My darling sister Raheema, happy birthday from earth to heaven. I love you and miss you so much!

Dear Mom, these past few years have been extemly rough without you. You  are very much loved and missed. I miss hugging you, kissing you ,i miss being around you , i miss doing activities with you. I miss your persona, your charisma, and your passions for your hobbies and your adventurous, audacouis, bold, courageous fearless ways and attitude.

My dearest Reem ..... On October 26, 2018 you and I visited Parkview Cemetery. It was quite an adventure.  All I know and feel is the memories of that reside in my heart; giving you comfort; and easing some sorrows.  
Today, my thoughts took me to Azeez and it's so much of you too -  He made so many tough times easier and the best times even better.  
Thank you for all the days you’ve made brighter just by being you. There have been more of them than I can count.
I hold every memory we’ve made together close to my heart.  With all my love and gratitude ❤️

It has been three years today since you left us. The pain of loosing you is still raw and they are no words to fully understand how much I missed you. As we honor your memory today, we find peace and comfort knowing that you lived a life full of love, kindness, resilient, smart, funny, witty, thoughtful and sharp.  Most of all through this journey I have learned that grief will never goes away, but overtime you find a place with in you to store it and it becomes easy to carry. I am so grateful for my two sisters ( Shirley & Narie) to lean on in times of need. Reem, I love you with all my heart and missed you more than I could ever say. Rest in peace sista . ❤️

Hi Aunty,
Another birthday has come around !! Although I can’t be with you today, I want you to know just how much you’re loved and missed.
I miss your laughter, funny jokes and non stop cussing. It makes me laugh just thinking about it lol. Miss you loads.
Until we meet again.
Love always
Sabrina

RJ, I miss you every day.  You weren't just my coworker, you were like a sister to me. I miss our workplace chats, counting down to 4:29, FTS, not giving a f*ck, morning Tim Horton's trips (and sometimes afternoon ones), shared secrets and all the wonderful advice you gave me.  You will always be my partner... and it will forever be 4:29pm.  xo

Dear Reem, today is your birthday in heaven. You would have been 56 years old. Happy birthday dear sister . When ever I think about you, I laughed and cried at the same time. You were such a joy to be around and I missed you dearly. We shared many fond memories, inside jokes, and fun times together.  Having said that, life is definitely empty without your presence. It has been two weeks since Aziz passed away and I am so heartbroken . So much pains have poured into our plate for the past few years and only time will heal. Love and missed you dearly Bro and my sweet sister. Rest in eternal peace ❤️

My heart crumbles, my lungs hurts with every breath, my dreams shattered, a huge part of me went you on June 20, 2020.  I missed the evening walks with you,  I cannot walked the same by myself, it feel’s different knowing you are not here with us.  It has been a struggle for me everyday carrying on with life without you. You are my best friend and loosing you, I lost my mind. I often reflected on your last birthday we spent together, I made you fudge,  you had so much food,  we were all together, just the four of us, not knowing that, that was our last birthdays for the four of us.   Loosing you is like losing an arm and a leg and life has to go on.  I feel like since you are not here with us, I am thinking of you so much that many times I see you in me

My dear one and only mom, i just wanted to say how much of an amazing person you are. you are made up of atleast 30 different spectacular qualities. You are active,adventurous,affectionate,ambitious,bossy,brave,brilliant,calm,caring,charasmatic,charming,clever,sometimes clumsy,compassionative,sometimes competitive,confident,considerate,cooperative,courageous,dependable,energetic,enthusiastic, fair,fierce,friendly,extremly funny with a naughty mouth,generous,gentle,intelligent  and of course lovable etc..... Your the most outdoorsy adventurous  women that i have ever had the pleasure of knowing.You love your flowers,plants and gardens just like grandma. You are adventuristic and fearless like when we went camping and to the cottage. Oh and expecially when Richard took me, you,Brooke,Jamie and himself on the Chi Chi Mon cruise, I remember Brookes favourite pop was dr pepper.Im a litlle foggy but i recall Jamie and us feeding seagulls and the would eat the snack right out of our hands. I have experienced so many wonderful things due to you and Richard.I remember when Richard got me my first hockey stick,he got me my first dream catcher, he showed me a Inuksuk, thought me how to play chess,how to even tie my shoe,played basketball with me, thought me how to camp, work fires,roast marshmellows and doggie paddle in the water. I dont even know why im writing this to be honest, but it comes from my heart, and i hope it gives me some peace. Even though we have fought and quarrelled with each other many time we always made up because you we so persistant and never gave up on me and would not accept not being in my life, you had to be there and you fought to be there.i remember the sisterly love between you and your girls. Wify(aka Aunty Shirl) Nar(aka Aunty Bee) Shako (aka Aunty Shelly). The quadruple sisterhood is what you guys were. I remember all of the get togethers, the soca music,the dancing,the gaffing, the laughter , the drinking , and the smoking  etc....  I see resemblances between you and your sister wify, both of you are sassy, funny, sincere,sweet, thoughtful and trustworthy. Nar looks like a complete reflection of you and when i see her i think of you. Shako cooks delicious meals like wify just like you did. I dont know what else to say? Your a good egg as wify would say. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH for everything that you have done for me and thought me.May you forever rest in peace.


