OH MY LOVE YOU ARE ALWAYS ON MY MINE BUT TODAY YOUR REALLY LAYING HEAVY ON ME MORE THEN MOST DAYS TODAY IMA REALLY MISSING YOU NEEDING YOU WANTING TO HOLD YOU I FEEL MYSELF REACHING FOR YOU CRYING OUT FOR YOU AS I STILL DO I JUST HAVE A HARD TIME TO FACE IT ALL THAT YOUR NOT HERE WHEN I NEED YOU THE MOST MY KING TO HOLD TO CRY ON THATS WHEN I REALLY FACE IT ALL KNOWING IMA ALL ON MY OWN AGAIN FIGHTING TO JUST HOLD ON A BRIGHTER DAYS ARE TO COME AGAIN BUT I DONT KNOW IF ILL EVER GET THAT ANGEL AGAIN I KNOW ILL NEVER HAVE THE EARTH ANGEL LIKE YOU WAS OR EVEN CLOSE TO I WISH I COULD TAKE TIME BACK TO BEFORE THE DAY YOU WAS TAKING TO HEAVEN CUZ I WOULD DO SO MUCH MORE TO OF SHOWED YOU HOW MUCH JUST YOU YOUR SELF HAD ON MY LIFE TO BE ABLE TO SAY WHO GIVES A FUCK WHAT PEOPLE THINK OR TO TELL MYSELF ITLL BE ALRIGHT YOU WOULD TELL ME THIS ALOT YOU HELPED ME GET STRONGER OF A PERSON BUT IF YOUD SEE ME TODAY YOUD KNOW THAT IVE FELL BACK WORDS IM NOT THAT STRONG OF A PERSON ANYMORE AND THATS WHY IM WRITING YOU SO YOU SEE I NEED YOU TO HOLD ON TO BUT I CANT SO ILL HOLD ON TO GIRL TO KEEP HER SAFE AS SHE IS ME LOVE FOREVER AND ALWAYS YOUR QUEEN RUTHIE