate doing this but I think you'd approve. I'm not letting go of you just the clothing is a material thing. You'll always be my love even though my heart still aches for you. I just hope this year goes better. For everyone also. Going to try and go to bed early. Didn't sleep well . Was up at 6:00 laid back down around 9:00.I cried for you last night.It's only because I miss you so much. A big part of me is gone since you left. I wish I knew that you ARE here with me. Please wait for me my Michael. Till we meet again.

Hi Hon, I love and miss you so much. I want to say Happy New Year and wishing you were here with me. But your not. Just got done talking to Chrissie. She called ahead of time to tell us Happy New Year. I'll try to get up there to see you tomorrow. Suppose to have heavy rain. Goodnight my pretty man. Love you. Please wait for me. Til we meet again.

Hi sweetheart, I love and miss you so much. Not much done today. Did 3 loads of clothes. Did up dishes. I made sausage and gravy and went to Chrissie and Levi's. He's like you. He loves it. I stayed a little over 2 hrs. Felt good just to be around people and talk.I was going to stop and turn in my tickets but didn't . I have to do house payment tomorrow so I'll take Thor with me and get him a push up. I really need to get things done. Take one room at a time. But you know me I'm here and there and never finish one room.LOL Please wait for me . Til we meet again.

Hi Hon, I love and miss you so much.Rough night , had no pill to take so I took a couple of sleeping pills. Not very good. I called Walmart, still no order. So I called the Drs. again. Finally someone got their shit together and got it order . So I had to go back into town to pick it up. The price shocked me. It was 47.99 for 90 days. Usually it's only a little over 30.00.Mom called to check on me.I guess Mandy told her about me being sick. She asked Logan if he wanted your Bud mugs and he said yes.I think I'll give Luke some of the Harley cups. Not sure about Ash.I'm not giving them up because I want , it's because I want them to have a part of you. I have to quit being so selfish with your things.Do you understand what I'm saying ?? I hope so.You're still here with me Michael you always will be.My pill kicking in. Probably because I had to go without them. Please wait for me Michael. Love you so, my heart still aches for you. Till we meet again. 

Hi sweetheart, I love and miss you so much. Still not feeling well. I went into town early to get my meds. Guess what ?? They never called them in. I was pissed. Also between Walmart and Kroger I was able to get cats a little bit of can food. Got Thor a bag of bones also. So when I got home I called Dr. office. My Dr. wasn't in so they said they'd see if one of the other Dr. could re-new it for me. So I'll call Walmart in morning to see if it was done and go get it. This is so bullshit !!. I've got some sleeping pills but they didn't work last time but since I don't feel good maybe I can sleep. Took a hot shower so just maybe. Been raining off and on all day. Suppose to the next 2-3 days. Keeping an eye on basement. So far just a tad leaking from wall not enough to get to inside floor part. Please wait for me. Til we meet again.

Hi Hon, I love and miss you so much. I came and seen you today. Did you see me ?Did you see me get all emotional on you ?? I just can't handle it anymore! Still not feeling well. I so wish you were here and well. Going to go to bed early and hopefully be able to sleep. Sorry this is short, but I'll be back tomorrow night. Please wait for me. Til we meet again.

Hi sweetheart, I love and miss you so much. Before I forget your Packers played Cleveland yesterday and won, not by much. 24-22. So far my Cowboys are winning against Washington. Well I was sick last night, coming from both ends. My belly hurt so bad. I don't know if it was something I ate or what. Carla said she hasn't heard anything about anyone else being sick. So who knows. Mandy and Rich came about 11:00 today. Stayed about an hour or so. They got me a 50.00 gift card from Krogers. She was upset cause Will, Bree and Freya was coming later. I guess now they are on the outs with each other. So Will and them came and stayed maybe an1/2 hr. Chris didn't cause no one knows were he's at. So I kept his card. Then Mindi called this morning and I was still feeling so sick I just couldn't get out of bed. She thanked me for the gifts and said They all want to get a time to get together to come out. But it may be a month. So I don't know if that will even happen. If it does that will be great !Hopefully I'll feel better and come up to see you tomorrow. Well Hon I'm going to close and hopefully get some rest. Belly still bothers me but not pain. Please wait for me. Til we meet again.

