Michael I saw two red birds and thought about you I know yesterday was three years of you not being here but I miss seeing you and your voice I miss all that not a day goes by I don’t think about you and hope I see you and I your smile and your hug you might be gone but never forget I love you boo

Hey you I know that I didn't get to write you yesterday because I was down and out because you are not here and I am being to forget somethings about you and I am scared to say I don't want to forget about you I know you are still with me but it's different from a year ago to now life has changed and I am happy but still have a little hole we're you hold you are supposed to be here helping me get stuff done but I got your cat with me but I need you to get to mom she needs you so much more I had one shot but no one knows it was for you dude we're is my brother I love you I always think about you so much I hope you are doing well and happy you know I will always be my brother's keeper 

I know you are watching over us but I feel like I am falling out of care for everyone because I can't save everyone so why try I know it's my job to care for everyone but I am just having a bad time with 2022 you know how happy I am because I get to write to you I miss you Mike but you already know that I feel like I am crazy with out you mom has her day's you need to be here you was mom's right hand more than me but I don't know how you did it but she keeps saying I am her only child now I don't like to hear that because you aren't really gone you just had to be with your dad he need you and God wanted you to come cut heaven's grass and he got the right person to do the job and sister needed you And grandma needed her left hand man to help keep heaven beautiful just like your soul I love you I guess you know this and how much I love you and miss you boo boo I need my dude here because no one else can do what you do with people in your life sunshine still does not do the churchyard bec that was you and him so idk who does it I know you do Michael you are my favorite best friend and my brother and plus you know you was my right hand always no one else can take it from you not even Miss cat cat lol but I guess what I am saying is that mom needs you beside her because she has her day's but no matter what you know that don't worry about me I got me just watch mom and the kids and ur old people they are the one's who need your smile bec it bright everyone's day I love you and you take care I miss you alot and I hope you are having fun enjoying your life with dad because when I get there I am going to hug you so much and never leave it side because I am my brother keeper and I know you need me but I know I have to keep on with life because I have my kids but you was my first baby I love you

Michael Paul Anderson its your birthday your 42 man I miss you tell us every day it's your birthday up until today you would be saying it's your birthday it's the first birthday without you I really miss you I have went weeks without you and month's I really am trying but each day I remember alot I miss your smile how you talk how much you loved your family  I love you I wish you could come and gave mom a hug and tell her you love her mom misses her best friend or her hip oh boo-boo I know you knew everything but I am still sorry for not saving you bec you was loved here by everyone  but today is your day and I hope the grass in heaven can wait bec my BIG Brother is 42 and you need to rest I miss you so much I love you HAPPY BIRTHDAY my sweet  Brother my boo-boo 

I truly appreciate you being the best brother and uncle you will never know how much I appreciate everything you do for us and how much I would keep you safe because you are my best friend I love you Michael 

I truly appreciate you being the best brother and uncle you will never know how much I appreciate everything you do for us and how much I would keep you safe because you are my best friend I love you Michael