Dear Mom,
I can't believe your gone. I’ve had no words, since you went to be with the Lord, only tears. Struggling with your passing, has been more a part of my life, than remembering the good times. I can finally put some sentences together, all this time later. It’s not that easy for me Mom. Writing this is stirring all the sadness inside me. But at the same time, gratefulness for being a part of your life.
On your birthday, is when I first began to celebrate your life. I ate at what you would call the do-wop shop. One time I had a cheeseburger. The second time, I ordered fried shrimp platter, piled high. Just the way you loved them. Followed by a few episodes of the Animal Planet.
I thought on the second year anniversary of your funeral, it would be nice to share a fond memory. As you are aware, I’ve had a love for singing and music since an early age.
When I was five yrs old, all I wanted for Christmas was a record player. You bought me a plastic turn table, with the capability to play vinyl records. I was so excited! You took us to Howard and Nan record store, in the Berlin Mart. I looked through many records, for quite some time. The sale associate played a sample of the records. I am grateful for your patience.
We also stopped at Golden Touch pretzel shop. Sometimes we were lucky enough to watch the pretzels being made. Mine with mustard please! You were tolerant of me. By playing the same vinyl record, over and over again. So I could write down the lyrics, and learn the song.
Years later, you bought us an organ and song books. I enjoyed playing for endless hours. Depression got the best of me. I gave up on music. I continue to have a love of music to this day. Thanks to your support, from the beginning. I have revisited the Berlin Mart to reminisce.
Thank you for encouraging music to be a part of my life. I still have the vinyl records, cassettes, including Elvis, and a turn table. They were such a huge part of my childhood, and continue to be strong into my adulthood. Like our relationship as mother and daughter. I miss and love you Mom.