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January 15, 2022
Dear Nicky,

Crazy how much time has gone by since you left us, and left a huge impression on our hearts. Today’s Grandma Gloria’s birthday. Hope you’re celebrating with all of them up there. I’ll never forget the moments we shared growing up; football in Grandpa AL’s backyard (that man was always yelling ), pool days on Seacord, family vacations and you having to defend me in my teenage years. You always carried your heart on your sleeve. I’m constantly reminded you are here. I swear every time I look at the clock it’s 11:03 and I know it’s you saying “hiiii cuz!” I can hear you now. My son reminds me so much of you too. He’s a wild one with a good heart. He is always putting on dada’s and mama’s shoes, which also reminds me of you. I’ll never forget your smile and the way you made people laugh. Missing you always♥️ Love you. 

Two Years...Loved and Missed by Many

October 6, 2014

Can't believe two years have past already...still in denial as I expect you still to come home...how I wish you would....Had a mass for you on 10.3 and I included Heather also...I invited her family and met her mom and sister and mom's husband...I think they were so happy that she was remembered with you on this very important day.  Went to the GWbridge...and walked and laid yellow roses in the water by the lighthouse....I know you were there with me...Aunt Jo, Gloria, Christina, Kristen and Jeanne came with me....It was a moving experience but for some reason I really felt you by my side standing there and wondering what you were thinking, feeling, but couldn't wrap my head around any of this....Sunday we did the AFSP Out of the Darkness walk in your honor...If you could see the people that came out to celebrate your life and love and miss you...you would be blown away.....Yes, my dear son...you are so truly loved and missed....Your son was so awesome...although I'm sure he doesn't understand any of this...which buys us time to see how to explain this to him....I posted the group picture so you can see...love and miss you more than you can imagine...always and forever the love of my life, my heart, my soul, my everything...Soar with the angels but stay close and watch over Mikey and guide him always....xoxoxo Mommy
 

One year

October 2, 2013

My darling son..."Where are you?"  I miss you so much and the pain gets worse each day I don't hear your voice or see your beautiful face...When will I join you..only God knows..but I am counting the days...Wish I could be there with you and here with your son...I know I can't leave him because your last words were for me to take care of Mikey....and I will honor your wish for as long as possible.  Tomorrow is your mass and Sunday I am walking for AFSP....in your honor...How I wish you knew how much you are loved.  And if you did, I don't think you would have left us....I am so depressed and struggling to get through the days ahead. Perhaps you miss me too and will come to visit me in my dreams...I think I'm still in denial because I expect you to walk through the door...so I can hug and kiss you and to hear your voice and see your beautiful smile...Hope you are at peace and surrounded by love...soar witj the angeks baby,,,but pleae always remember that no one loves you more,,,you are the love of my life, my heart, my soul, my world...Mommy xoxox

August 19, 2013

My beautiful son...  I am so very happy you spoke with me at Lily Dale... I prayed that you would come through....was losing hope and then it happened... I know you waited until the perfect messenger came to present yourself....I have so many emotions it's hard to concentrate or write about....Just wanted to say thank you - especially for the hug).....I know you're around me all the time. I feel you and know your arms around me all the time...because if not, I would have fallen apart a long time ago.... I also know that you are with Mikey guiding and protecting him....Thank you baby...love and miss you so much but you already know that... sending you hugs and kisses xoxox Forever and ever and always, my heart, my soul, my everthing...

 

My dear friend

July 30, 2013
It was December 2010 and something very tragic happened to me, when I told nick about it he was there for me 100%. I had to take legal action and I was scared to do it alone so he came to my house picked me up and drove me to the police station. He stayed by my side as I was in tears and shakin up about the situation. He sat and waiting for hours while I did what I had to do. If it wasn't for him I prob would of never taken action or stood up for myself the way I should have. Nick told me what was done was wrong and gave me the courage to do what I did. Nick was a great person and a kind soul. He always made me laugh as we would talk on the phone for hours at night when neither one of us could not sleep! Not many people knew how close we had got at one point but the memories we made will last me a lifetime, it just saddens me that they were cut so short. I know he was suffering and I would pray for him to get better but he's been at peace since he left us even though it left us with broken hearts. I only wish I had more time with u and had the chance to tell u more of what a great friend u were to me. I always could count on u for some many things. Ur laugh would make me laugh no matter what mood I was in and I miss that!

