My Mummy.
My fire brigadier. My Knight in shining Armor
My No Nonsense Woman.
I have been in denial about your demise for the longest.
And to be honest I don’t know which is the hardest, coming to terms that you are really gone or my inability to process that God can still wake you but can’t and won’t for reasons best known.
It has been a very tough choice to process the thoughts of not seeing or hearing from you again.
You are many things, but the best is you playing the role of a mother. You have done it so well. And your baby is grateful.
I am going to miss you. Your existence. The very space you occupy. The love you share, the care you give, the discipline you instill, the faith you have in God, the lessons you taught.
You are that giver who deserves all the giving, the lover who deserves all the love, the bearer whose burdens needed bearing, the consoler who needed to be consoled, the happy pill who deserves all the joy sent her way.
You took responsibility for me like it is what you have been waiting for, you fought for me and stood behind me. You taught me most things I know about being a modest woman in the world of today. You taught me the act of giving without second thoughts, you taught me how to be stronger in my faith with God.
You taught me to take life one step at a time. Even when everything seem to be falling apart, you never freight, you stand and say, as long as God is on the throne, we move and God comes through.
Your heart is so large but you have no space for keeping bad records. Your Forgiving spirit is second to none.
I will miss you my Big friend, Sister, Carer, parent, mom in all.
I will miss Banting internet slangs with you.
I will miss fighting you to go to sleep
I will miss all our endless gists and chronicles of break up stories.
I will miss all your cookings.
I will miss you praying with me and telling me “are you going to church iwo omo yi”
You will tell me that, there’s nothing I have or will face that no one hasn’t faced before, and then go on to find a story from somewhere that ends up making me feel better.
Talking with you always ended up with serious jokes! To be honest you are In the Highlights of my life’s journey.
I have so much I want to share with you. On Mother’s Day, I still promised to make you so proud and you said you can’t wait. It hurts to actually realize that you didn’t wait.
I literally can’t have a full conversation without mentioning something about you, it got to a point that my friends teased that, I am not the only one who has a Mum o. Lol. It is always my proudest moment, yes, I brag about you.
I wish you don’t tell me to keep my chin-chin change when I offered to give you money.
You will say “what is wrong with this one, you better keep your chin-chin change, you will need it, don’t worry about me”
And instead you still send me money.
Your demise makes me really sad. I am finding it hard to get by, because who will I cry to for care of attention?
Who will I rant to about my friends that gets me pissed?
Who will give me abroad gist?
Who will I set my alarm for, to catch up with at night!
The only reason we don’t sing together is how off my voice comes, and you say my dear don’t bother.
I am yet to meet anyone like you.
You are an angel in human form.
Perhaps, it is why heaven can’t wait to have you back.
To me it is too soon and I wish we had more time. Just a little bit maybe.
But I am gradually coming to terms.
If for anything. I am grateful and proud that we are put in the same family, that I know you and got to be a part of your journey. You lived a very impactful life.
I read what most people have to say, and realized I only caught a glimpse of you, you were more, way bigger than one’s imagination.
You are the life of the party and discussion, whether Faith, Education, Accountability, JOKES or anything.
I celebrate you! You lived a purposeful life!
Thank you for being You. I love you so much and I miss you.