9 years without you. It still doesn’t feel real to me. As more time goes by the more I start to forget the small things about you. I don’t remember your voice anymore. Never a day goes by that I don’t think of you. I love you so much and miss you more than words can express. I regret not cherishing the moments I did have with you and I’m sorry for that. Please continue to watch over me and protect me. Until we meet again one day. ❤️

9 years today, and it still has not gotten easy. We miss you terribly. I love you, mom.

Remembering you this holiday season. You are missed so much, mother. I hope I’am making you proud. I love you always. Until we meet again. ❤️

Happy 69th heavenly birthday!! You are terribly missed. We love you!

Wishing you a Merry Christmas in heaven mom! We love and miss you sooooo much.

Happy 68th birthday,Mom!!

7 years ago today you went home to be with our lord. Oh, how I miss you. So many things we didn't get to do, a lot of things I didn't get to express to you. Now that I'm older and I got some time of being sober under my belt I see things so differently. I know that you are always with me. I can feel you. I feel that you are proud of me. I have been trying my best to fulfill your last wish to me ( Take care of your dad and Anthony). I hope that you know I will not make the same mistakes with dad that I made with you. Your death and your loss was an experience that opened my eyes and taught me so much. I love you and I live life with dad in your honor. You are truly missed and this life has never been the same since you passed. I remember you not just today but I remember you every day. I pray that you continue to be at peace in the presence of our Lord and that he holds you in his glory. Until we meet again.

Hi nana, it's me Destinee. Today is just one of those days where I miss you the most. I feel so lost without you. I will forever feel like a part of me is missing and a part of me died with you. In honor of your 7 year passing coming up, I plan on getting something. It will be a Constant reminder that you will always and forever be with me no matter what. I’m not going to tell you yet because I want to show you the next time I see you.

Happy Holidays, Mom. You are missed and loved so dearly.

Sitting here balling my eyes out ( at her gravesite). Whoever said it gets easier with time is a liar! It doesn’t! It hasn’t! I miss my mom soo much. It hurts more now then it did when she first passed away.

I find myself angry at times because I wonder why she had to die so young. She was only 60 years old. She had so much more life left to live with us. Other times I find myself feeling guilty because I didn’t tell her to fight!

A part of me wishes I would’ve told her to fight a little bit more, maybe she would still be here, but the other half of me knows she was in too much pain to fight anymore. 

I miss her more than words can say. I wish she was here to enjoy this life with us. Nothing has been the same since she died. HOW I WISH THAT YOU WERE HERE MOM.

Happy 67th birthday in heaven. I hope you are dancing with the angels. I love you and miss you so much.

I remember so vividly walking into her hospital room ( after getting off my night shift job) this morning, 6 years ago, seeing her sitting up on a chair by the side of her bed. I walk in and say to her, “ What’s up, mom ( in my happy voice)? She turned her head as she see me walking in and say to me, “ KAREN! I can’t do this anymore. PLEASE, let me go. I’m in too much pain.” Her facial expression let me know this was “REAL” and I needed to listen to her. I sat down and we had a conversation about what she wanted. I remember wanting to tell her, “NO, MOM! You need to fight. You can’t give up. I don’t want you to die!” Then I quickly thought to myself, how selfish It would be to only think of my feelings and not hers. I instead I let her know that this was her fight to fight and if she couldn’t do it anymore then it’s okay. It was okay to not want to fight anymore.

Watching your mother take her last breath is bitter sweet. Only those who have experienced this will understand. It is something that is engraved in your soul.

Today marks 6 years since your soul left your body. But I know that your spirit lives on. I feel you all the time. You body is no longer here but your soul is in a better place, watching over me. I have tried my best to honor your Dying wish. I hope I have made you proud. In fact, I don’t have to hope, I know I have. I love you and miss you more every day. Thank you! Until we meet again.. i will honor your memory.

Merrry Christmas mom!!!

Happy Heavenly birthday, MOM!! I love you and miss you dearly. Happy 66th birthday my Angel.

Even tho at the time I was somewhere in the country traveling, I really wished I could of been there. Love you Tia Pam until we see each other in the next life i may not remember much from my childhood but I know your were one of my favorite aunts to talk to love you Tia 

My mom was in the hospital for 6 days ( 7 days total) before she finally told me, she didn’t want to fight anymore and to please let her go. I was the one who drove her to the hospital The morning of March 17 2015. For some reason I feel like she knew this time would be her last and she would not be coming home (again). They way she sat in the back sit, looking out the window, as if to enjoy everything she was seeing because she would not see it again. I still remember her face from that morning.