Sincerly your one and only son Adam Alishaw 

My Dear Raheema, 
I am still missing you everyday!
But I am grateful for so Many Memories, and for So Much Time Together with You!
Love Always,
Richard

Another year has gone by, bringing to mind the harsh reality that you’re never coming back. You’re never going to walk through my door with your bright contagious smile and warm affectionate hugs…nothing in this world will ever replace those. I miss you and so do many of your loved ones. We comfort ourselves knowing you are in a better place.
Here is one of my favourite songs that I know you will love too

I will forever Cherish the beautiful memories we made together ♥️

June 15, 2020. Two years ago  today my beautiful sista Raheema, has left us and my heart still can't process what had happened. Her death has taken a ripple effect through out our entire family. I would never forget the phone call I got from Narie noted Raheema, is not breathing. I dropped everything and rush to her house.  I missed you  more than ever. I know everyone says in time the pain will heal however, I feel as if though as the time goes by it just got harder and harder. Where ever you are, you will always be in my heart. Rest in eternal peace my beautiful sista❤️

Reem heart may have stopped beat on the evening of June 15, 2020, but she lives on every single day. 

My darling Reem, I still think about you pretty much every day. I’ve even kept you on my phone contact under “Favourite" as a reminder that you’re always there, even though I can’t call you. 

An amazing thing happen when you lose someone close to you.  You understand.  You form an unspoken bond with others that too has had loss.  People can sympathize, and reach out, but when you find that someone that is feeling the same pain you are, there are no words that need to be spoken.  We just know.

I am not over it yet.  Why should I be. I've spent 52 years of my life with you.  You were my baby sister. Many times I shared a room with you. I listened and laughed, and sometimes we fought.  Yes, even now, I remember the bad with the good. For so long, I have struggled to find the best way to work through your loss, often coming up empty.  There have been things that have helped me, though not entirely.

I thought 730 days would at least put a dent in how much I hurt, but it didn’t. It’s been 730 days of your absence, 730 days of missing you, 730 days of “being strong”. It’s been 730 days of trying to forget, 730 days trying not to care.  It’s been 730 days and I feel everything stronger than ever, and it hurts so much more than this string of words could ever portray. I thought time was supposed to heal; it hasn’t healed anything, only replaced memories and has served as a constant reminder that you’re gone.

Everything happened so fast that it has become hard to analyze things. Life is all of a sudden goodbyes. I never knew June 14, 2020 would be the last time we spent together. And June 15, was the last time we spoke, text and Sametime each other. You just never know when it’s the last time you talk with someone, spend time with someone.

My sisters and I were raised to be close. All our lives, we heard from our beloved mother (thank you ma) how close she was to her sister. In our family, sisters matter.  While growing up we borrow each other clothes, braid the other’s hair, have meaningful conversation. Yes!! It’s been 2 years of profound loss. The world we knew, the rituals we used to have, the events that got postponed, are all so near and dear to us.  But that does not always mean pain. I’m learning everyday about meaningful and purposeful life, and that pain and joy can coexist. Most importantly, I’ve learned to simplify my life; life is short.

If I knew June 15 was the last time I would ever talk to you, I swear I wouldn’t have stop talking, I would have been at your house and held you without letting go.  I’ll live in regret for my entire life, that if that day I popped over just like any other day maybe you would have shared something with me. There was so much more I wanted to say to you. There was so much more I wanted to do with you.  I thought we had more time.

