Happy Birthday momma. I miss you so much.

My precious dear Mama, it has been 3 years since you died. I still miss you. Sadness still fills my heart when I think of you. I still remain grateful for the time I had with you. I feel regret for not spending every minute with you the past days of your life. I can only hope that one day I will see you again. I love you mama.

You would have be 70 today. I wish you were still here but i am glad you are at peace. You are in my heart always.

I miss you so much Mama. But I am relieved your suffering is over. I hope one day I will see you again. I love you.

Thinking of you.

I miss you Mama but I believe you are still with me. RIP my dear Mother.

Happy Easter Mama. I have such fond memories of last easter. I am so grateful I had that time with you. I love and miss you so much.

Happy Birthday Mama, I miss you so much! But I am glad you are at peace. I can now think about you with out feeling pain. Now I feel joy for the wonderful time I had with you. It took me a few months to realize I could not control your destiny. I cannot express how grateful I am that you let me take care of you. You are my precious Mother and that is how I will always remember you.

Hey Mama, It four months now since you passed but it seems longer. I can now remember you without completely falling apart but the tears sill flow. I am still so thankful that I had the time with you before you died. I know how grateful you were that I took care of you the last six months of your life. So much of your life I wanted to take care of you and save you from yourself but I couldn't. I always want to remember your smile your laugh and hearing the words you would said to me many times a day " I love you baby". Its still so hard to believe you are gone. I love you Mama.

I miss you Mama. I think of you everyday. I am coming to peace with your death and can accept how ill you were. And now you are not suffering. I will always cherish the last six months I had with you. I love you.

Dear Mama.
It has only been 6 weeks since you died but it seems so long ago. I got used to having you around me even though it was only six months that I took care of you. I had adapted to not seeing you very often over the years but I called you at least 3- 7 times a week. I find myself having the impulse to call you but I cant. I say your name out loud in hopes i will get a sign you are still with me.
The first month after you died I was numb and wondered what I could have done differently to keep you alive longer. The second month I was able to reflect and be grateful for the time we had although I wished it was longer.I find myself wishing I would have brought you to my home sooner. This past two week I cant even think any thoughts I just feel pain and sadness. I want it to stop. I tell myself it is normal to feel this way and it makes me mad.
I had gotten used to not having you in my life a long time ago. It was the only way I could deal with the issues you had that I felt made it impossible for me to be a part of your life.
And then the COPD you suffered with for 8 years finally got you. As well as the hell you put your body through with your addiction to prescription drugs.
But I had always hoped that if you ever got to a point that you could not care for yourself and could not make the choices that affected your life so negatively, that I could help you. And so in April of this year that time came.
I knew last July when I had went to GA for a visits that something had changed with your health. But when you were given 6 months to live for some reason that seemed like enough time for me to take care of you and mend all the time I had missed over the years of not being with you. The first two month of caring for you I wondered if I could do it. Mainly because I was still in GA with you. But when I brought you back to Cali with me and we got your medication working right, for the first time since I was very young I felt like I had the real you. We had hours of hanging out talking laughing. For so many years we could not do this because you were either under the influence of your meds or in withdrawal from them.
But, the last few months of your life were the best for me. And now these past two weeks I don't feel grateful, I feel pain because I wanted to save you just as I always had since I was a child and I couldn't.
Some people do not understand the love I had for you because of your history. But I have always understood why you were the way you were. And I have never doubted how much you loved me and how proud you were of me. You were a kind person in-spite of your addiction. You were a loving person. You were my Mama.

In Loving memory of my Baby Sister. I miss you so bad. I will always cherish our precious precious memories, I had of you down here.
Go rest high up on your mountain, for your work on earth is done. I know you went to heaven a shoutin, you have reach the father and the son.
When my work on earth is done and my calling has come, I plan to meet
You and all the others over there. Your Loving Sister Juanita

My Dear precious Mama, one week ago you left this world. I miss you.

May you soar with the angels and watch over all who love and miss you!
RIP Patricia

My Precious Aunt Pat. I will truly miss you. You was one of a kind, I will miss the good ole days. You hold a special place in my heart. I know you are walking the streets of gold and looking down on us. RIP love your niece Little Linda

My Dear Precious Mother, Your body is officially being put to rest today. I will have your Ashes hear with me which will bring me comfort because for so many years circumstance and distance separated me from you. You and I had a special relationship that I will cherish forever. I am in pain over loosing you. I am in pain that I could not keep you alive longer. But the last six months with you have been a gift. I love you so much and you are part of me. You are my mother forever and always.
Rest now Mama. I love you.

We love you granny more than anything