Time has gone by so fast. Here it is 5 years later. 5 years since she passed away. The pain has not gone away. You just learn to live with it. You learn to live with a little piece of your heart always aching. Always yearning for the mother you lost. I was with her ( from day one) while she was in the hospital. I went to work a few of those nights, but came right back and spent my days with her. I was there holding her hand until she took her last breath. Her dying wish to me was, “ take care of your dad and Anthony.” Her last words to me where, “ I’ll come back for you.”

I LOVE YOU MOM. I hope I have honored your wish. I hope you are looking down on me and are proud of the women you see! Keep watching over us. YOU ARE GONE BUT NEVER FORGOTTEN. RIP Pamela Delarosa

Happy birthday in heaven MOM. In my times alone, I still cry for you, in anguish. I miss you so much. I hope you are enjoying your special day with your family. Until we meet again, I LOVE YOU!! ❤️

Happy Mother’s Day to you, my beloved mother. Oh, how I miss you so much. I hope you enjoyed this day that we celebrate you!!! Love you forever and always.

Happy Mother's Day Mom Love and Miss you

Dear,mom march 24 2015 god took the pain away. Took you to a better place in Paradise. You taught me how to be strong in life to fight for what you want and that's what Iam doing .Till I too go to paradise and we meet again thanks for everything mom love miss you forever. Got your back aka your baby boy ❤️Never forgotten

Today marks 4 years that you left us. It has not gotten easier. I’m mourning you so much today. It has hit me really hard. I wish that you was here. I need you so much still. I miss you and I love you. May your soul continue to be at peace.

Happy new year 2019 mom love and miss you your life will not be forgotten with me let's have a great year

I love you so much! Thanksgiving was really good this year! You were the only person missing! Life is good. I’m in a good place in my life right now. I think about you all the time. I wish you were here. I know you see things that Are going on, but hey, what can you do, but to keep pushing forward. I try to make you proud, i think you really would be if you were here. I know you are around. I see the same bird by my door and I know that is you. I’ll be decorating your grave for Christmas soon!!! Always in my heart.

Happy thanksgiving mom love and miss you keep watching over me and helping me trying to keep my head up moving on from the past and start fresh veronica made her bomb food as usual we still think about you never forget till next time one sweet day

Happy 64th Birthday mom love and miss you some cake and music party time let's go

What's up mom love and miss you thank you for everything you will not be forgotten our memories live on in our hearts happy Valentine's Day till next time catch you on the rebound

Hey there lady
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Just writing to say him and we all miss and nooooo we have not and will not for get you.

Xooxoxooxoxo

Hello there lady
I know you are wishing your god daughter a happy 18 birthday, wishing you were here to call her at 12:06, birthdays and holidays are not the same with out you here, never for gotten xoxooxooxox

Thank you mom for sending me a beautiful healthy handsome son. He is everything I could have imaged and more. He is prefect. I miss you so much I wish you was here to share this with me. But I know you are here in spirit. Please walk beside me through this new journey of mine and help me be the best mother I can be to this precious lil boy. We love you. May you forever be at peace my beloved mother.

I MISS YOU SO MUCH MOM

I know you see everything that is going on.. I hope that I made the right choice and that the man above will forgive and have my baby born healthy and strong.. it'd funny how people and things change from one day to another.. I definitely didn't see that one coming.. but I have a baby o can look forward to and it will be my last mom don't worry..lol I miss you like crazy.. wish you were here

Can't believe it has actually been one full year that you passed away.. it was really emotional yesterday me dad Anthony my girls and Johnny cried as we prayed and lit candles for you.. you gone from this physical world but you are never gone from our heartsite or our minds. We love and miss mom

Can't believe it has actually been one full year that you passed away.. it was really emotional yesterday me dad Anthony my girls and Johnny cried as we prayed and lit candles for you.. you gone from this physical world but you are never gone from our heartsite or our minds. We love and miss mom

Dear mom today is a sad for the physical body but a good day for spirit as you pass over in to paradise your memory will live on through me keep watching over me and come to me from time to time I will honor your memory and well always let Omar baby Gilbert Desiree Veronica about you every Time I Think about you and well take care of what you left for me to do in you're honor thank you for everything love always your baby boy forever eternal life in gods name amen .

I'm here at work and you are heavy on my mind. I keep playing over and over in my head the mintues I saw you slowly passing away. I wonder what you was thinking did you feel anything. I ask myself should I or could I have done more to convince you to stay. But Inot my heart I know you was ready to go you needed to finally be at peace. OH HOW I MISS YOU THOUGH. I know you see my crying in my moments when I'm alone I know you hear my words when I speak to you.but I would give almost anything to be able to see you hold you touch you feel you look into your eyes one more time. I want you back. I miss you and I love you. Until we meet again mom

I wish you was here.. there is so much I need to tell you so much I wanna share with you. I can't believe it is almost gonna be a year since you passed. I miss you so much nothing is ever gonna be the same without you here.. I love you and happy new year.

