Rest on ❤

Tunji, it’s been a year you haven’t woken up. I still think of you every now and then and I’m sure you’re in your happy place. Bless you bro and live on. My bro for life

Oluwademilade mii,

My star boy. What keeps playing in my mind is the few hours we spent when you came home December 2018, picking you from the airport, how much food you ate in my house  and wondering how one human being can consume so much. Then you slept and was snoring as if you were in your father’s house . I remember my heart being full that my brother was finally coming home by the middle of 2019. I told you I was pregnant with Tooni, it was too early to tell he was going to be a boy but you were just so happy that you’d be an uncle.

Demilade, I have so much to say... the last time I saw you was Jan 2, 2019. Hugged you like three times that day. If I knew that was the last time I’d see you, wouldn’t have let you go. Your passing away has really brought the rest of the family so close, something we took for granted. So many great things have happened since you left but everytime, I imagine what will Tunji say or do. The family chats would have been more lit . Sometimes I wish a director could shout cut and say this past year without you was just a movie or a dream. I have strong faith in Christ but still struggle to make sense out of this... it just doesn’t make sense to me.

The world won’t get to hear your amazing voice... I can’t even watch any reality music show anymore. Haven’t had the courage to listen to Khalid. Seeing young men your age still tears me up. I just keep thinking about what could have been, you’d probably be doing your NYSC now... and getting into the Lagos hustle vibes .I guess what I’m saying is I miss you and I love you My beloved brother. I know this time next year, we would be much better, we would have healed a little better cause I know that’s what you want. For now, I’d just keep feeling what I’m feeling. Keep shining over us my star boy, I’d start listening to music again just so I can feel you. Continue to Rest In Peace. Amoo...

Tunji, it was just like a dream for the past 365 days that you departed this sinful world. Painful as it was, we are very grateful to the Lord Almighty for His sustenance.
Missing you in the family is not because you're the only son or last born but someone that is believed would absolutely survived us after our ripe age. What was more devastating was the last discussion I had with you which was followed up with an email concerning travel visa to attend the graduation ceremony. The mail was sent on the morning of 23rd February!!! The rest is history.
Eventually in July 2019,  your Mum and I with close family friends in UK were at your school graduation ceremony in Brighton to receive on your behalf a Bsc degree in Computer Science having met the school criteria. Demi, we are grateful to RCCG in Nigeria and UK and our close family friends along with your School that organized a befitting burial for your departure. Your colleagues at Sussex University and old friends from Redeemer University and Albesta Academy are always in contact with us. Your close associates in UK have continued to visit your resting place to beautify it and this shows the type of love they have for you even after your transition. To God be the glory. Sun re oo, Amoo Agbe.

Tunji mi,

It's been a strange year without you in it. I keep going back to Christmas 2018 and our cooking expedition. It was so jarring how much you had grown since the last time I saw you. I kept thinking, this little brother of mine is now a man. I remember asking if you were happy and you saying you were. I am believing that to be true; I am believing that you left happy. I love you, keep resting. 

I can’t believe it’s been a year. I remember when I found out what happened. It took me a while to process. Till now, I’m still in shock. I couldn’t believe someone I had been friends with for so long wasn’t here anymore. I miss you but what I miss the most is listening to you sing. I still can’t listen to Coldplay because all I think about is you teaching me the counting stars lyrics. I remember your voice singing grenade every. single. day in jss3 lool you made me so sick of that song. To the friendliest, most beautiful and talented soul. We lost you but heaven gained an angel. We all miss you Tunji, love you always ❤️

Hope (Demi my friend)
One major fact that i know is that, no matter how dark the cloud is, how threatening the thunder may sound, how scary the lightening is, how heavy the rain is, after all these the Sun will shine again, the cloud would clear up and we all would come out to play again my friend. You are not forgotten my friend forever in my heart. Legends never die.

Well, Demi thank you for all you've done for me. You gave me a lot and received close to nothing. It's weird that I'm still hoping for something else. ...I wish things didn't end like this.
I still listen to recorded phone calls, read the saved chats on Instagram and Snapchat to remember I met an amazing person on earth.
I honestly I miss our banter and a lot of other things. It's just sad that I've lost a very close friend to the cold hands of death.

