GARY JR AND I  WAS VERY CLOSE ALL THRU OUR LIFE TIME ,DID WE BUTT HEADS . OH YES, BUT FROM THE START WE WENT THRU LIFES UPS AND DOWNS TOGETHER.AT 12  I WAS LEFT INCHARGE OF GARY JR ,I THRU A PARTY .NO I WAS NOT SUPPOSE TO AND LATER GARY WAS SLEEPING SO I TRIED MAKING HIM SNEEZE BY BLOWING PEPPER NEAR HIS NOSE ,ONLY IT GOT IN HIS EYES. YEP BUSTED ,HE TOLD .MY BROTHER  WAS NOTORIOUS IN WHEELING ,FOR GOING TO THE RIVER BANK AND BRINGING HOME CRITTERS , WE HATED REACHING IN HIS POCKETS ,NOT KNOWING IF WORMS OR FISH WAS IN THERE .   MY BABY BROTHER SPENT ALOT OF TIME PLAYING NEAR THE RIVER BANKS ,IT ALWAYS SCARED ME .I WAS AFRAID HE WOULD FALL IN AND GET CAUGHT IN SOMETHING CALLED WHIRLPULLS IN RIVER WATERS .HE LOVED TO FISH ,BUT THERE WAS NO ONE TO TAKE HIM AND OUR DAD WAS NOT IN OUR LIFE AT THAT AGE .SO I WOULD WALK OR SIT WITH HIM AT THE RIVER BANKS SO I KNEW HE WAS OK . YUK , I HATED IT CAUSE IM SCARED OF SNAKES AND RATS ,MICE ,TILL THIS DAY MY BROTHER OR SON HAS TO  BAIT MY FISHING HOOKS . AT A CERTAIN POINT AN TIME GARY JR /AN I [LISA].....SPENT APART OF OUR LIFE IN A CATHOLIC HOME FOR CHILDREN. OUR FATHER WAS INCARCERATED ,AND I FORGET WHERE OUR MOM WAS .   BUT I KNOW WHEN WE  DID GET TO GO TO AUNT BARBS , AND OUR GRAMMA CAME AND GOT US ON WEEKENDS AT TIMES .MOST  OF OUR FAMILY CONTINUED ON WITH THEY'RE LIVES  AND WE  STAYED IN SAINT VINSENT DE PAUL HOME FOR CHILDREN . GARY WAS SO HURT .HE HAD TO BE IN ONE SECTION AND I WAS IN ANOTHER . THERE WAS 12 TO 15 GIRLS IN ONE DORM ,AND THE SAME IN THE BOYS .GARY JR. AND /I GOT TO VISIT  EACH OTHER DURING PLAY TIME ,MAYBE DURING MEALS . HOWS THAT FOR A CHILDHOOD.  MY BROTHER HAD TO HAVE DENTAL WORK DONE ONE TIME HE WAS JUST A LITTLE GUY, I WAS ONLY ALLOWED TO SEE HIM AT THE NORMALLY SCHEDULED TIMES , NUNS WEREN'T THERE TO DO FAVORS ,BE KIND ,OR EVEN GIVE IN EVERY ONCE IN AWHILE .THEY WAS THERE TO DO A JOB .AND THEY DID JUST THAT A JOB...... GARY CARRIED A GREAT RESENTMENT FOR OUR STAY THERE , AS SO DID I , I JUST KEPT IT TO MYSELF .CAUSE NO ,BUT GRANDMA CARED TO HERE IT ,GRANDMA DID NOT AGREE WITH IT AT ALL .BUT SHE HAD TO WORK ,AND WAS JUST LOOKING OUT FOR OUR SAFETY .STILL OUR RESENTMENT  WAS THERE . NITE AFTER NITE  I WOULD LOOK OUT OVER ELM GROVE AND PRAY THAT THIS WOULD BE THE DAY OUR MOM WOULD COME BACK FOR US .FINALLY ONE DAY OUR MOM DID COME .IT SEEMED LIKE AGES AFTER , SHE HAD FOUND OUT SHE WAS HAVING ANOTHER KID . SO SHE CAME AND GOT US . WELL WE WAS JUST THANKFUL TO GET OUT NO MATTER WHAT THE REASON . AFTER THAT GARY JR. / AN I TRIED STAYING TO OURSELVES .AS YOUNG KIDS WE FIGURED IF WE STAYED OUT OF THE WAY WE WOULD NEVER HAVE TO GO BACK THERE . OUR GRAMMA ROSE MADE SURE BEYOND A SHADOW OF A DOUBT THAT GARY AND I HAD WHAT OTHERS HAD , SHE IS SUCH A LOVING GRAMMY . GARY JR WAS SILLY ONE TIME WHEN HE WAS A KID ....GRAMMA WENT SOMEWHERE ,GARY TRIED TO DRIVE HER CAR ...WOWWWW' HE MOVED IT AND BY THE TIME HE GOT BACK AROUND THE BLOCK SOMEBODY ELSE HAD PARKED IN THAT SPACE .OH WAS HE BUSTED .... MY BABY BROTHER DID SOME WILD STUFF . AND NOW IT HURTS DAILY TO NOT HEAR HIM CALL ME ,AND SAY WHATS YOUR LEFT OVERS LISA PIZZA... GARY I LOVE YOU  MY ANGEL , LOVE YOUR BIG SISTER LISA ,