Happy New Years mom love you hopefully this year I work more on the house but will wait and see

MOMMMMMMMMMMMM...... I MISS YOOOOOOUUU :(

MOM.. HOW I WISH YOU WAS HERE.. TO SEE THE GOOD THAT IM DOING. TO HEAR YOU SAY HOW PROUD YOU ARE OF ME. I MISS YOU SO MUCH. EVERY SINGLE DAY I THINK OF YOU AND THINK BACK ON EVERYTHING. I JUST WISH YOU WAS HERE TO SEE WHATS GOING ON. I KNOW YOU ARE LOOKING DOWN AND I JUST HOPE YOU ARE PROUD. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY. SENDING ALL MY LOVE TO HEAVEN. OXOXO

I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.. I MISS YOU EACH AND EVERYDAY.. NOT ONE DAY GOES BY THAT YOU DON'T CROSS,MY MIND. I WISH I HAD MORE TIME WITH YOU MOM. IM SITTING HERE REMEMBERING THE TIMES I WOULD LEAVE TO WORK AND YOU WOULD BE CRYING SAYING THAT YOU MISSED ME WHEN I WAS GONE... AND THAT YOU DIDNT WANT ME TO LEAVE.. WHAT I WOULD GIVE TO HEAR YOU ONE MORE TIME TO SEE YOU AGAIN TO HOLD YOU ONCE AGAIN.. I JUST MISS YOU DEARLY MOM :(

MOM.. IM DEEPLY HURT AND SADDEN BY YOUR ACTIONS.. BUT MORE THAN THAT I FEEL DEEPLY LEFT OUT.I FEEL DISAPPOINTED. IAM TORN BETWEEN MANY EMOTIONS RIGHT NOW.. IM HURT IM MAD IM ANGRY IM SAD.. I FEEL LIKE I HAVE ALWAYS FELT.. NEVER GOOD ENOUGH.. I FEEL LESS THAN TO MY BROTHERS. I FEEL LIKE THE BLACKSHEEP. I KNOW WE HAD OUR UPS AND DOWNS BUT YOU ALSO SHARED THE SAME MOMENTS WITH MY BROTHERS.. SO CAN YOU PLEASE TELL ME WHY WAS I THE ONLY ONE LEFT OUT? WHY WAS I THE ONLY ONE NOT WORTHY IN YOUR EYES??? I FEEL NUMB IM NOT SURE WHAT TO FEEL.. SHOULD I BE MAD AT YOU FOR THE WAY THAT YOU LEFT THINGS?? SHOULD I BE MAD AT MY BROTHER FOR WANTING TO BE GREEDY? I DONT KNOW.. BUT WHAT I DO KNOW IS EVEN AFTER ALL IS SAID AND DONE.. I WILL FORGIVE. BECAUSE FORGIVENESS IS THE ONLY THING I CAN DO IN ORDER FOR MYSELF TO BE FREE.. AND ALTHOUGH IT WILL TAKE TIME FOR ME TO HEAL FROM THIS.. I WILL MOVE ON.. BECAUSE IT TRULY ISNT ABOUT THE MONEY THAT GETS TO ME.. ITS HOW MUCH YOU THOUGHT OF ME. ME..BEING YOUR ONLY DAUGHTER.. I KNOWHAT YOU LEFT IN YOUR WILL.. LET ME KNOW HOW MUCH YOU THOUGHT OF ME.. BUT ITS OK MOM I DONT LOVE YOU ANY LESS.. LIKE I ALWAYS TOLD YOU YOU ARE MY MOTHER AND MY LOVE FOR YOU IS AND ALWAYS WILL BE UNCONDTIONIAL... ALL MY LOVE, KAREN