Hi sweetheart, I love and miss you so much. Merry Christmas my love. The day went ok. I was doing somewhat good until MeMe said she wished Grandpa was here. I told her I did too. Then when she was getting ready to leave she asked me to tell you that she loves you and I said I would. So , MeMe said she loves you. I was spoiled by the girls and Levi again this year. Brad gave me a 50.00 gift card to Texas Roadhouse. Court gave me a little pack of chocolate covered cherries to bring up to you. Levi was messing around with Camarcus that he would give him 20.00 to eat a worm and the little shit did it. Levi paid him.We ended up at Jenny's house cause they never came to fix the leaks.So we'd been unable to use the bathrooms. They're nothing but slum lords. I told her to report it to Metro. This has been going on for almost 2 months. If you were here you'd be on them like shit on a stick ! If it's not too late tomorrow after Mandy and them leave I'll be up. Until then please wait for me. Til we meet again.

Hi Hon, I love and miss you so much.I mainly piddled around today. Got crust part of Walnut dessert done will do rest in morning. Mandy called they are coming out Sun. I guess. They are suppose to go to Mom's also. She didn't say anything about Chris.If he's not with them I'm going to keep his gift. Summer and JoJo came out. They got me alot of things. 2 candles, a little Blessing House where you write a blessing each day and put it in the house. 25.00 gift card to Whitts also Whitts new T-shirt. Pair of loungers with a shirt. Box of candy, a sign about Grandma's saying. And a throw blanket. Oh and a Whitts coffee mug.So I say they spoiled me.We talked about you. They really miss you like we all do. Thor's belly was making noises today. So I think he wasn't feeling good.But he seems ok now. At first he wasn't even eating anything but he's making up for it, lol.I'll try to get up there tomorrow after I leave Carla's. I don't even care if it is raining.Please wait for me Michael. I love you so. Til we meet again.

Hi sweetheart, I love and miss you so much. I went to see Mom today. We had a nice chat. I was there about 3 hrs. Then went to Walmart and got my meds. Got Kim her birthday day gift.Picked up some cat food. Most was off brand. I just hope they will eat it. Mom got them and Thor snacks for Christmas. I may not get up there Christmas day cause it's suppose to start raining Fri. and all day Sat. I'll probably load car early Fri. Then I'll just have to take out the little bit of food I'm doing. Brenda , the mail lady said Thank You for the goodies. She said it was like hitting the jackpot, lol.Still haven't heard from Will or Mandy. Neither has Mom. I forgot to tell you I guess Tina was in hospital for about 4 or 5 days. She was filling up with fluid. You'd think with Rick being in there twice this year now her , you'd think they would get the shots and booster. You're Mom is the same way. I know, it's their right and choice about it. I've decided that after Christmas I'm going to wash up your Bud mugs and give to Logan. Something for Ash and Luke. Oh and they moved Mist to Knox Hospital. Well Hon I think I've written a book tonight.Please wait for me Michael.Til we meet again.

Hi Hon, I love and miss you so much. I got the sugar cookies done but not iced yet. I fix some potato salad for supper. Got Mom called, going over there tomorrow.Then I'll finally go and get my meds. Still haven't heard from William or Mandy. If they come they come. I'm sorry Hon that I feel that way but since you've been gone they don't come around or call. It's like I was never in their life's. Same for Mindi. You know I always treated them like they were my own. I'm sorry Hon, I'm just tired and missing you so much.I told Thor to look at the beautiful sunset and started crying. You should be here to see it, but your not.Please wait for me Michael. Til we meet again.

Hi sweetheart, I love and miss you so much. I came and seen you today. Did you see me? I didn't stay long because they were having a funeral by us, but I'll be back up. When I left there I went to Krogers, washed the car cause it had some mud on it. Went to Dollar Tree to get a couple of pans. Then got gas before coming home. I also did a load of clothes and baked some snicker Doodles.Going to do sugar cookies in morning .I'll call Mom and let her know I'll be coming over to see her Thursday. Still never heard from Will. I think I'm ready for Sat. Just taking chips , pop , olives and pickles. I know right! Not normal for me to not taking a crap load of stuff. Time to let girls do it, lol. I think after first of the year I'm going to down grade the Tv. It's getting out of control on price. And same old shows all the time. Well Hon I'll talk to you again tomorrow. Please wait for me. Til we meet again.

Hi sweetheart, I love and miss you so much.Well Will and them didn't show up today. I was upset cause I could have went and got my meds. So tomorrow I'm going to go get them then Thursday I'm going to go and see Mom. They did this the last time! I did a load of sheets , done up dishes and swept the floors.Bach started hurting so I was done for. Had a runny nose all day, Hope I'm not getting sick. I know , I always do like you say I do, lol. I miss you so much. I'd like to go to bed just once and just sleep without dreaming. I think that's why I'm so tired when I get up in the mornings . Please wait for me . I'll be there one day. Til we meet again.

