I will never be happy again. I miss you every day. Sometimes I'm not sure I can keep going without you. Sometimes I just don't want to. I still cry at least once a day for you. Oh, Sissy, I miss you so much. I would do anything to have you back. I dream almost every night about you and your brothers.
  There just aren't any words to express how much I love you and miss you. Little Isaiah is always in my thoughts and prayers. I know if he were still here you would be too. I'll never get over losing you. My life ended the day I lost you. OMG, I love you so much it literally hurts all the time. I woke myself up one morning because I was screaming for you. I think about you even when I'm sleeping. I just want you back.
 That's probably very selfish but it's the truth. You were my best friend. We would talk about everything. All the time. Now there's no one. Please Sissy, know how much you are loved and missed. Mom xoxoxo