In my heart you will stay forever! I love you Reem.❤️

I don't know where you going but I'll meet you there .... "Messenger"

It’s your birthday today (March 31st), you would have been 55 years. We wish you were still here to celebrate with us, instead you are celebrating in sweet heaven. Hoping you feel the depth of our love today and everyday. I missed our sweet, crazy conversation. You're a gift to me and to our family. A lot of you will always live in me. Rest in peace my beautiful sister, you've given me all I need. I hope you feel at peace just like you always made me feel. Today I am going to have a pina colada in your honor and then go for a nature walk, hoping to see you there . In my heart you will stay forever. I love you Reem ❤️

It’s your birthday, but it doesn’t feel like it without you here. It doesn’t matter; I’m going to celebrate it like you are here because I know that’s what you would have wanted. I love and miss you so much.

I know you’re in Heaven and that your birthday there must be way better than any party I could have thrown for you here. And maybe I’m being selfish when I say that I wish you were still here anyway.

Im playing this song for you, I can see you singing along and dancing, I will dance with you.

https://youtube.com/watch?v=i1c6W0cTDTo&feature=share

I’m feeling a little jealous of the angels right now. Happy birthday in Heaven, Raheema, Until we meet again.”

With Love from Baby ♥️

Vid was taken at the Lakehouse Restaurant - one more thing off our bucket list. Thanks, Reis!! We were seated on the patio overlooking the lake and I felt Reem presence.  I came home with such an incredible feeling of tranquility.

Richard, Shelly, Nar, and I visited Adam on June 15th, 2021.  We had a great visit to Hamilton. Our day was spent surrounded by beautiful stories and laughter.  It was memorable!! Richard the potato story will be with me for a while.

A year ago, it was impossible for me to know how I would feel on June 15th. Part of me wondered if the pain of losing my beautiful Reem, the woman who stood by me, would still be as raw as the day I lost her.  I had no idea what to expect. Now that we’ve passed the one-year mark, I’d like to share my feelings. 

In those earliest days, there was a certain numbness that kept me from falling apart until after months. A year later, I definitely wouldn’t say that the numbness and sadness are completely gone.  

She carries with her a certain magic and abundance of love.  You are loved, you are missed and you are remembered.

Her nurturing feminine energy and Yin and Yang power brings us to  balance and harmony

Her favourite getaway hotspot is Langdon Hall in Cambridge - Picture taken March 31, 2019.  She knows when to pause and when to turn a stressful day into relaxation and rejuvenation

So, it’s either Raheema liked you or she didn’t, it was black or white.  As for us sisters, we are still trying to figure out which one us (we know she loved us).  Families do not need to be perfect, it just needs to be in harmony.

Today we gathered together in memory of your Beautiful Self.
We shared sweet stories of events and situations that we had with you in times before. Some were funny, we laughed heartily and others were memories of just simple meaningful things you did with us as family and friends. I don’t think there was anyone in the room who didn’t have a treasured memory of you, you touched so many lives in so many different ways, YOU are Loved beyond measure. It’s a Grand thing to be YOU! I miss you So much♥️

Here is a song for you, I know you liked this one

With Love from Baby

Today we Celebrate Mother’s everywhere in the world, and YOU are not forgotten. You were one who consistently cared for Family, You navigated busy schedules, mentored others with love and lead with compassion. You were always there to help when a need arise, You were the true meaning of Mother, with your nurturing nature and I’m here to tell you that You are LOVED and CELEBRATED today and always ♥️
With Love from Baby

Ramadan Mubarak to my dear sister in heaven. I missed you so much and cannot stop thinking of you. It feels like I am lost in a deep cloud but you are always in my heart and thoughts. Adam is still grieving and cannot find his way. He has been praying, which is one of the best way to connect with you and god. I know your kind soul is watching over him and he is thinking of you being the greatest mom in the world. Rest in peace until we meet again. Love you always, Shelly

Remembering You this Ramadan. I still look to my office door and imagine you walking in wearing your red coat and your beautiful bright smile that always melts my heart and I rushed towards you with my arms open to give you my most affectionate hug, oh how I miss you ♥️  I miss sending you songs and read your responses of how much sweet memories they bring you.  
Here are some Ramadan songs for you My Darling

The first and last time I met with aunty naaz was back in 1995 and  she gave me   something I had no idea exist  and always made me remember her every  time I came across it ( marshmallows)  . She will always be deep in my heart  ♥️♥️.hbd in heaven aunty naaz RIP

Good morning Nazie was such a beautiful girl a heart full of love,  laughter and fun  though she has  gone too soon she lives in the hearts of her dear ones, until then ,take comfort in Gods word that says, there will be a  resurrection when all those in the tomb will hear his ,Jesus’s voice and come out, until then, let’s wait in expectation  when we will unite with our  dear love ones again. This is a promise from our loving God Jehovah. From Mousie Mansilla aka Mano and the entire Hariprasad’s family.
Love you all always.

