As you may known we now have a add member to our family .We was bless with a grandson who was born in 2015,His name is Lucas Peter he is a beautiful little boy . You would love him as with our other two wonderful Grandson's who are both are getting on in this world.They are filling that big hole in my life & its a joy watching them grow im so sorry you can't share this experience with me by myside.Anyway i will be over to see you at your resting place soon loved & miss you so much xxxxx

Hi my dear husband.Well another year gone & a new year has arrived,I have been filling you in as to what has happened with in the family over the last year (2013) when i come & lay flowers at your resting place's.So i won't go over it all again.But like i have told you not a great year for me.Health & peace of mind is not with me at the moment.But you know that anyway.Our be-be is getting old & not in the best of health at the moment.But hopeing she wont leave me yet,She is good company for me,everyone is so busy with their life's i seem to be left behind.Still like i have alway said you only live once so make the most of it,So that's what everyone is doing.Wayne & Warren & Jason are all okay as is with their Family's.Caspar is coming on in leaps & bounds,Doing well at school im told.Will be seeing Lorne for lunch before he goes back to uni at plymouth.so all good there.Well if the weather good tomorrow i think you could do with a liltte tidy up after the bad weather we have had here & a little time spend chatting to you & filling you in with new news & how christmas went ??.R I.P My love. Give my dear mum a big hug from me tell her i love & miss her so so much as i do you....Untill tomorrow at your resting place.XXXXXXX

Hi Pete,Well this year has almost gone another year with out you.Maybe i am coming to resigned that nothing is going to bring you back untill i come to you.I have found this year easy then the Last but still miss you so so much.This year our First Grandson Lorne turned 18 year's old.Had a meal out with him on his 18th in oct then had a meal out with him a few days ago.Don't see or hear from him much. Our other Grandson Caspar doing ok.He started school this year,He love's it & made some friends there he is 3 1/2 now & getting big,(Still got his lovely hair) The boy's are doing ok.Wayne got his H.G.V. now start's a new job in the New Year,He is still working for the same company.He & Natasha & Caspar have done a lot of fund raiseing this year.They sign up with the Heart foundation &  other charity's & Doing more for next year as well.So proud of them.They are fine.Warren is now on track with his life sorting himself out at long last.Maybe that why i'm more at peace with my self & not worrying about him all the time,( Like we did )So all in all not a bad year don't you think.I.m fine still ploding along.Hope you like your Christmas tree this year.I thought it would be nice for you & Mum,Just to let you know & feel that your still with us big time at this time of the year,Its a sad time for all of us because your not here with us having fun & hearing you with your jokes & hearing you Laugh,But i felt you here at my side like you all way will be & in my heart for ever Give my Mum a big Hug from me & tell her i miss her so much & Love her for ever.So you keep our family safe for next year as you have done this year.I will pop over to your resting place after the New Year & fill you in on everything that i have not put on here,That's between You & Me...Love & Miss you so much .R.I.P.My darling XXX...R.I.P. Mum.XXX Sleep Well...xxxx