I will never ever forget you
Ciao Abiola x

If I had known it would be the last when we spoke on that Friday, I’d have spent the time savouring those last moments, and absorbing every bit of your story so I could pass it on to the world. But by life’s design, I was oblivious of this. However I find solace in knowing that out final moments were spent laughing over a joke you had made, and that’s the version I would always remember of you, the happy child.
It’s been months since you passed, yet it feels like it never happened, like you’re only hiding in some distant land, laughing in your usual cheerful manner while pulling off the most horrible prank. Forgive me for writing this late, I confess I was afraid, scared to bear the full gravity of the reality that you’re gone.
Thoughts have been in the back of my mind the same way a name can be on the tip of your tongue; Enough to almost remember, yet not enough to recall. In those thoughtful moments I take a nostalgic trip down memory lane and I arrive at a sunny summer day when we roll our trousers, Kick off our shoes and play football in the park again. Barefooted, shirtless, laughing at how much you suck without a care in the world.
What hurts the most is the world would never get to hear you, your version of events, your side of the story, the world would never get to see it’s ugly reflection through your beautiful eyes, your amazing voice, and your deep soul...I promise to tell your story Tunji, I promise to relay the exact version of that story to the world, because it was and would forever be a beautiful story.

Tunji my longest known friend. I was just alerted about your passing. I had my my suspicions but never imagined anything of this degree. God has his reasons. It’s the world we live in. I wish your family peace of mind. And I wish you eternal peace. There’s more in my mind. But I know you know .

its the saddest thing and its not something i could have ever imagined through our time in school.
I still can't comprehend it and i dont think i would ever be able to. You were always a vibrant soul, the very best person, first to be friends with the new guy. We always argued about football and i really miss the good old days but im glad its the last thing we did some hours before it happened. It was a pleasure being your friend.
You have a special place in our hearts and i know youre in a better place. Rest in perfect peace blood❤.

I hate how i got the news because you were on my mind throughout that week, i was too busy to reach out and when i heard what happened i was in shock. You played a big part in my life, you'll never be forgotten. You inspired me to keep on writing poetry.
Rest on bro, you're loved.

Our last born, I’m happy I got to know the magic that is you. I don’t understand why you had to leave so early. We didn’t see as often but you were always there when I needed you. Your laughter and your voice were some of my favorite things to hear. I’d ask you to sing and you will, no complaints. I’m grateful that we got to speak in your last hours even though it was so short. Saying I miss you is an understatement but I know you’re in a better place. Thank you for always challenging me with your views on everything. Thank you for being a source of motivation and encouragement; a shoulder to always cry on.


Adetunji, you are rare, you are beautiful, you are amazing, your voice is pure gold, you are an intelligent vibrant soul and you are more than a brother. I’m not writing in the past because really there are no goodbyes for us. Wherever you are, you will always be in my heart. A great soul never dies. Rest easy My Wingman, till you sing for me again.

Tunji
When I count my blessings, I count you twice. You came into my life and basically changed the way I saw things. You became my best guy and you taught me how to love. I can never make sense of what happened to you and why it was you this happened to, but I’m grateful to God for making our paths cross and for blessing me with a soul like yours. For the teachings I got from you that I’ll forver cherish. Thank you for giving me a chance to be your friend. Thank you for being there when no one else was. Thank you for showing me depths and for letting me into your own life as well.
I remember talking to you just a week before you passed away, and I reminded you of how much our friendship meant to me. I thanked you for being my friend and I told you I’ll always love you. I didn’t understand why I got so emotional but I’m so so thankful I expressed myself.
The memories I have with you will forever be held in the highest esteem. I’m sure I have another angel watching over me now and that in its self, is the greatest form of love.
Whatever my lot, God has taught me to say, It is well with our souls and till we meet again, Rest well my dear boy. Rest well.

Perhaps they are not Stars,
but rather openings
where our Loved ones shine down
to let us know they are Happy. Rest In Peace my Bro. Forever missed.

My sweet beautiful brother,
It is a sign of how completely loved you are that this hurts this much. I know it is beautiful where you are because your beautiful soul deserves nothing less. Above all else I wish you God's peace Demilade mi. I miss you; you are, and will always be loved.

We got a call that changed my family forever. That dreaded call that nobody prays for - your loved one has passed on.
March 4, 1998, this cutie came into our lives and we finally had a brother. He will carry the Adekanmbi name on. You carried the name well till your last moment and we are super super super proud of you.
Darkness fell like a thick fog and it seemed like our light was shut out but slowly and surely it is lifting. Our hearts are filled with sorrow and pain but our spirits are full of thanksgiving. God has been so faithful, His word is helping and the Holy Spirit has been so comforting.
Goodbye Adetunji Oluwademilade ❤. Your memories live on in our hearts. You will never be forgotten.