My little boy
May 9, 2021
It's been a long few weeks. Firstly on 25 April when my waters broke. I was only 18 weeks pregnant.
In hospital I asked everyone I knew who prayed, to pray for you son. Pray that somehow through this you would be ok. Having no water around you meant you couldn't stretch, you couldn't really move and breathing for you was harder.
When the doctors told me I was getting a infection I wasn't worried. I was more worried for you. Son they told me I have to give birth to you but I told them NO. I wasn't ready at all....
You were ready tho, your cord was starting to come out of me. I couldn't believe it....my whole world went into this blackness. A whole lot of guilt and unbelievable pain struck me the moment i knew your heart was depleting and you were slowly leaving me. I couldn't thin, I didn't want to imagine life without you.
Labour was hard. Hard knowing that you would be born and I wouldn't get to hear you cry feel your body on my chest. All those first moments we couldn't do.
I did how ever bath you. Washing your beautiful lifeless body was heartbreaking. Killing me a million times over. Changing you into a gown that made you look like a precious angel. A angel that you are my son.
I am forever grateful for the keepsake memory babylossNZ gave to us so we can always remember you son.
Bringing you home, and having you home for a few days was hard. Nice but hard. Letting you go tho, that was the hardest....
This whole experience is hard, my heart hurts every minute for you. My little boy I wanted so much. Your big brother and sissys would of done everything for you. You would of been our spoilt little rat bag. Your daddy's first son. Our future lineman. .we won't ever turn your lights out son.
Il always love you Moran Jeffrey.
In hospital I asked everyone I knew who prayed, to pray for you son. Pray that somehow through this you would be ok. Having no water around you meant you couldn't stretch, you couldn't really move and breathing for you was harder.
When the doctors told me I was getting a infection I wasn't worried. I was more worried for you. Son they told me I have to give birth to you but I told them NO. I wasn't ready at all....
You were ready tho, your cord was starting to come out of me. I couldn't believe it....my whole world went into this blackness. A whole lot of guilt and unbelievable pain struck me the moment i knew your heart was depleting and you were slowly leaving me. I couldn't thin, I didn't want to imagine life without you.
Labour was hard. Hard knowing that you would be born and I wouldn't get to hear you cry feel your body on my chest. All those first moments we couldn't do.
I did how ever bath you. Washing your beautiful lifeless body was heartbreaking. Killing me a million times over. Changing you into a gown that made you look like a precious angel. A angel that you are my son.
I am forever grateful for the keepsake memory babylossNZ gave to us so we can always remember you son.
Bringing you home, and having you home for a few days was hard. Nice but hard. Letting you go tho, that was the hardest....
This whole experience is hard, my heart hurts every minute for you. My little boy I wanted so much. Your big brother and sissys would of done everything for you. You would of been our spoilt little rat bag. Your daddy's first son. Our future lineman. .we won't ever turn your lights out son.
Il always love you Moran Jeffrey.