I miss you memaw

It has now been eight months since you passed away , and it still feels like it happened today. The memories that I had and thought I had long forgoten has flooded back to me in these past months. Maybe it is you placing them back in my mind so I will not forget . Being without you in my life has been a big life change for me , I am no longer the same person as I was, I am not sure who I am any more. Mom Without you is one of the Hardest things I faced as I never imgined a day I could not call you , or a day I could not spend with you . I am so happy of all the times we talked and the stories you shared of your past with me good and bad, I am so happy I grew up in time to become your best friend and a better daughter . I feel lonley without you and I can not help to be shelfish and want you back with me, although I know you no longer suffer as you did here on earth, I know our last deep talk was of you saying you Loved me and talking about when you will die and we got what we both needed to say to each other out ,but I still feel like there is more to say . My heart aches and my life will never be the same without you Mom.
I miss you and love you till I get to see you again God willing ,Your daughter and best friend Rhonda.

This photo was taken on 11/2012 . Pamela came over to spend Thanksgiving day with Rhonda and Alladdin , All who attended was Robert Swadley, Pamela Swadley,
Sabrina Link, Kristina and Robert Johnson, Nathen Fankhauser, Ashley Sims and her children. I (rhonda) had cooked a huge meal and turkey, my mother(pamela) ate so much, she really had a very good time, talking and shareing memories with all of us, she told my husband(alladdin) about how my best friend Ashley and I got in so much trouble as teenagers and how much she proud of Ashley and how she grew up.How proud she was of me as well and that was one of the best Thanksgiving I think I will ever have , never knew it would be my last with her. God rest your soul Mom

In Photo : Robert Swadley, Pamela Swadley, Alladdin Shareif 

This  photo  was  taken  09/2012 , at  her  grandson  Nathen's  Birthday  party.  She  loved  being  memaw , seeing  and  spending   time  with  her  kids  and  grandkids  made  her  so  happy.  Although  she  could  not  offer  them  a  ton  of  materiistic  things  she  offered  all  of  her  love  and  that they  loved  about  her. They  never  asked  for more  than  that  and  this  made  her  feel  wanted  and  loved. My  Kids  were  very  close  to  her  and  this  has  been  hard  for  them  to  deal with. We  are  so  blessed  to  had  her  long  enough  to  have  had  moments  like  in  this  photo. 

In Photo : Pamela Swadley, Robert Swadley, Nathen Fankhauser,
Ashley Sims, Payton.