Hi sweetheart, I love and miss you so much. Carla and kids went to Mt.Vernon today. Camarcus was hunger so we went to Bob Evans and it would be a 1/2 hr. wait so we went to Buffalo Wings. First time I've ever been there. I know we talked about it but never made it. I got the cheeseburger. It was really good. Then we went to Wal Mart.Then home. Karma helped me reach the high stuff. You wouldn't believe how tall she has gotten.Will is suppose to come tomorrow. We'll see cause last time they wasn't able to and came a week later. Your Packers played the ravens and barely won. It was 31-30. Raven tired to get a 2 pointer and failed. My Cowboys won also 26-20. Tired tonight. Got to go get meds sometime this week. Also get Kim 's birthday present. Please wait for me Michael. Til we meet again.

Hi sweetheart, I love and miss you so much. Not much done today. About all I did was the dishes. I did go and get me and Thor a pizza from Pizza Hut. I baked a cherry pie. Carla is coming tomorrow and we are going up to Mt.Vernon to get groceries fro Walmart. I've got to find out why I'm so tired all the time. I'm so tired of not being able to do anything.Chrissie and Levi stopped by to pick up recipes I wrote down for her. She's making a cookbook for the boys. I guess Kris told her about it. They only stayed a few mins. Well Hon I'm going to close now. Getting close to posting time. Please wait for me. Til we meet again.

Hi Hon, I love and miss you so much. Didn't do much today, just piddled around.I got a Christmas card today from Sharon. She said she's doing ok. I need to go see her. I just don't go cause I always end of talking about you and I'm afraid she'll get sad about Denver. I don't know. I don't think I'll put up tree. Too close to Christmas anyway. Maybe next year I'll do it. If you were here I would have done it, but you're not. Levi got a Doe this morning. Then Chrissie and him went out later and she got one. She felt bad cause the Momma doe's baby was near her. I'd never be able to shoot a animal. Don't have the guts I guess. Carla is going to take me up to Mt.Vernon Sun. to the store so I can pick up animals their food and snacks. Also I have to pick up a few things for Christmas luncheon. Why can't I get on with what years I have left ??? I know you can't tell me. I survived why couldn't God let you ??? Please wait for me Michael. I LOVE YOU SO. !!! Til we meet again.

Hi sweetheart, I love and miss you so much. Not much done today. A load of clothes and dishes done up. Was finally able to change sheets without Annie climbing over the bed, lol. The blanket was clean so I put it in dryer to get all the hair off of it.I guess William will be down Mon. Don't know if Mandy and the rest of them will be with him. Probably pick up something for Logan's girlfriend I don't know her but they live together. I've got to go to store sometime this weekend. Animals will need food and snacks. Can't let them starve, lol. Please wait for me Hon. Til we meet again.

Hi sweetheart, I love and miss you so much. About only thing I did today was laundry and dishes. Still feeling a little bad. Headache and body aches. Got all of bills made out. Got to make car payment probably in morning. I need to hit the lottery, lol. We should have planned out things better. To where neither one of us would had to worry when either of us passed away.That' why now I have to try and have things paid off before I go to be with you. Hopefully car and my credit cards will be paid off in a couple of years. The house is another story. I'll do my best. Tired again tonight. Please wait for me. Til we meet again.

Hi Hon, I love and miss you so much. Got a few things done today. Not much but took awhile cause of back hurting. Clean litter boxes out. Got yard cleaned up from Thor, which took awhile. I don't know why I don't do it every couple of days. But I don't. Finished wrapping all of Christmas gifts. Now I'm tired as hell. Maybe I'll be able to sleep tonight. I'll probably go to Mom's next Wed. or Thursday.I didn't get tree up, maybe I won't even bother to do it. I'm just tired Hon. I can't seem to do anything anymore cause of getting wore out. I wish you were here and well. Just wait for me Michael. Til we meet again.

