I really don't know what made me think of this, but my mind was wondering as it always does, and bits of this poem were playing over and over in my head today....

  Nate and I only dated for around 14 months, but seemed to spend every minute we could together.  I know this sounds silly, but I have an agenda I kept from high school and every other day it either said: Movie with Nate, babysitt Emalee with Nate, went to Nate's house, went to see a movie with Nate..Six Flags with Nate, Sandcastle with Nate...etc. I tend to write alot down and I'm so glad I do because it brings back fun memories we shared together.  I wanted to share the story of how we started dating in the first place.  I can remember our first date like yesterday.  I remember my friend, Maegan telling me that a junior thought I was cute and he wanted to go on a date with me (haha).  Of course I thought I was super cool, and said ok.  Well, we ended up going on a double date with Maegan and Jarod to the Steubenville Mall to see Double Take (don't ask me how I remember that one lol)...and a couple weeks later the 3 of them came over my house to watch Center Stage ( he never let me live that one down!). I found out a few days later that Nate had a little interest in someone else, and I was a little heartbroken.  One night at a friends house, we were reading magazines and I came across the perfect poem.  Every word it said was how I felt toward Nate.  I ended up writing this poem and giving it to him after school one day.  It must have changed his mind because a few days later he was paging me again haha.  Well, today (for some crazy reason) parts of it was replaying over and over in my head, so I googled it..go figure..lol.  I can't believe it's been 10 years and I actually found it!

I WISH YOU WERE MINE

Sitting around with nothing to do, thinking of how much I want to be with you.  These feelings I have I don't always show, but I'm telling you now, I want you to know.  We've been through it all, good times and bad. I'm not always happy you do make me sad.  You sometimes act like you don't care, but this hardly happens, it's almost rare.  We're not together I wish we were. We're not together, you've chosen her.  She seems to be better and everything more, I don't even know what I'm hanging around for.  You hurt my feelings and make me cry, but I don't know why I continue to try.  I guess I just like you and get carried away, I wish you were mine to have each and every day.                                                                         

I'm so thankful that this little poem changed his mind about me because I had the opportunity to get to know how loving Nate really was.  Even though we weren't together that long, I wouldn't change us for anything. 

I remember a night in high school when we were all out at someone's house way back in New Cumberland.  Sam, Danielle A., Jamie, Bianca and I all left at about midnight with nothing but Nate's directions to get us home.  Needless to say, we took several wrong turns and ended up completely lost in the woods and out of gas, with no idea where we were.  So, we called Nate and Jake, and they immediatley began a search for us.  After a couple hours, we finally saw headlights.  They had drove in circles until they found us.  Nate then siphoned gas out of his car and into mine and followed us the whole way home.  Instead of staying at a party and having fun, they were the best friends ever and looked for us until we were found.  Nate was such an amazing friend.  I miss him so much, but I have so many wonderful memories of him.

Everytime I would have a party at my house when we were in high school. My mom would kick everyone out. But, not Nate because she was so used to him being around. If I wasnt at his house, he was at mine. There are so many good memories we had. Being snowed in at his house on Lick Run. Sled riding from the top of his road all the way to the bottom. Riding to school in the shitter, his aspire, for those who dont know what i mean. He was always there for me when I needed a friend and trusted him with everything. He was like family and a little of me left with him.