ForeverMissed
This memorial website was created in loving memory of our shining light, Nicole Guilliams who left us way too soon on March 3rd, 2020. May we all gather here in this space to feel her energy, to dance to her favorite music, to honor her incredibly special life, and to share stories about her so that those who loved her can grieve together and feel support.

Nicole had recently moved to the property of her dreams in Fulton, MO where she could watch each sunset from her swing that hung from a beautiful old oak tree in her front yard, listen to birds sing, find peace in her meditation room, and take space from the world to fall in love with herself all over again.

She was a loving and thoughtful daughter, born to Dennis and Marsha Guilliams August 25th, 1975 and was the sister to her loving brothers, Chad and Kurt. There is no doubt that her brother Ryan (who passed in Feb, 1991) met her with open, loving arms, with her dogs River and Sampson trotting close behind when she arrived in heaven! She was deeply in love with her son Druie, and she is the main reason his heart is so big and resilient. She was the one in the family who was always finding ways for us to gather, she was the collector of treasured family furniture and heirlooms, and she was the friend you always wanted to call first when you needed support. She was deeply loved by her Aunts, Uncles, Cousins who are scattered all over the country, and was adored by her sweet niece, Samantha who shares her love of sweets and non-stop dance parties. Nicole's laugh was full and proud, her sense of humor was dry and sarcastic, she was stubborn, self-assured, spoke her truth always, and she was passionate about music and spending quality time outdoors.

When she passed, her heart and both kidneys were donated to three separate individuals drastically improving their quality of life. What a gift!! Even in death she continues to help others, and just knowing that her heart is still beating somewhere on this planet helps bring us solace. There aren't enough words to describe our loss, and at some point we will all gather to honor her together in-person...but, until that time comes please feel free to leave a tribute here to honor all the many ways Nicole has touched our lives.
Posted by Lisa Nisbet on September 12, 2020
Allison and I watched Bridesmaids tonight and of course I cried at the end. It brings back so many memories of us. I would never have wanted anyone else to be my maid of honor.
Posted by Tiffany Fuhrig Taylor on August 20, 2020
We met the first day of 7th grade and were friends ever since. For 6 straight years we spent more time than not, together, and got into all sorts of trouble and had so much fun doing it all! Then big girl life started and we soared thru our seperate adventures, always ready to reconnect when the time was right or needed. You were Sam's first babysitter for his first year then moved to Columbia. Then you came back and we picked up where we left off, now with more kids! I'm so sorry I didn't get to your house in Fulton while you were there but I'm so glad you came to sing kareoke with me at tuners the Tuesday before you left. I haven't been to a karaoke since and I imagine there will be a couple songs I'm longing to hear only my friend sing once I finally get back. Fly high, nicole, come talk to me in my dreams please. I'll see you again when the time is right. I love your face and your soul.
Posted by Keith Towers on August 12, 2020
I am here although I am gone.                                           My body nor soul not tethered,                                            but rather transcended and reborn.                                        Remember me,                                                          please do not mourn.                                                     For my freedom is great,                                                  without these schackles of pain.                                            Eternally grateful,                                                        for my resilience,                                                         and my time spent on this ball of rain.                                      For there is nothing wrong,                                                I just have to move on,                                                    and groove to the tune of a different song.                                  Although our time may have been short here,                                 I will always be near.                                                                           -Eternally grateful for the short time, experiences, and music enjoyed with my best friend. Miss you, wish you were here, and wait patiently to see you again. Leaving a purple flower for you Nicole.-
Posted by Dennis Guilliams on August 6, 2020
Dear Nicole,

A number of decades ago the stork dropped off a smiling child that her parents named, Nicole. She was a beautiful and free young girl, who grew to be a beautiful and free-spirited woman. At times she threw caution to the wind, chased rainbows, dreams, and lived a life filled with adventure.

She has discovered many things on her journey through the years; that life is not about how much “stuff” you accumulate or titles you acquire, but that life is about being with people that love you and that you love.(It took her father a long time to learn that lesson, and he is grateful she has earned it earlier than he.)

Nic, I am proud of the person you have become. You are a loving mother, an independent thinker and someone who is not afraid to take on challenges. My hope is that your son grows up to be just like his mother.