Victor Calderone#Glo#2010

June 7, 2013

he picked me up with his gf and a friend. We had a great time dressed up nice and neat with all ambitions to dance and be free. Nick was always a great circle dancing kingpin since palladium. He once again proved it that he was king of the dancefloor & the circle which was our sacred ground whenever it would open up at any venue. Nick Bauco was a extra nice person if you knew him and would take care of anyone he was friends with even when we just met i was spotted cash to get into pacha the first time we ever hung out since palladium teen nights. I have nothing but great things about our night to long island to hear one of our favorite dj's Victor Calderone. I was taught a new dance move everytime we hit the floor anywhere!!! So as usual we crushed the circles that were made and sweated out the drinking fast since we moved harder than anyone in there in shoes and button ups...i learned alot of Nick and one of the main things I learned is not to be scared of anyone or anything no matter what. I have heard this before but when told me nick in his bauco voice it really gave me the heart to be more aggressive in life and to go after my goals without worrying about what someone thought or said to try and slow me down,. I thank you Nick for the times we got to chill even though it wasnt until we were in our late 20's is still better than never getting to be apart of your life. I cherish the ngihts out as well as your motivational speeches while driving arounf the bronx wasting gas just to pump techno and your personal tracks you produced which were the hardest techno songs i have ever heard in my life with the deepest kicks and sytnhs known to mankind! Im gunna keep on truckin and try to finish the tracks i make in your honor and if i actually make it somewhere with my productions it has alot to do with your influence to get into real underground techno.....i couldnt belirve how much we had in common our second time hangin out when i picked you up at grandmas house and we went down to the pachita for victor c. and that was the start of our own victor worship duo no matter where he was lpaying we always made plans to get out there and see him without a doubt in our minds that we would have a sick time and nothing would stop us. I miss my victor worship buddy and also my mentor in life and how to talk to girls a lil better than my game was. I am a better person for knowing you and i promise when i get there im gunna put you on my shoudlers and you can point me the way to the nearest heaven venue with the best music since i know your in a better state of mind now without any worries except the compassion you feel towards your family and friends for not giving us a chance to help in some way which you already know was an option always 365.....i think we all feel in a way its our fault in one way or another for not getting to you before this tragedy happened either by phone call to check up on you that night or even to call you that day to make sure your okay since you had alot on your plate. I know you miss us and soon we will speak again my brother. Your one of a kind and nothing will ever change the impression you left on alot of people for being that special dude who put a smile on my face anytime id see you out or go to visit you in the bx. We had a good amount of times that we hung out but definately not enough times but i swear on my grandpa n grandma i will make things right for our techno comminuty as well as keeping your circle moves alive. You spirit will always be lingering inside any circle ever created on Gods good earth. You can always visit me in a dream if you choose to but if you wanna make me wait it out then so be it. It will just make it more worth the wil too see your big cheesey smile that lit up rooms and u were a ladys man who i was jealous of for having so much love from all the girls out there without even going all out to try and impress them. you impressed them by just being yourself and thats always a big key to my looking up to you even though were the same age. I miss you Nicky and best believe we will get up hardbody karate and get high on afterlife with no bulls*%# whatsoever and troubles. You know my demons and what i struggle with everyday because i told you everything and thats not normal for me to open up to someone the 2nd time hangin out and especially to someone who knows everyone but i trusted you and i know your lookin over me amd cant wait to bust out some sf moves and be my tag team buddy again for round 2 of eternity in a happy place with my best club bud Nick Anthony Bauco aka "The Man" Love you kiddo keep it real & look over us which i know you are already but i need some looking over a lil more than others at times since you know what I mean. Ciao for now....dj vin~

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