MY FRIEND, MY COUSIN, MY BROTHER!!
Truth be told, I'm having mix feelings.. mix feelings for the simple fact that you didn't tell me ish, which makes me mad, upset and even angry with you. Knowing we do not hide anything from one another, however you choose to kept that away from me, I'm confused as hell, nothing is making any sense to me..
There's a part of me that's gone along with you, a part of me that only you're aware of, DAAM, I miss you man, missing you like crazy.. already!! But I am still angry at you. My/Our dearest Aunt Toks (a.k.a my older sister) told me not to be mad at the dead, but I am.. I'll be lying if I say I wasn't.
Salted liquid running down my face as I'm writing this and reminiscing how you and I use to travel to Luton on regular basis, wearing matching outfits and people assuming we were some kind of celebrities, little do they know, you are more than a celebrity, while I was just a fan. Daam I miss you bro, I'm missing you so much it hurts, it hurts bad! I can write about you and talk about you all day, daam I miss my N!&&@!!
You came to the states couple of times to visit me, how special you made me feel. Though I was looking forward to meeting your little princess for the first time in person, seeing your brothers (and sister) again and giving mum a kiss on the cheek simply for having you.. we're too much alike, cut from the same cloth, similar background, same habits.. spending time with you at the gym and conversing about life were my favorite things to do.. I miss you bro!!
Too much to write, too much to say. Still can't believe you're gone, I don't wanna believe you're gone and the crazy ish is, I would have gone through the gate of heaven with you (maybe not necessarily for you but definitely with you). TILL WE MEET AGAIN, I LOVE YOU!!