Love You Forever,

Dad

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Posted by Joanie Jorn on August 5, 2020
I can see her sitting in that swing!! Perfect!!
Posted by Natalie Thomas on August 3, 2020
Nicole brought a spirit of energy and fun when she was with her family. Her laugh was loud, strong and embodied the joy she experienced. Since her death there have been many times where I have thought.... this would be fun to do but underneath that thought was the memory that Nicole would not be around to fully partake of the activity. Having her physical absence is sad for me but I look for signs that she is around, sprinkling sunshine and fun, like the butterfly that came from no where recently. I have not seen butterflies around her before a night a week ago and have not seen one since. There was a gathering of her family around a fire pit and Nicole, I believe, was not going to be left out. My thoughts and prayers continue for Nicole, Druie and the entire family. A special thanks to Karen for putting this together.
Posted by Lynn Mackiewicz on August 3, 2020
Nicole...I will always miss your smile and infectious laugh. You always brought sunshine and laughter wherever you went. There has not been a day that you haven't been in my thoughts ❤️ I will always love you despite our arguments. There will never be another person on this planet with the same amazing soul that you shared with all of us ❤️

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Posted by Lisa Nisbet on September 12, 2020
Allison and I watched Bridesmaids tonight and of course I cried at the end. It brings back so many memories of us. I would never have wanted anyone else to be my maid of honor.
Posted by Tiffany Fuhrig Taylor on August 20, 2020
We met the first day of 7th grade and were friends ever since. For 6 straight years we spent more time than not, together, and got into all sorts of trouble and had so much fun doing it all! Then big girl life started and we soared thru our seperate adventures, always ready to reconnect when the time was right or needed. You were Sam's first babysitter for his first year then moved to Columbia. Then you came back and we picked up where we left off, now with more kids! I'm so sorry I didn't get to your house in Fulton while you were there but I'm so glad you came to sing kareoke with me at tuners the Tuesday before you left. I haven't been to a karaoke since and I imagine there will be a couple songs I'm longing to hear only my friend sing once I finally get back. Fly high, nicole, come talk to me in my dreams please. I'll see you again when the time is right. I love your face and your soul.
Posted by Keith Towers on August 12, 2020
I am here although I am gone.                                           My body nor soul not tethered,                                            but rather transcended and reborn.                                        Remember me,                                                          please do not mourn.                                                     For my freedom is great,                                                  without these schackles of pain.                                            Eternally grateful,                                                        for my resilience,                                                         and my time spent on this ball of rain.                                      For there is nothing wrong,                                                I just have to move on,                                                    and groove to the tune of a different song.                                  Although our time may have been short here,                                 I will always be near.                                                                           -Eternally grateful for the short time, experiences, and music enjoyed with my best friend. Miss you, wish you were here, and wait patiently to see you again. Leaving a purple flower for you Nicole.-
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Still Missed Dearly

Shared by Josh Rawls on February 24, 2021
It's been nearly a year since Nicole was taken from us and I still think of her every day. I miss her smile, her cackle (even she called it that), her brutal honesty, her advice, her friendship, and her love.

We had our good times and our bad times. The good definitely outweighed the bad. I wouldn't trade in any of the moments I had time with her. I loved her with all of my heart. She was my soulmate.

In all the photos I have with her I am smiling and it is a genuine smile. I'm not one to fake smile in photos. I couldn't help but smile when I was with her.

She was instrumental in me becoming a better person. She pushed me to do things that were uncomfortable for me but were the right thing to do. I am so grateful for her persistence and love.

I will always have her with me.

Two Words!

Shared by Sherry Zahner on August 31, 2020
The two words “Aunt Sherry” with an intonation only Nicole could pitch, will forever live in my heart.  A voice filled with a depth of personal emotion along with that ever so sly smile and a twinkle in both eyes will see me through the difficult years to come when she no longer speaks audibly.Instead, her spiritual essence will fill me and comfort me on days when my thoughts are of her.

I will remember the times spent with Druie and Nicole…her motherly advice that seemed to transcend raising her son not only by the book but with a strength in her heart to look between the lines.Her sense of motherhood was one of dedication, attention and education.And, of course, always relying on family to give her strength and support.As a mother and daughter, Nicole and Marsha worked together with Druie at The Freedom School 1st through 5th grade to support and guide him into a world of quality and diverse education…offering a strong base of love and direction!  I attended a Christmas gathering with Druie, Nicole and Marsha at the school witnessing firsthand the meaning of pride three ways!

On a trip back home in July 2018, I went dancing (pictures posted) with Nicole, her Mom and friend, Marcia at Stovall’s Grove…a dance hall in Wildwood, Missouri…..country western at its’ finest.The four of us danced the night away with Nicole encouraging us to participate in the group dance lessons that included men and women of all ages – a common thread of people, music, dance and community spirit.

The Grant’s Farm pictures I posted on the website will remain a vivid memory of time spent with Nicole, Druie, Chad, Jennifer, Sammie, Kurt, Marsha and myself on a blistering hot St. Louis day in May 2019…connecting and experiencing family togetherness while waiting for McKenna and James’ wedding.It now becomes an even dearer memory of our time together and a reason to respect the “feeling” that meant so much to Nicole.

Family is Everything   Let us all embrace her passion for family.  .Karen has enabled us to enjoy and discover all we shared with Nicole and carry on….our hearts are full….as was hers…