Hi Pete,Well its been 2 years last wednesday that you passed away,I sat here and looked at the clock and it said 8-53am and i throught that was about the time i had my last's chat with you before i went to pick my car up and do a bit of shopping,I ask you what you fanced for dinner that sunday you said '' I think a bit of Lamb would be nice'',Just think that was the last time i heard your voice and saw your smilling face and gave you a peck before i left.I often think would it had been diferent if i had been here when you became unwell,Could i have done anything to stop you leaving me,I've been told i could have done nothing to stop what had happend to you and would not be able to save you,I try my best when i found you l try every thing i have been trained to do to bring you back,God had the last word and took you,It left me heart broken when you went with him a bit of me went with you,I just miss you so so much,Im so lonely without you the night are the worse and that when the tears just come.I cant stop them and this how its been i cant stop them they just come and go,This must be the griveing progress i guess,The doctor said it will come in waves but it will get easy,But it dont,I dont think it will ever be easy for me,I was heart broken when mum passed but to losess you is nothing like the lost of my dear mum,You was my world,Any way. Your son's are doing ok. Natasha had a fall but is now on the mend,Also your grandson's are doing ok Lorne got your bug he got a motor bike now so please keep him safe,He doing well at school with his A level's in his 2nd year now,Now he got his bike he can see me more which is good i love seeing him.Caspar is getting big,He start school this year all i can say Is good luck to the teacher's LOL,He is so stong as to what he want's,A bit of a handful,But i think he will do alright in life because he is quite determine as to what he want's.I dont see or hear much from the rest of the family now i think they think because the years are moving on that im moving on and i dont need the support so much now which does worry me,I've not been well and had a few bad falls and i wonder how i would get help if something did happen or how long before anyone found me,Which doe's make's me scare when i think about what could happen,But that's life,Still it so nice for me to still give you a ear bashing LOL,At least you dont say anything and have to listen to me going on but at least i can still talk to you and air my worry's which help me with my life but i do wish you can advice me some time like you've alway use to when you was here,Maybe thats why we made a good team becouse we could sort anything out together,Maybe thats why im stuggling with life i dont know where i m going,Anyway im just getting ready to going over to see you and mum,I've had to re-grass again the bunny's and birds have had a good time on your resting place,Giving me lots to do LOL,I will be putting a Fathers Day card for you on your resting place to-day from your son's thats another year without you for them,I'm must get going so bye for now,You are always love very much and will be missed forever,  Love you my Dear Husband, Your wife Sandra XXXXXXX

Well  its our first born grandson 17th Birthday to day,You would be so proud with Lorne, He has turned out to be a fine young man,He has done very well at school with his exams,He is staying on in six form to do his A level's,He got a job at the swimming pool doing what he likes to do most,He a Lifeguard,Dont see him much now with working towards his A level's & now working at the swimming pool,We been out for sunday lunch now again which is nice to spend a bit of time together,But iv been busy with the house & he has been busy with his school work & now with his part time job,What he has achieved in his 17 year's has made us very proud of our Grandson Lorne,I know you would be Pete i can see you now with a big smile on your face,Take care of our boy's & our to wonderful grandson's ......Love & missing you so much,Every day i think of you,You live on in our son's & grandson's which is a comfort to me,But i do miss you for yourself...Love you lots xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi pete,well a year has passed,And what a year lots have been going on i've tryed so hard to move on with my life, I just miss you so much,I know you are still with me i can feel your present every where i turn,I just felt i need to let you no that the house is comeing on iv been so busy decorating yes me painting & yes wait for it putting wall paper up,It not as good as you would have done it, but i dont think iv done to bad,(what do you think) Iv put new wood floor down which look's good i thing i took a bit to much on all at once but hay you know me,Got to get it done, Iv had a lot of help from mikey hes been so good to me,Like a mini you? he's CV will look good when we finish (when)Sorry pete had to do the garden i could not manger it- its easy now for me to look after, The boy's are good. I like to think our younger one has grown up now & sorting himself out,He completely lost the plot when you left us,Iv been there for him but he could not see that then, hopeful he can see it now.Wayne & natasha are all ok,They have help me a lot by just being there Tash been good when i go & see them wont let me do nothing just chill-out, Wayne been so good pete but he need's to calm down & chill a bit he get's himself so work up over the small's of thing's and he is quite scary at time's i worry he's going to have a heart attack,iv seen caspar a lot more & Boy pete what a boy he is-He is coming on what a wonderful child, you would love him,Lorne doing so well at school he's living a full life out & about & he didnt forget my Birthday came around with lots of card's & present's,It would be nice to see him more or more phone call's,Still he's at that age's where he's enjoying himself,Jason been good helping me with thing i don't understand,just guideing me in the right dierction,he's pretty laid back on thing's & i dont panic which is good for me,but he alway's there,Now me im doing ok as i said iv  been busy with the house,not the same without you i just miss you so much,Had a few hoilday's but wish you was with me i feel it should be just me & you enjoying these hoildays,we work so hard all our lives to have the last of our years together,To do these things to see new things together,I feel that we have been cheated out of all the thing we said we would do when that time comes, Its all been taken away from us,I ask my self why what did we do,?I just find it so hard that your not here with me,everone said it gets easy as time goes on, it dont every day it get harded & harded,I dont think people understand what we had we loved each other so much,And that was special which we was lucky not everone gets or had that love,The family are doing ok in there own way you have to try & get on with life as hard as it is,Disppointed with SOME of your family pete,they were there for me at the begining,Then allowed me to be abused by a family member & did absolutely nothing,When i need them most they was not there for me,Deeply hurt by this ,but some of your family has been a great support to me anyway my love i love you very much and miss you so much xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I will always remember the very first National Lottery for its the time Dad won BIG.

