I still remember the day when my mom received the call that you were on your way into our lives.  I was thinking yay finally another baby that I can spoil, I hated that I couldn't see you when you were born, but I made sure that I had pictures of you.  Then that is when April came around, I remember it like it was yesterday. I was getting ready for my competition when I heard my mom say OH MY GOD!  It was then that I knew that something was wrong, but I didn't expect her to say that you were gone.  I was indenial the whole entire time, I felt my knees become weak and my heart started pounding fast. I kept thinking that this was a dream but when I saw the tears in my mom's eyes it was then that I knew you were gone.  I was sad because my first and last time would be seeing you laying there lifeless.  I cried day and night, I couldn't bear the fact that you were gone and still to this day I can't bear it.  I keep thinking that this is all a dream and Saturday I would be coming to Chattanooga to celebrate your first birthday with you.  But instead I will be throwing balloons in your memory knowing that you are celebrating your first birthday with granddaddy and granny in heaven looking down on us.  I think in a way God took you away from us to bring the family back together, but I just wish it was another way that we could've came back together as a family. The tears are starting to come down now so I think this is my time to end this story. Rest In Peace my Baby Angel, watch over me and keep me safe. I love you so much I hope you know that.  I'm not going to say goodbye I am just going to say I will see you soon baby boy!