Hi sweetheart, I love and miss you so much. I went and took that package to post office then I came and seen you.Did you see me? Talked alot, lol. Did you like what I done ?? I came home and cleaned up kitchen. Swept and mop. I know I finally did something. But my feet are killing me, especially my left heel. Hopefully that new Dr. will do something about it. At least send me to someone.The pain today in my left heel was bad. I don't know why I drag my feet on things. Going to do front room in morning so I can try and put up the tree. Then finish up the wrapping so I can get dining room done.That's the plan. Now only if it happens, lol. Are you waiting for me? Hoping with all my heart that you are. Til we meet again. 

Hi Hon, I love and miss you so much. Sorry I didn't get things up there. But I will tomorrow. I have to take package to post office then I'll be up. I'd bring Thor but I'll be there too long and you know how rowdy he gets. So I'll bring him up another time. I couldn't sleep last night so I did up a few dishes and wrapped some gifts. Ran out of paper so I had to get more. Reason I didn't get up there was because Carla went to Springfield and stayed all night. That's ok. I'm hoping this is the one so she can finally have a happy life. I might put tree up if I can get things straighten up. This place is a mess. I've never let things go like I do now. It's because you're not here. I ran into Darlene and Larry today. She looks good but I guess she has blood cancer. Not what I had it's a real long name.Also problems with her heart. She doesn't do chemo, she takes the pill. I guess her blood is real thick. But she still works in Utica at the gaming shop. She said to come down and see her on a Fri, or Sat. night. I may just do that one time to see what it's like. Your Packers just won over the Bears. Wait, I guess they have a min. left.Ok it's over . 45-30. Really good game. Nudge Chrissie, lol.Oh and my Cowboys won over Washington. 27-20.Well Hon just wait for me please. Love you so. Til we meet again.

Hi sweetheart, I love and miss you so much. Sorry yesterdays post was so short, I lost track of time. Anyway, you had 2 choices of soup. Something Lobster brie and tomato for the soup and very plain salad. Also 1 roll and crackers. A banana cream pie, which wasn't very good. Mary was told it was to be a Christmas dinner. The drinks were ice tea ( with no ice ), water and coffee.That was the dinner! Mary said we could go somewhere to eat afterwards and I told her no it was ok. Now the music was good especially this one group that sang. The one guy sang Silent Night that was from the group the Eagles. It was really good. It only lasted a couple of hours so I was back home before 9:00. Mary apologized over and over again, I told her it was ok, I still enjoyed her asking me to go with her. I think she's lonely now since she has her own place. I think she misses seeing Mike everyday. I guess he brought her a new washer and dryer. The other son put money into her bank account for her.She said she just wasn't use to anybody doing things for her and I told her I know how she felt. Well Hon I think I've written a book here, lol. Just wait for me. Love you so. Til we meet again.

Hi sweetheart , I love and miss you so much.Well I went with Mary to that dinner. It was ok but not what we expected. We had soup and salad that was our Christmas dinner. Mary was upset over it. Hope this gets posted. More tomorrow. Please wait for me. Til we meet again.

Hi Hon, I love and miss you so much. Didn't get much done today. I think I'm getting a cold, at least I hoping it's just a cold. Nose running body aches a little. Took cold meds. but just made me tired. I tried to wrap gifts but had a dizzy spell. So I gave up on it. I wish I would have told Mary no about tomorrow. It's at that senior center. It's a dinner and music. Just hope she doesn't want to stay too long. Carla said I may like it. But you know me I don't like new things, lol. I know I need to have some kind of life but if you're not in it I really don't want it. It's just I miss you so much and it's hard to move ahead. Just wait for me. Til we meet again.

Hi sweetheart, I love and miss you so much. I got Chrissie's gift over to her today. She really liked it. Especially the candy. I got the girls another gift today. I know, I'm done. Got the little's potty chair. Need an outfit for him and I'm done. Just got to wrap a few things. I'll probably take Mom and the kids gifts over next week sometime. It's getting close. Carla said if I wait she'd like to help me put decoration on grave site Sun. So I'll be up then. I want to try and do something different this year. So I'll be up then. Feeling a little better but not much. Hopefully I can get over this crap. Please wait for me Michael. Missing you so much. Til we meet again.

Hi sweetheart, I love and miss you so much. Not feeling well and arm still hurting from that damn shot. Only one left is the flu shot. But I'll go to Wal Mart for it like I always do. First I have to get over this. Carla is having a lot of problems with Camarcus. He's been hitting on her. Autumn went down cause Karma called her and told her he was hitting on her Mom. Autumn told him next time it happens she was calling the police to get his butt. Carla took his phone away from him. I don't know Michael, if you were here you could talk to him. But you're not. Just wait for me. Til we meet again.