IM ANGRY RIGHT NOW... IM ANGRY AT THE FACT THAT YOU EXPECTED SO MUCH OUT OF ME AND I TRIED MY BEST TO GIVE YOU WHAT YOU NEEDED. OF COURSE I FELL SHORT SOMETIMES BUT I AM HUMAN.. AND YET YOU CHEATED ME OUT OF WHAT WAS EQUALLY MINE HAS IT IS THERES. IAM YOUR CHILD IAM YOUR BLOOD AS WELL AS THEY ARE.. SO WHAT MAKES ME DIFFERENT FROM THEM?? DIFFERENT IN THE SENSE THAT YOU DIDNT FEEL I WAS EQUAL TO THEM INSTEAD YOU MADE IT VERY CLEAR MY WORTH WAS LESS THAn THEM.. IM ANGRY AT THE FACT THAT EVEN IN YOUR DEATH YOU HAVE ME QUESTIONING MYSELF WORTH.. YOU HAVE ME LOOKING IN THE MIRROR WONDERING IF YOU REALLY DID LOVE ME.. AND NOT JUST LOVE ME CAUSE YOU GAVE BIRTH TO ME.. BUT DID YOU TRULY LOVE ME.. IM ANGRY THAT I HAVE TO SEE HIS FACE AND HIM KNOWIN THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO WITH WHAT YOU DID. IM ANGRY THAT HE GETS TO WALK AROUND WITH HIS HEAD UP GLOTTEN AT THE FACT HE WILL GET MUCH MORE THAN I.. WHAT DID HE DO THAT I DIDNT DO? I STAYED THE NIGHTS WITH YOU IN THE HOSPITAL. CAUSE YOU DIDN'T WANNA BE ALONE.. I TOOK YOU TO YOUR DOCTORS APPOINTMENTS I PICKED UP YOUR MEDICINE WHEN YOU NEEDED IT.. OF COURSE DAD DID THIS AS WELL BUT WHEN HE COULDN'T I WOULD. SO IM ANGRY THAT YOU LEFT ME FEELING LIKE THIS.. BUT I STILL LOVE YOU :(  I JUST WISH IN YOUR DEATH YOU WOULD OF TREATED US ALL EQUAL.. BUT AS YOU DID IN LIFE YOU DID IN YOUR DEATH. AND THAT IS A KNIFE TO MY HEART..

I JUST NEEDED TO VENT TO YOU MOM AND LET IT OUT.. I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT EVEN THOUGH THIS WASNT IN MY FAVOR.. I WILL LEARN TO LIVE WITH IT.. I WILL LEARN TO ACCEPT IT AND COME TO TERMS WITH IT.. IN THE END MOM IM GLAD I WAS ABLE TO DO THOSE THINGS FOR YOU.. I NEVER ONCE DID THEM THINKING TO GET SOMETHING IN RETURN.. I DID THEM CAUSE YOU WAS MY MOM AND I LOVED YOU.. AND I DO LOVE YOU.. LIKE I HAVE always SAID TO YOU YOU ARE MY ONLY MOTHER AND I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.. AND NOT EVEN THIS WILL CHANGE THAT.. I TRULY LOVE YOU UNCONDITIONALLY.. YOU GAVE ME what you felt at the time I deserved at the time. and I will go through my life believing you was gonna change it but just never did.. I LOVE YOU MOM AND I WILL BE HAPPY AND THANKFUL FOR WHAT I DO GET.. (unless he changes his mind lol but I won't hold my breath) it is hard to take all this in and come to the realization it is what it is.. LOVE ALWAYS YOUR DAUGHTER KAREN

MOM.. I HOPE YOU GOT THE BALLOONS WITH OUR WRITTEN MESSAGES ON THEM FOR YOU THAT WE RELEASED ON YOUR BIRTHDAY.. OOH HOW WE ALL MISS YOU SO MUCH. I HOPE YOU SAW EVERYTHING WE DID FOR YOU ON YOUR FIRST BIRTHDAY IN HEAVEN. YOU MAY BE GONE BUT YOU ARE NOT FORGOTTEN. I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH. AND I THINK OF YOU EVERY SINGLE DAY.. WISH YOU WAS STILL HERE. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN MAY YOUR SOUL FOREVER BE AT PEACE.. RIP

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR MOM.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!! MAY YOU ENJOY YOUR FIRST BIRTHDAY IN HEAVEN!! MISS YOU MOM

I MISS YOU MOM...

I MISS YOU SO MUCH.. STILL HARD TO BELIEVE I WILL NEVER SEE YOU AGAIN.. PLEASE COME VISIT ME OFTEN AND IN ANY WAY POSSIBLE. CANT WAIT until YOUR BIrTHDAY WE ARE GONNA CELEBRATE TO THE FULLEST FOR YOU. PLEASE COME BE WITH US THAT DAY MOM AND IF POSSIBLE LET US KNOW YOU ARE THERE. WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

mom.. I miss you so much.. just wanted to say Im sending hugs and kisses up to heaven for you.. I love you forever and always

yITS TIME'S LIKE THESE.. THAT I WISH YOU WAS HERE SO I COULD TALK TO YOU ABOUT WHATS GOING ON IN MY LIFE.. (SIGHS) I MISS YOU MORE EVERY DAY MOTHER.. OXOXOX

I MISS YOU SO SO MUCH MOM... MY HEART HURTS FOR YOU SO BAD. I NEED YOU AND WANT YOU HERE WITH ME. :(

LIFE JUST ISNT THE SAME... WITHOUT YOU MOM... MISSING YOU LIKE CRAZY... I LOVE YOU