Patricia Lois when a young girl, only ever wanted nothing more than to be loved. She was emotionally abused and suffered greatly. She loved all things nature and should have been protected by her family. She missed out on being a wife and a mother. I thank God for the last few years that I got to spend time with her and especially the last 8 months when she was more stable emotionally. I found her to have a great sense of humor and a mischievous twinkle in her eye. Mother was very well-read and her knowledge of history, nature, and words was extensive. She had such potential. She could have been a firm but good mother I think. She suffered from paranoia and after having me her life was so very hard for her especially with a domineering mother who was very harsh towards her. Because she suffered from a breakdown and was given electric shock treatment for what I believe was post-natal depression blaming my arrival as the cause of all her problems.  I forgive her for everything and am so blessed to have had the privilege of being able, in a small way to help her even when she didn't want any help and fought against it. I miss and love her and looking forward to seeing her in heaven and maybe get to have an afternoon tea in the sun, in a beautiful garden. She would love that.