June 29, 2019
June 29, 2019
Dear husband, best friend, soulmate, better half, my one and only,
Words cannot describe how much I miss you and love you and how much regret I have. You were my everything and I let my family get in my head. I am so deeply sorry for everything. I deserve to live with the regret. I didn't live up to my promise to stand by you and love you through sickness and health. You deserved better and I let you down completely. If I could take it all back I would. You were such an amazing man...words can't express that. Everyone loved you and cared about you. You were so helpful, caring, loving, strong, smart, playful and just every good thing a man can and could be in the best of ways. There isn't a minute that goes by when I don't think about you. I know it's selfish of me to want you back when I know I can't. It doesn't matter anymore for me to tell you how things would've been different. It's not far to either of us especially you. All I know and want you to know is that I love you and kiss you with all that I am. I'm sorry I didn't show you or tell you everyday that you were alive. I am doing the best I know I can. I want you to be proud of me but the truth is that you should be here and I would give anything and everything to switch with you. I would do it in a heartbeat cuz you deserve to be alive I don't. Anyways I will keep talking to you, loving you and missing you every single day. I love you always and forever my love!
Love your Wife Amber
Words cannot describe how much I miss you and love you and how much regret I have. You were my everything and I let my family get in my head. I am so deeply sorry for everything. I deserve to live with the regret. I didn't live up to my promise to stand by you and love you through sickness and health. You deserved better and I let you down completely. If I could take it all back I would. You were such an amazing man...words can't express that. Everyone loved you and cared about you. You were so helpful, caring, loving, strong, smart, playful and just every good thing a man can and could be in the best of ways. There isn't a minute that goes by when I don't think about you. I know it's selfish of me to want you back when I know I can't. It doesn't matter anymore for me to tell you how things would've been different. It's not far to either of us especially you. All I know and want you to know is that I love you and kiss you with all that I am. I'm sorry I didn't show you or tell you everyday that you were alive. I am doing the best I know I can. I want you to be proud of me but the truth is that you should be here and I would give anything and everything to switch with you. I would do it in a heartbeat cuz you deserve to be alive I don't. Anyways I will keep talking to you, loving you and missing you every single day. I love you always and forever my love!
Love your Wife Amber