Shirley this is nindo dee I am very  very sorry about Nazie.  Her name will always be  remember n be in our heart we always remember you  all. love u all God bless u all

"We always seem to love the things we've lost, but we never lose the things we love." Those who are gone will never return, only their memories will. Many came into our lives, some stayed a while, while some lasts a lifetime. Some made us laughed, some made us cried, some made us wondered, way the beyond, and some left us in a shock that no one would ever understand. We all wish for our loved ones to be with us forever, but time has another plan. Raheema  aka Nazie was no exception. She came into the Jamaluddin's family with a loving smile, with a good sense of humor, with a mark of excellence in everything she did. The youngest of four beautiful sisters, Raheema was the star of the party, and the family pet, if I may. She faced life with courage and bravery. She lived, laughed and loved selflessly. Her smile captivates everyone she came in contact with...... She left with us a life long memory of what family means. She stuck with her siblings until her last breath......As her birthday approaches on March 31st, 2021, she will greatly be missed by everyone she touched in her life. Physically she is gone and never will return as she was, but her life story will always be etched in our memories. She will always be remembered for as long as we have her in our thoughts. Her body is no more but her spirit is everlasting. We love you dear.❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

My sweetest sister Nazi,
I wish you were still here so I could wish you a happy birthday in person.

My heart aches knowing that I will never see your pretty face or hear that AMAZING and contagious laugh just one more time

Oh that laugh!
The one that would make the entire room come alive. That laugh that would ease a hard and stressful day.  That laugh that made any situation easy and comfortable.

All my memories of you are joyous ones, they still and forever will bring a smile to my face everytime I think about you.

You were more than just a cousin to me, you were a strong independent woman that I admired. You were a sister that was always there for me in good and bad times. You were a friend that I could share my secrets with and you always had my back. You thought me that its ok to lay back and enjoy life sometimes.

Its so ironic how the only person that would be able to make me feel better in a situation like this you be you. With one phone call or one conversation you made the stress and uneasiness just dissappear.

I wish you eternal peace and happiness sister

Rest in eternal peace my amazing sister Reem. Losing you on June 15, 2020, was one of the worse experience in my life.  Thinking of you and all the good times we spent together and the happy memories hurts the most knowing that I will never see you again.  Words cannot express how much I missed you and my heart still searches for you. I was never prepared to live my life without you, as you were my younger sister with so much love, fun, energy and passion.  Oh, boy was I in for a surprise.   Your death brought so much grief, pain and enormous sadness that still lingers with me every day.
I do realize grief is not a sign of weakness and not a lack of faith - it is the price of love and each family has its own history and the shared bonds that are part of the history.
When a sibling dies, the bonds are shattered and the history is forever has a void that cannot be filled. 
The pain never seems to end although I am aware that I am not alone in my grief.
I had many conversations with Shirley and Narie and we would cry endlessly wandering what the heck is going on and how are we going to cope moving forward.   
Reem wants love for Adam, her only child and we want to be strong for him.
His world has crashed but he is embracing her loving memories with comfort and strength.    We hide the hurt and pain because we do not want to cause him any further grief.
Adam became a huge part of my life and he is surrounding with much love within our family. He will treasure his mom and dad memory forever.
I was never ready for you to leave Reem and there is no good byes for us. Wherever you are, you will always be in my heart.  Love you always Shelly.

Dear Raheema, you were the only one that could make me laugh so much that makes me cry.  It’s funny that the laughter is gone and the tears are still rolling. I love you my sister and you will always be forever missed.

This is a poem I wrote for you on your birthday.

on June 15 2020 a Monday at about 4:29 P.M, your sole has left us and gone and I am still struggling to move on.

