ForeverMissed
My beloved son Liam Patrick Joseph O’Neill was born on a beautiful fall morning. On October 19, 2020 at 9:15 a.m. Liam Patrick Joseph O’Neill was finally his own lil person. It was all so surreal. I was finally holding my son in my arms . My son was safe & in my arms & for the first time since childhood I felt at peace. I spent most of my adult life struggling to fill an emptiness in my soul & as a gazed in awe at the miracle Liams Daddy & I created I felt reborn, I was complete. Liam filled that emptiness in my soul, he was the beat to my heart, the light in my life, I knew I was born to be his Momma! I made poor choices &suffered the consequences of those choices. I thought that one of those consequences was that I would never get to meet the son I’d dreamt of having since I can remember…The moment my son was born I felt complete…As I held my precious son I knew my life had finally begun. I can’t explain that feeling of pure & genuine love. There aren’t words to articulate such a bond/connection..Nor can I explain what it’s like to lose that genuine love. It would be easier if I had died myself, to live without him is like living without my soul. I feel empty inside. Nothing feels ‘right’ & there’s little I get enjoyment from. I miss feeding him & giving him a bath...I miss being my sons Mom, I even miss changing his crappy diaper! Grief is a funny thing, it’s an emotion, emotions & feelings aren’t rational & we all grieve differently. I spend a lot of time pretending I’m ok, I lie & I try to remain positive & hopeful...But inside I’m SCREAMING, I WANT MY SON BACK! I Just want my baby boy back...I want my life back, my family...I am so thankful for my son. I am so blessed to have had Liam. He was the light in my life, the sparkle in my eyes & he brought me to life. When I became his Mom my dreams were my reality. Now I awake every morning to the realization that I’m living my worst nightmare & I can’t wake up. Liam blessed my life with so much love & his loss left a void that can never be filled. I think about his life & the life he’ll never get to have... I have to believe he’s watching over me, in the Stars he loved so much...I am still his Mother & As his Mom I think it’s my job to share his life, our memories. He can Live on through our memories. He had a enormous presence. Looking upon his face you knew an Angel had kissed those chubby cheeks…And his giggle, his smile…I will spend my life mourning him & celebrating his life. However short it was it will forever be the best 10 months of my life... This website is a tribute to Liam Patrick Joseph O’Neill, the beat to my heart...please feel free to share your own memories. I hope your dancing in heaven My Angel in the stars ⭐️ ✨⭐️
Posted by Jacqueline Cook on April 15, 2021
My Angel in the Stars...fly high my precious lil man...We were not ready to say goodbye....You should be here with Momma & Dadda❤️You were so curious &just wanted to experience everything & you had such a fire inside you! You would stop at NOTHING until you were ready to stop! .I miss u so much!!! Daddy does too....Life has been crazy without you!!! I don’t know how to live in a world without you...But I’m trying for you...I hope your having a blast up in those stats you loved so much❤️❤️❤️

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Posted by Jacqueline Cook on April 15, 2021
My Angel in the Stars...fly high my precious lil man...We were not ready to say goodbye....You should be here with Momma & Dadda❤️You were so curious &just wanted to experience everything & you had such a fire inside you! You would stop at NOTHING until you were ready to stop! .I miss u so much!!! Daddy does too....Life has been crazy without you!!! I don’t know how to live in a world without you...But I’m trying for you...I hope your having a blast up in those stats you loved so much❤️❤️❤️
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Shared by Jacqueline Cook on June 7, 2021
I can’t put into words how much I miss my son… This was his first St. Patrick’s Day God him so much!!!!