We all went and purchased our lottery tickets, a few lines each, and waited for the draw to be made.

Me, Dad, Mum & Warren sat in front of the telly as the numbers were drawn out and each checked our tickets.

"Only got one number" said I.

"None for me" said Mum.

"I aint got any" said Warren.

We looked at Dad who was shaking,

"whats wrong Dad, you won" we asked.

"I think so" came the reply.

"what, you got six numbers we screamed".

"I got more than six". He nervously said.

"what you mean you got more than six".

"I got about eight numbers" Dad said.

"show us"

He had only gone and counted every number he had on every line.

It was always a running joke with Dad whenever the lottery came onto the telly, and he is the only person I know to get more than six numbers on the lottery.

It is scenario's like this that keep my memories of Dad alive and brings a smile to my face. I am so blessed to have had such a great man as my father.

Miss you and love you dearly.

Wayne.

I remember a holiday many years ago when we went  to Greece. There we were, sitting on the beach relaxing when we noticed that a crowd of tourists had gathered and were all taking photographs of something. I wondered what was so special so walked over to see what was occuring. As I got closer I could hear them saying look at the local Greek man as they took their pictures. I looked over and to my surprise saw it was Pete sitting up on the cliffs with his big hat on shading himself from the sun under a tree. He was oblivious to the fact that lots of people were taking photographs of him, thinking he was a tradtional greek man sitting in the shade.

I will always remember you. All my love

Clare Bear xx

On a holiday to Crete many years ago now, i persuaded my dad to go onto the water flumes with me.Now bearing in mind my dad didn't like water and couldn't swim (although strangely he was an excellent diver-but had to doggy paddle out of the pool) this was quite a rare event for him to set out to deliberately put himself into any sort of water induced fun-personally i think it was the beer he'd had and was more down to dutch courage!LOL!But i kept on at him that it was perfectly safe.So off we went up the long & high flight of steps to the top where the tubes started.It was at this point that dad wavered and started to bottle it a bit-but the fact there were a bunch of local little greek kids aged from 5 to 9 going down them in all sorts of positions from upside down,backwards to doing handstands etc my dad couldn't not go(plus they were giggling now as well)...so off i went,bouncing on the sides and spinning about in the tubes which were very fast,very twisty and very rough."Jesus Christ" i thought to myself "wonder how the old mans getting on" just as i was flung out of the bottom and into the little catchment pool.I didn't have to wait long as suddenly my dad shot out of the tube like a bullet and into the water..."Aaaarrrgghhhh....Warren,Warren,help me mate...i'm drowning,i'm drowning" screamed my dad loudly in horror as he lost his footing...i grabbed him as he was flaying and waving his arms around,splashing terribly and causing an awful commotion.All the local kids stood there watching him and all the mothers grabbed there little ones,the lifeguards rushed over with security as it looked like there might be a fight going on...."Dad" i said laughing"Your only in 3 foot of water mate"...spluttering water out of his nose he realised that half the aqua park were watching him-but as the relief washed over him we both started laughing at what had just occured-i can't repeat what he called me through his giggles but this is just one of many many memories.My dad was game for anything and had a brilliant humour about him-this is one of the reasons why he was so loved and liked.It's because of these and the millions of other memories that he is never truly gone from me-he's always in my heart,in my thoughts and his loving spirit is always there.See you again Dad.xxx