Mitra joonam, you and I have been separated from each other for two long months not by choice, but by unjustifiable force beyond our control. You called and accepted this injustice as your destiny. I always thought that your destiny became our destiny some 45 years ago when I fell inlove with your unquestionable beauty. But, I was wrong again. you are gone and I am still here with broken heart and unknown future. Mitra Joonam, a lot has been said and written about you in the past two months. But Nobody knew you as much as I did. I spent almost half a century of my life with you, and how wonderful and enjoyable it was. You, for me, were a perfect, perfect wife, partner and companion. You were a perfect mother and a great role model for our three children, Haleh, Avid and Bobby. We are all continuing our lives, unfortunately without you, on a sound foundation that you, alone, structured for all of us. Mitra joonam you were not only loved and adored by your family members, you were loved and respected by others. Here to prove my point, I post the emails that your Doctors, Nathan and Ahmad, wrote about you in response to Avid's and my email. I love you and miss you very much.
Avid's email:
Dr. Nathan, I have been trying to write this email since my mom's passing, but I haven't been able to do it. Words cannot adequately express my appreciation for all that you and your staff have done for my mom over the last 10+ years. When my mom was diagnosed with pulmonay fibrosis, my brother, sister and I had to face the fact that our time with our mom was limited. As we watched the disease progress, we started to resign ourselves to losing our mother sooner that we could have ever imagined possible.
The next thing we know you and your team are there offering the hope of a second chance, and although the prospect of a lung transplant terrified all of us including mom, we all knew it was the best and only option. Then in July of 2001 a true miracle happened, mom received her first lung transplant. She was back! She was active and better than we could have imagined. The transplant allowed her to dance at my wedding, and be the daycare provider for her first granddaughter, my daughter Sara.
Nine years later my mom was back were she was pre-transplant. Her second gransdaughter had just been born, and there was a real chance that she would never get to know her. Once again you and your team delivered a miracle. This second transplant allowed my second daughter Sonia to know who her "Mimi" was. It also allowed my mom the chance to see another one of her children, my sister Haleh, get married.
Dr. Nathan, I want you to know that my mom fought hard to make you and your team proud, and to make sure that you knew this gift was not wasted on her. She fought so hard every day to make sure that those around her did not feel that she was a burden. She fought hard to make you and your staff proud as well as my dad and my siblings. I know that as a doctor you are supposed to have a certain amount of distance from your patients. My mom never felt that distance from you. She knew that you and the team were beside her every step of the way. I will always be grateful for all the time and memories that you provided me and my family. Words will never convey the gratitude that I feel.
Thank you again for everything. Avid Miller
Dr. Nathan's Response:
Hi Avid, thank you kindly for your note. Your Mom was one of my favorite patients. I know she tried very hard and bore her illness with such great dignity and pride that she endeared herself to everyone. I hope she knew that I was proud of her, although I am not sure I ever expressed this. The fact that she was able to enjoy her family and see her family grow, underscores the fact that her both her transplants were great successes. I truly appreciate your note, since sometimes we feel that we have failed our patients in that we couldn't do more. I hope you don't mine me sharing your kind words with the rest of our team. I know they will all appreciate it. My best wishes to you and your family, you were all such great support all the way through for your Mom.
With warm regards, Steve Nathan
My email to Dr. Ahmad
Dear Dr. Ahmad, I stopped by at the clinic couple of times, since Mitra's passing, to meet with you and personally thank you for all you did for Mitra. But, unfortunately I could not control my emotions to face you. Your professional care for Mitra, your support for me and my children and your kind words and optimistic attitudes gave us all hope during the first couple of months after Mitra's second transplant. I remember during the most difficult times you kept assuring us that "Mitra will be fine." All of us especially my older daughter, listened carefully to every word you said after visiting Mitra every morning. One time you said Mitra will be fine "Inshallah". My daughter interpreted that as you were losing hope. Then you and I had to explain to her what exactly that meant. this closeness to us was way beyond anybody's expectations. And, for this we all are, forever, thankful to you. Mitra respected you very much also. In the last few months of her life that she was not able to get around without a wheel chair, she always asked me to help her walk to the clinic because she said Dr. Ahmad does not want to see me on the wheel chair.
Dr. Ahmad we are all doing O.K. considering this huge loss. But as all of us believe Mitra must be in a much better place and not suffering anymore. It will take much longer for us to accept this loss because you know how close we were to Mitra.
Again my sincere gratitude to you for everything that you did for Mitra and us during the past several years. Houshang Safaipour
Dr. Ahmad's response:
Dear Houshang, Thank you for your kind words. I will remain grateful to Mitra and your entire family for always trusting us fully, in the most difficult circumstances. I rember her second transplant well, she critically ill with primary graft dysfunction, and we had to use surfactant - for the first time. I then had to leave for Umarah, but Mitra was in my thoughts and prayers the whole time. Health and recovery ultimately comes from God; physicians are just a means for it, and we find it very humbling when patients give their full confidence and trust.
We will always remember Mitra fondly, for many things and especially for utilizing and caring for this gift of life in the best possible manner.I pray that may God grant you and your family the patience and strength to bear this loss.
With sincere regards, Shahzad Ahmad