Mama im sorry im,a bit late in my message, to you since you

Happy Birthday Moma, I miss you so much, every minute of everyday.
I'm having the hardest time going on without you in my life is the loneliest and worst thing I have had to continue to do day in and day out.Did my beloved Cocoa come join you, Cheats, and Thor, or are her and Thor waiting for me to come join the rest of you. Well I'm not with asshole anymore, I'm with Marc but very soon to be all alone in the world for the very first time in my life. I know if Cocoa had not been taken from me I would have survived no problem. But I made somebody very mad at me and they felt I did not deserve her love and protection. She protected me like you so well for so long and in the end I fails both if you and Lola too cause I was nit there for any of you when each of you needed me the most. For this I am so si sorry. If I could go back I would change it all. I'm sure I will be back a fee times before the day is out but I had wanted to say Happy Birthday to the vest Mom there everwas. I LOVE YOU MOMMYY.

To my beloved mama, I miss you so much, I know you would be angry with me for the great sadness I can not get over but I am applying for your old job, I hope this would please you. I will love you always

To my mama, the strongest person I ever knew, had the cancer for years and never said a word until it was to late to help. she had had several tumores removed over the last few yrs, she would have them done on her fridays after she got off work and go back on monday, never did the kemo because she did not want any of us to know, never took a pain killer even at the very end.

She gave all her time to work and the money to her grand daughter to fight for custody of the kids and to every animal charity she could, she helped rescue stray animals or pull off the road where she would see wild animals and feed them. she loved us all and wanted us to be happy and to give her cats all the love that she did. I really miss you mama and i'm so lost with out her.