I lost courage and I lost faith, I know it is your birthday and we should celebrate, but I wish to wish you a happy birthday, but my deer sister we are a year too late.

I love you my sister and that you are not here has changed my world.
I will always remember when you said that I am your favourite girl.

I love you Raheema and I never taught how empty my life will be.
please god, bring my sister back to me.

Raheema you were more than a sister, you were also my friend.
I love you my sister, I love you till the very end.

Sometimes I feel very confused, I feel very tired and drained and my life is in vain, but for the most part sister, I cannot explain.

Loosing you Raheema took a toll in my heart and I never taught that we will be apart.

Since you were gone I wanted to be like you, but I finally realized that I cannot 
fill that shoe.

Today I can truly say that we are separated into two different world, you are free as a bird and all I want is my story to be heard.

The love we have is the love that is hard to find, as the love we have is one of a kind.

Writing this poem brings me some comfort, comfort of knowing that one day we will be together forever and I do hope it is sooner than later.

You have left us Raheema, you left Adam, Shirley, Shelly, myself, Hafeez,Azeez, your nieces, nephews and a great group of friends and has touched so many lives in too many different ways. We are all searching for you 
but could never find.
O dear Raheema you are one of a kind.

Thank you Shirley, Thank you for being there, thank you for the endless hours we spend on the phone listening to my grief and pain. Thank you for all the prayers we prayed.  Thank you my dear sister, I could not have done it without you.  

Thank you Shelly, thank you for your love and support. Thank you for checking up on me on a regular basis.

Wish You were here today, For even just a while,
 So I could say Happy Birthday, and see your loving smile,
 The only gifts today will be, your sweet memories left behind,
 Of laughter, joy and happiness, that echo on, in my mind,
 I’ll gaze upon your pictures, I’ll think of you with love,
 And hope you’re doing fine, in heaven up above,
 May close friends and family, hold you closely,
 and sing you a happy birthday song,
 I’ll be sending you a million hugs and kisses, 
 today and all year round

Dear mom,
i just wanted you to know that wherever you are i love you lots and you are truly missed.  You are not only missed by me, but by your lovely sisters, brothers, nieces, nephews and close friends.

I know that you and i did not always see eye to eye on things but I know that our love for each other is unconditional and unquestionable. I remember when id come home to visit, you would say "you miss your mommy bai" (in the guyanese accent) and i would respond saying "yes mom", then she would say "how much you miss your mommy son?" When she said that i would stretch my arms out as far as i could and i would say "i love you this much mom."

My mom always tried to give me exposure to things, she put me in basketball lessons, soccer lessons, karate lessons, boxing lessons and also having me take Arabic lessons to read the Quran.My mom never knew how to swim, so she made sure that i would know how to swim so she put me in swimming classes. My mom would take me,my aunts and my cousins to Canada's Wonderland, Bingamans, African Lion Safari, the Zoo, and Marineland. These are few of the memories that i have had with my mom.

My mom is smart, kind, understanding,and sassy as hell. My mom would implement telling the truth, being honest and being compassionate about the things that you love. My mom really loved elephants, elephants symbolize good luck,protective,prosperity,destroyer of evil,remover of obstacles,strength,power,wisdom,memory,vanity,success, and experience.

My mom met Richard when I was 7 years old. Richard is the first and only man that my mom ever brought around me. Without my mom and Richard i would not know as much stuff as i do today. Richard got me my first hockey stick, Richard taught me how to tie my shoes for the first time and he also taught me how to play Chess.

My mom took us places such as camping in the woods, riding on cruise boats, cottages and took us to pili island. When we were at home, my mom would put Richard to work, she'd have him gardening and doing yard work, have him do dishes, shovel snow and a bunch of other household chores.

My dear mom, you are missed by so many people that love and cherish you. i hope that you are having a ball in Heaven. i wish that you were here so that i could hug,kiss you and tell you that i love you. I pray that someday I make it up to Heaven to be with you. Till then, I love you lots.

Your son Adam Alishaw.

I love you sister and you are deeply missed.

When I think back to all the wonderful memories we shared with our beloved Aunty Nazi, there was always a laugh to be shared and lessons to be learned. The bubble tea adventures, the walks in the park, and the trips to the beach are just a few of the many amazing memories with her that will be cherished in our hearts forever. We love you, we miss you and happy birthday to our beautiful angel! - From all of us