People don't always see the tears a dad cries,

His heart is broken too when his daughter died.
He tries to hold it together and be strong, Even though his world's gone wrong.
He wants to hold his wife as her tears fall, to comfort her through it all,
He goes through his day doing what he's supposed to do,
But a piece of his heart has been ripped away too.
So when he's alone he lets out his pain,
And his tears come like falling rain,
His world has crashed in around him,
And a world that was once bright has gone dim.
He feels he has to be strong for others, But Dads hurt too,
not just the Mothers, He searches for answers but none are to be found,
He hides behind a mask when he is feeling down.
He smiles through his tears,
He struggles and holds in his fears,
But what you see on the outside is not always real,
Men don't always show how they really feel.
So I'd like to ask a favor of you,
The next time you see a mother hurting over the loss of her child,
please remember.....a Dad hurts too



I love you, Eddie, and I know that you are hurting too!

Your birthday's here but YOU are not. I'd send a gift but know I can't. So I'll make a wish upon a star to carry my love to where you are. I wish you were here. It's not the same without you around.I miss your warm hugs, your smile and gentle ways. You are missed each and every day.

June 15, 2015 marked the 2-year anniversary of our dearly departed Paige. I’m sure we all wished we had gathered that day in celebration rather than in mourning. But there we were gathered together to say our final good bye to our beloved Paige.

As I watched her dad, mom and sister standing over her grave heartbroken I could feel their pain....their loss. As I watched the rest of the family approach and place a rose on her remains I, too, felt the tremendous loss that we, as a family, had endured.

When it was my turn to place my rose on her remains I remembered the day Paige was born. She was the most beautiful little baby you could ever hope to see, and she was an especially wonderful blessing for Maribel and Eddie who wanted to start a family. With this one child, their prayers had been answered. They were so blessed and so happy.

Paige was by all accounts an easy baby with a naturally happy disposition. I have vivid memories of walking into her nursery and seeing her in her crib with a great big smile stretching out her arms to offer a welcoming hug. Of course, that smile and warmth became her trademark that instantly endeared her to everyone who ever came in contact with her. Paige was definitely meant to bring love into this world for the all-too-short time we would have with her.

In light of how deeply Paige was loved by her parents,her sister, her family, as well as everyone who truly knew her, it's difficult to understand why her life had to end so soon. It's nearly inconceivable that God would allow such a beautiful soul to have such a tragic accident, let alone die. When you look at it that way, it's easy to be angry at God for taking back the gift He gave us. I now choose to look at it another way.

God saw how dearly Eddie and Maribel wanted to know the joy of having their first child; He gave Paige to their keeping for a short time so they could know that joy. God allowed Paige to touch each of our lives showing us the beauty of human kindness in its rarest form. When Paige had the accident her suffering was too much to bear, so He scooped her up to Heaven, and all her suffering was gone. I believe she now waits patiently for the day when Eddie, Maribel and Sage will join her, and they will all live happily together once again. I believe that Paige would want us all to dwell on the happy times we shared with her, and let the sad memories fade.

Paige, no one really wants to say goodbye, so I'll just wish you eternal peace until we meet again. Your memory will live on in our hearts forever and forever you will be missed.

This will be the second Christmas without Paige as we prepare to celebrate this holiday without her once again. We miss her at all our family gatherings but her memory lives on in all of us. I know she is in heaven looking down on us.

So this holiday we can choose to shed tears that she is gone, or we can smile because she has lived and touched our lives. We can close our eyes and pray that she’ll come back, or we can open our eyes and see she has left. Our hearts can be empty because we can’t see her, or we can be full of the love she shared with each one of us. We can turn our backs on tomorrow and live in the past or we can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday's memories. We can remember her and only that she’s gone, or we can cherish her incredible memory in her short journey through this life and let it live on. We can cry and close our minds, be empty and turn our backs, or we can do what she would want us to do...smile, open our eyes and our hearts, love, be happy and go on till we meet again. )):((

Today, on your four month anniversaryI find peace in knowing that one day we will be reunited in Heaven and live a life of no sadness but rejoicing in our new life together! Until we meet again you will never be forgotten my sweet, sweet Paige!!!