Turning 61
How do I get through this Birthday without you? Last year was so wonderful! You made my breakfast and packed my snacks for work walked me to my car and told me Happy Birthday ! Then a few hours later at work the most beautiful Flowers that can be bought at a florest arrived at work. Then the win pop will the Wardon come to client support! No one knew my secret name you had for me, thinking I could just go and get them without anyone knowing our secret then my name was called. Tammy you have a delivery . Everyone knew then I was your Wardon. Then the surprise Birthday party the first one sense I was 17 years old! The beautiful card that talked about how you always talked about US and WE a lot but this day was all about Me. You made that day so very special from the moment I stepped out of bed until I returned, I think you knew on some level that it would be the vary last Birthday we would ever have. I miss you far more than I ever thought possible ! Most nights I wake myself up crying for you. I don't remember a life without you in it! It has been almost eight months and I am still so lost and in so much pain and grief I don't know what to do with myself! I hope you are safe and happy . F.A.E.